+DAILY NEWS (if I update regularly)+

Yes! This is my news section, I'll try to post all the random shit that goes on in my life here.

+What's NEw?+

1-13-05 MY BODY LIES BUT STILL I'LL ROAM yeah, looks like im leaving, im not sure when ill be back tho, all i knkow is that i have to get my shit ready and leave by next week. i dono if ill decide to comeback or not, best bet is probably not but it all depends. on what? well being as i have nothing to live up to here, if where i go offers me a life where im actualy needed (hahah cool thing is i can transfer in my job) and if i see that i can make something a bit better than waht my situation is here, i just might stay over there and not comeback at all, or atleast for a long time. so for now im off, im gona start looking for shit to take with me......so peace out peoples

1-12-05 BLACK MAIL THE UNIVERSE well today sucked, im not even gona get into how bad it got im just gona scratch the tip of the fucking iceberg. well to start up, i woke up and started coughing blood, ofcourse i told NO ONE as i always seem to keep shit to myself and end up typing it on this site since i know NOONE ever comes here. then i decided to be nice for once you know, and do someone a favor since they are my friends and shit but anywho i dont want to get into that because that kinda mixes in with another 2 friends of mine who had nothing to do with it. but anyways i get to go visit my old school cuz that was on my way of events....i had forgotten HOW MUCH FUCKING ASS HOLES people are there, FUCK i mean everyone iwas nice too was being compleat dickheads and shit fucking dissing me and shit after all the shit i helped them with. and NOT ONLY THAT I FIND OUT THAT SOMEONE printed out my pictures and started posting them around the school. which kinda freaked me out because no one i know has my pictures. but anyways it turns out that out of all the people that i saw the one that i least understood at times cuz we were always on the opposite side of the specturm was always the nicest, THANKS PETE, heheh that guy kicks ass he even asked me for my site page. oh and by the way now i found out that they took my picture of the intro, which is kinda .....meh weird, out of all the pictures i have posted why that one?. anywho enough on my school cuz that just makes me want to go back and fucking KILL EVERY ASSHOLE THERE...im surprised i didnt get into a big fight or anything. but now lets not mention my personal life and move on to my job shall we, cuz then ILL NEVER finish. at job i fucking got in trouble for the stupidest shit ever, and now theyre threataning to put me in "special performance" which means if that bitch doesnt like the way i comb my hair or ANY little stupid thing like that i can get fired....well i dont think ill get fired. but anywho, theres alot of tension at my job because everyon wants the possition that i applied for, so everyone is trying to find a way to get rid of me, but who the fuck cares, ill probably just be like "fuck it i want my old job".....im realy stressing out too cuz things at my house aint going too well per say, maily cuz im sick and so is everyone else, but luckly im living alone (basicaly)....right now the only person so far being nice to me is my EX....OUT OF ALL FUCKING PEOPLE for crying outloud i think she became my best friend, ahahah nah im kidding Ryan you still my bud, my right hand AND FUCKING 4INCHES TALLER. bitch i swear ill grow to be your hight.......someday!....lmao. well im off for today cuz im tired and i just vented out all of my anger typing this shit up

1-10-05 I GOT IT BAD GOT IT BAD GOT IT BAD!!! IM HOT FOR TEACHER!! oooh yeah *does a lil air guitar playing* kick ass i am good, im too good sometimes =D. well turns out that ive been giving classes for guitar, and also ive been taking classes myself, and my teacher was like "wow how did you do that? you mean you know all this? ok sounds good i have an idea lets move on to the more advanced stuff" and that translates into "ash thats it you're going to replace my top student right now and gona play with me at my next concert"....and not only that, my student is realy happy with what im teaching him cuz now hes learning all his favorite songs by ear!!! oh yea im good, im teaching how to have perfect pitch so i GOT IT BAD GOT IT BAD GOT IT BAD SOOOOOO BAD!!!!!! WHOOOA-OH

1-05-05 .....i realy dont know how the hell im still alive! hahah ive been horribly sick for the last 3days lying in my death bed coughing up blood and shit cuz my throaght got all fucked up and shit, haha that was fun tho cuz i got to feel all not there and my body felt empty tho it hurt like a bitch!.....well all my body still hurts like hell but hey i got used to the pain now so its all good. i just hope things get better for my friend, things aint goint too good for her lately, dood! i love you alot! seriously you know i do and i know that alot of the shit i say you may listen to and you probably ignore it, but yeah lets go out to lunch tomorrow and shit so we can talk about it, ok? give me a call or somethin i love ya sooo much i cant have anything happen to you too :( cuz then ill be loosing EVERYONE

1-03-05 well today was weird, i started getting trained at my job again, its odd cuz i forgot how easy/fun training was, bad thing is i still have to work for about an hour after training and aobut twenty mins before, its sucks but its cool cuz i get to sit around being lazy and eating all day lol, besides its all good, and im getting payed more now WOOT WOOOT raize the roof its party time. not only that im realy happy to hear that one of my friends is going to be working there also, so i might as well pull some strings so that they can be there with me and i can teach 'em how to make lots of mullah heheheh, but then again i probably wont get the chance for a while. anywho ill let my evil side take charge and ill get my friends in with me!!!!

12-31-04/1-1-05 well its new years and even though my christmas was a lousy one due to the loss i had on christmas, i was happy to see my two cuisins who are the onlyones i get along with in my family and they came to hang out with me, it was realy emotional when they showed up, but i was happy for the rest of the evening, but being back home, i dono, it just feels so empty w/o them. i mean im practicaly alone for the rest of my life now, but hell ill make it my new years resolution to be strong and surpass all my problems in life with a strong mind. but i dono, i guess im thankfull for them remembering me :D but now comes the uncontrolable crying afterwards, i don just writing this i feel like i want to die,....but anywho, i shall be strong now and nothing will let me get down again. to those ppl who say they care about me thanks for NOT showing it, and for those who suposedly are my friends FUCK YOU!..hahah yeah that goes out to all you fucking hypocrites that never remember your pal who for some odd reason was always there for you, from now on you can all just fuck off and see who helps you now. but for those of you who DID remember, I LOVE YOU, all four of you (2 of em being my cousins, the other 2 u know who you are), and i realy dont include my closest frineds ANGELA and ASHLEY because of the distance but you two still kick ass and i love you just the same, well not u angela cuz ur evil!! haha no im kidding i love you the most (cuz i know ull stab me when u get the chance lol) but you two ashley, especialy your evil blondness now that im calling u :dRED: locks! muahahaha, well peace out call me or something you guys

12-28-04 DAMN, well my dad is in town, and as happy as i am to see him again, we always seem to fall back to the same old shit as always, him bitching at me about how i live my life and trying to get me to go on a guilt trip of why oh why did i choose to not live w/ him, ofcourse he told me to be honest so i told him why, and that was a big mistake cuz as always he gets mad for anything i do and or say,sometimes i wonder why the fuck i care so much for what he has to tell me sometimes...either way ill try to look past that and not dwell on it.....

12-26-04 A SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS....well just like the title imposes, there were a series of unfortunate events, and somehow my life ended up like that of the kids in the movie, christmas for me will never be the same again. you know how you hear about families who loose someone on christmas day or eve? what do you think when you hear that? "ooh poor guys" "i cant imagine how that feels" ......or unless youre a real asshole "oh sux to be them". well to me that bullet hit home. hit my family, and hit those in my life.....i realy dont know what to think or say, other than god works in mysterious ways. even tho i have been at odds w/ what some people may concider religion i stand strong in what i believe, one of them being that god, no matter how much of an asshole he can be sometimes-always has something in mind. i dont realy believe in all the middle ppl like jesus or the virgin mary or any of the prophets, but i do think that there is someone up there, even tho he may not be listening to me most of the time (if not all of the time), but with what has happened, i have been given the chance to reconciliate what ive been doing w/ my life, luckly not all my family is gone and i still have those that mean the most. but with what has happened i have decided to re-group with my band and even get some new members and finaly set out what i was set out to do. travel and make music, so to you guys reading this, its time to weild our axes again: the mic, the gritty rhythm, the shredding axe (me), the thunder bass, and lets not forget the thunder of drums. guys, i know you check this page every now and then, so get in touch with me so we can finaly make all this shit work i know NOW that we ARE ready..........let us go and do what we always wanted \m/

12-21-04 WTF?! well yesterday i was a damn mime, and for those of you who dont know, I HATE MIMES!!!! they are the apitamy of the world, dont get me wrong, the people being the mimes are sometimes cool, but the mimes themeselves are a pain in the ass. I dono, i guess ill just add MIMES to my hitlist now, and put myself in first place =D

12-20-04 NEW ADDICTION, hahah yes i have found a new addiction, its called TRIVIUM! that shit is cool. hahaha i bet most of you guys dont even know wut it is, and you know why?! cuz you're not cool enough, ahhahahaha, *ahem* no not realy, trivium is a realy realy realy ridiculusly cool band that my drummer (hopefully he will be my drummer hahah) introduced me to a while back, and it fucking kicks ass. if you guys want to know more about TRIVIUM ask me, my messengers are (aim/yahoo) LUCIENDARMETAL. im on just about 24/7 so you'll find me eventually :D. till then peace out........oh yeah TOMORROW I HIT THE STUDIO!!! WHOOOOHOOOO \m/

12-17-04 UGH the lazyness is horrible, im just gona archive the whole last month, but if it doesnt work screw it ill just make another page for it, so just overthere to your OTHER left, where it says archives click on the little link to see wut last month was about, not like anyone ever visits anyways, but hey :D maybe someday no?