Star Date 06070.3

I’ve got explosive gas, or would you like an RC with that Moon Pie?

While the girls are pigging out in the back of the van, I'm going to take a moment to jot down an entry for my log.

Well, I’m still not sure what happened to me in the lingerie shop. One minute I’m looking at this little blue number and K is asking if it would make her look fat, and the next I’m sitting in the back of some smelly van. Damn I hate these blackouts. Normally I can tell what is going to trigger one by the waves of fear that accompany it, but I didn’t have any of that this time. One minute I’m standing there thinking how good the blue will look with her white fur, then BAM! I’m sitting in the van.

Well, I decided then and there that I needed to face my fears and see if it was just being with K that was doing it, so when Tarra made space, I slipped into the seat between the girls. When I still didn’t feel the fear starting to kick in after a moment or two of sitting there, I happily settled in. The seat is much more comfortable than sitting with my back to the door on the floor had been.

You know it may have also had something to do with that stuff Demian was smoking as well. Seems like I got sleepy, relaxed, and less inhibited the last time he and R’Merr were smoking that stuff too.

I don’t really remember how it all started, but now that I think about it I remember that K asked me to fix a cracked claw for her. She said she cracked it fixing a tire, and oddly I have no memory of that. I also remember her asking me to play Patty cakes? I have a dim memory from my childhood of hearing of the game. I think my sisters played it. I seem to remember hearing them chanting that fraise over and over from where they had locked me in the closet.

Anyway that dark though was driven from my mind by the events of the next few minutes. In quick succession K flashed me, seeming to totally not realize what she had done, then to nearly crush me to death in a hug for filing her claw for her, and started to cry. Goddess I wish I knew how to handle it when a woman cries!

Then the oddest thing to date happened. In the middle of the hug and crying she said that she loved me, something that no one has ever done with that sort of feeling. Goddess I felt totally lost. I don’t know if it was her saying that she loved me and seemed to mean it, or lack of oxygen, but I told her that I loved her too and she acted like no one had ever told her that before. She started screaming my name and saying I was the perfect man or something like that. Sort of made me feel even smaller considering what I had planned to do to her for Ironbutt and even more lost, then she passed out! But under it all I felt good, good not for hurting her but for making her happy.

I was feeling lightheaded as well, but after a quick check showed she was fine I relaxed. She settled in and made herself comfortable after a while with her head cradled against my side. A few minutes after that, she started mumbling in her sleep. Some of the things she said were that she felt safe with me and that she trusts me. I wonder if she still will feel that way when I do finally tell her. I wonder if I will live through it. Just no way of knowing yet, but I felt special for the first time in my miserable life!

We chatted as K slumbered for a while, and Tarra and the others ribbed me about marriage, but the whine of the tires and the rumble of the road put the Tarra to sleep after just a few more miles, and I was to shortly follow. It’s strange how one sleeping person can make the people around them want to follow them into slumber. Anyway I woke up to find that I was sweating up a storm and had one big furry head full of fangs on my shoulder and another in my lap!

A small wave of panic hit me, but I was thankfully able to swallow it down and not startle the girls into shredding me to bloody ribbons. I can just see how they would have reacted to a howl of panic. Just when I thought I was out of the woods, some jerk behind us started making a blaring howling sound from his vehicle, but the girls didn’t seem to notice. Thank the Goddess!

Must be a cat thing, but Tarra doesn’t wakeup any faster than K it seems, and oddly she had her tail wrapped around my abdomen. They both took some time to come around, T’s tail and K’s purring in my lap weren't doing anything for my modesty! Why is it that while I despise male Kzin, the females seem drawn to me like a magnet?

Just a note, but I finally saw K embarrassed and it was cute. Seems she was shocked at where her head ended up. I thought that it was better not to mention it when she asked how long her head had been there like I hadn’t noticed. I don’t know if I saved her honor any, but it was worth a try, specially considering that I had no idea how long she had been there and I had no intention of calling attention to my lap just then. I also noticed that Tarra was a bit embarrassed at having had her head on my shoulder. Serves her right for ribbing me about marriage.

When I finally managed to wake them and get disentangled, I looked around and discovered we were at some sort of fuel stop. The Captain seemed to be upset about the people here saying that they were all dressed like Elvis, whatever that is. I never did discover what that meant, but I guess it had something to do with music as several of them had musical instruments on their backs and in their open vehicles. Oddly the vehicles were mostly painted pink. I guess maybe it was some sort of religion or something and the Elvises were on a pilgrimage to somewhere. Were these what were called holy rollers?

The gas station as the locals called it seemed to be in a very convenient place, as the van needed fuel and my fellows and I needed to relieve our selves.

The kiosk behind the fuel dispensers was packed, and the line for the men’s room was almost to the door. I started to stand in that line, when K pulled me into the woman’s room. It wouldn’t be the first time I had used the ladies room when needed, so I followed.

What happened next still has me shivering, but not all of it in fear reaction. Instead of heading to one of the stalls, K grabbed me at the door and told me that she needed to mark me as I had her. Considering were we were and what I needed to do, I had a very bad feeling about what she wanted to do at first. Unfortunately it wasn’t that easy on me. She instead wanted to put her mouth around my neck!

It took every last bit of resolution I had not to run as she put her mouth about my neck and I felt those sharp teeth and that warm breath against my flesh, but I managed to hold my ground. Goddess I was glad when it was over, and I was just as glad that I didn’t pass out!

We fell to the floor after that and embraced for a time. I've never experienced anything so powerful before in my life! Well, perhaps my first kill would come a close second, but that moment did pass them all.

I don’t know how long we sat there on the floor, but finally we heard Tarra begging to come in. That broke the spell that had suspended time for us, and K bolted from me. Goddess she ran from me!

I stepped out in a daze and Tarra bolted past me.

As I said, I've never known something so powerful outside of taking a target down. I think for the first time in my stinking unhappy life I truly understood what it must be like to be at one with the universe in that moment. The first time I had a small taste of that feeling was when I was eight and I overheard one of the bullies that had made my life a living hell tell another that he had set fire to the science lab. From that day on I owned him and he was my toy. Then again when I graduated the academy and learned that I was able to exert the power of the UFP at my will through weapons and the application of knowledge. I Milton Dammers could make an empire shake with a word or a deed. Then again when M'Rander taught me the power of killing a more powerful enemy with my wits and skill, one on one, rather than using overwhelming power from a distance.

All those things brought me close to happiness, but they all dimmed in comparison with this feeling of empowerment, and my desire to protect this woman. She thinks the world of me. Me! The kid the class called Stinker and Slinkier, and grew up to be called Twitch and other things that are even less appealing. The poor snook who's only lover till now was a selfish egotistical bitch that was no better than I deserved. Lynx has given herself to me and by the Goddess I will protect her. I will make her life as good as I can for as long as I can, and may the Goddess show anyone that hurts her mercy, for I most surly will not!

Some time later I sort of came to myself and took care of what I thought we had gone into the bathroom to take care of the first time. When I was leaving K and I came nose to nose, and I had fun playing with her! Goddess it feels good to play. I always wondered what it would be like.

While I was standing there waiting, I looked over at the sound of people yelling at one another and discovered that Demian was at it again. There was a fight getting started over at the counter, and I was drawn in as I had to ducked a can of something, so I pulled out my phaser and started forward.

That was when I looked back and found K out cold on a rack of beef jerky. I ran back to her and tried to get he out of there but kept slipping and falling on the junk covering the floor. K came around for a few moments as we lay there in the junk food only to go out again. I started to try to get her up again when the world went white and cold, then with a roar this mountain of chromed bumper came crashing out of the fog only to stop inches from my face!

When I finally managed to get K up again I found Cosmos had liberated one of the big open cars and had made a big hole in the building for us to exit by.

I scrambled out with K on my back and made it to the van. She came around again and just as I thought we were out of it we were rushed by another batch of the goons. I stunned one and K screamed at another, freezing him in his tracks.

That seemed to be enough for them. The locals backed off and we left with our van full of snack food thanks to Tarra. Cosmos seemed to like the car and drove it out in the lead.

I don't know what happened back there behind us, but there was a loud BOOM and when I looked back there was a huge fireball filling the sky.

Well I guess that means that we will soon be on the most wanted list for the local police. Time to get out my riffle and have it ready for action. Man do I dread this.

Odd, I have mail on my PADD? I know I checked it before leaving the ship so where, oh, its from K, forwarded from her mom. This is not good.

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