the moment

the moment i saw you, the moment we talked,
the first kiss you gave me, the long ass walks.

the first time you told me that you're falling in love,
our moments together, the special days,
i wish they can be forever, forever embraced.

the first movie we saw, our first date,
the moment i was waiting for, damn it was great.

But the first time you played me, you said it was the last.
Why did i believe you, the moment finally passed.
I was feeling something strange inside. 

the first time i was sad, the first time i cried,
the first time i wasn't glad.

The moment i saw you, you turned away,
Your head was down, you were ashamed to say
you made a mistake and you want forgiviness,
wanted a second chance, but i didnt know what to say,
my days were lonely, and they were gray.

The moments i remember bring back one sad thought,
Like the day your homeboy said you got shot,
you commited suicide because of me, 
my lonely heart crys, deeply painly.

Two more months left and a pride of joy, 
soon came a face of a baby boy.
The moment i wanted, the moment at last,
if i cant have you now then i have the past.
I have your creation, i have your dreams,
i have your kisses, i have your schemes.

My first pride , my first joy,
while im looking in the sad eyes of my baby boy, 
wanting his papi ,wanting his care,
hoping someday he would be there.

Now i see your face when i think of you,
you come in my dreams and make them true,
But i know its to late to say im sorry boo
it didnt have to go this way.
amor mio alwayz in heart, our love is strong,
we will never be taken apart.

Submitted By:  Gwen Antone
Mon, 05 Nov 2001
 

 I love you....loads!!

 The touch of your hand
The smile on your face
The way you walk with absolute grace
The look in your eyes
A look so fine
Lets me know
That you'll always be mine

I know I rarely tell you
Just what you mean to me
But I really really love you
I'm telling you honestly

 I may not call you "sweetheart"
I may not call you "hun"
But deep inside you should know
That for me - you are the only one!

You are the one I trust
You are the one I believe
The thought of having you next to me
is always such a relief.

I'd be lost without you
I wouldnt know what to do.
Where will I ever find.....
another so sweet and nice like you?

So I promise to be with you always
No matter what you do
I'll love you for eternity
  And my love for you will always be true!

The scars in my heart, the blood drippin down, 
i dont kno what to do i feel like a clown.
i try so hard to make myself perfect, 
im tryin to find a nigga that deserves it.... 
 but i can't find one maybe i never will, 
i wish i had looks to kill, 
but i guess my wurds do tha trick
i always say lifes a bitch, 
but maybe thats the way i make it,
i dont kno anymore, i jus dont say shit, 
im tryin to have that nonchalant attitude, 
im tryin to be nice without being rude, 
i dont even kno anymore,
sumtimes i want to be swallowed by the floor 
and wish i had wings to jus fly away, 
tired of lookin in the sky for a brighter day,
Tired of getting on my knees to pray, 
tired of wasting my life away, 
im slowly dying, 
one day i'll be gone, 
and i'll find my real tru home,
up or down heaven or hell, freedom or a never ending jail,
streets of gold or rivers of  flame, 
take my hand and feel the pain, 
throbbing from my veins to yours, 
feel me flowing inside you, look thru my eyes, 
cry my tears, shiver from all of  my fears, 
sweat from the dreams, cry from the blood, 
feel lonely for not feeling loved,
i can only take so much drama,
i try and try but i cant stay calm, 
i dont kno how much longer i can hold on, 
my fingers are slipping,
im falling away, 
i want to let go yet i want to stay, 
closing my eyes and taking a breath 
i let go and feel myself drift,
float on the air and i feel so light, 
i see the glow from the moon in the night, 
im gonna survive ive tried and tried, 
hard work pays off and i will stay alive,
not only becuz i want to, not only becuz its what i feel, 
its becuz it is not only my fate,