Title: Can't Lose What You Never Had

Author: Christian Borg

Email: [email protected]

Summary:: Nothing ventured, nothing gained. It's that simple.

Author's note: This is a very short story based on a song by Westlife. This is for you Christine. <3

Can't Lose What You Never Had

I sit in my car and look at her apartment on the other side of the road. Impatiently I drum my fingers on the steering wheel. It's 6:45, she should be home soon.
I used to watch her for hours, admiring her beauty.... and her smile. I love the way she smiles...when she's truly happy it reaches her eyes and the light in them is the only light in my hard, cold and dark excistence.
I have seen the way she has attracked men. We are the bies and she is the nectar that we all want. Even Rabb longs for her...wants her. But he'll never admit it, least of all to her, and it's a shame. I have seen the way she looks at him. It's the same way I look at her, when she isn't looking.
Sometimes she looks at me too, but I can't quite figure out what the look in her eyes means. It's like they are asking a question, and she is searching my eyes for the answer.
But I've never shown her any sign of emotion. Lately it has been like a war inside of me. A war I was destined to lose.
Whenever I'm on a mission, far away from home, I often imagine what our lives would be like, how our children would look, but still I know that a woman like her would never want a man like me. They want someone like Rabb.
So, now I'm sitting in my car. I see her enter the building and I follow her to the door, wanting her to turn around and see me. I need an answer.
I can't keep on living like this. Tonight I will either find a closure...... or perhaps a new beginning.
"Sarah, we need to talk..." I state barely above a whisper.
She turns to look at me and there is that look again. That same question. And then the most amazing thing happens. She smiles.
"I know...come in."

THE END

return to home

CAN'T LOSE WHAT YOU NEVER HAD (Westlife)

Baby, you're so beautiful
And, when I'm near you, I can't breathe
A girl like you gets what she wants
When she wants it
You're so out of my league

I show you no emotion
Don't let you see what you're doin' to me
I imagine the two of us together
But I been livin' in reality

Fear of rejection
Kept my love inside
But time is running out
So damn my foolish pride

(Chorus 1:)
I don't care if you think I'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losin' you
You can't lose what you never had
Now, I'm gonna confess that I love you
I been keepin' it inside, feelin' I could die
Now, if you turn away, baby, that's okay
At least we'll have a moment before you say goodbye
You can't lose what you never had

Rules are made for breakin'
Nothing ventured, nothing gained
I'll be no worse off than I am right now
And I might never get the chance again

Fear of rejection
Kept my love inside
Told my heart I didn't want you
But I lied

(Chorus 2:)
I don't care if you think I'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losin' you
You can't lose what you never had
Now, I'm gonna confess that I love you
I been keepin' it inside, feelin' I could die
Now, if you turn away, baby, that's okay
At least we'll have a moment before you say goodbye

(Bridge:)
Here on the outside, lookin' in
Don't wanna stay dreamin' 'bout what could have been
Need to hear you speak my name
Even if you shoot me down in flames

(Repeat chorus 1)

You can't lose what you never had
You can't lose what you never had...