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Third Meeting
Once again time went by so slow and the days were so lonely with out
Martin ..But found out that my baby was coming back to see me and
this time he was staying almost two weeks.. You can imagine how
happy I was.. Never in my life have I met such a man as Martin...If
I were asked to describe him in one word, guess I would have to use
the word breathless.. Everything about him leaves me this way.. Such
a wonderful feeling he is. Martin is due to arrive on the 7th of
April and stay till the 19th...Waiting for this day to arrive once
again seemed like a life time.. But finally I was on my way to pick
up my baby at the airport.. And once again finally I am in the arms
of the man I adore so much...It was wonderful to be with him once
again...Martin and I spent the night in Knoxville not far from the
airport and came home the next day. While he was here this time we
had such a wonderful time...But this time things were a little
different.. We didn't concentrate so much on time alone as we had
before, not because this is something we didn't want.. Just that
other things going on at home kept us busy.. and my sweet baby was
just wonderful about it all.. He showed me during this time that he
would stick with me through even the bad times .. I Love you Martin
my dream Come true.. It was just a wonderful time all together with
him here again.. Just didn't want it to end once again.. The last
few days he was here we went to Pigeon Forge, Tn where we went the
first time he came in only we stayed in a hotel .. Martin and I went
to one of the famous dinners shows there and had a wonderful time
the last night we were together.. later that night my baby spent
most of the time in the bathroom sick as I had been a
week before that.. Felt so bad for him.. Wasn't exactly how we had
planned on our last night together to be.. But hey then again as I
said this time he was here wasn't as we had planned either,, but we
made it through it and now I know that we can get through some
rough times together when they arise again.. The next day here we
are once again going to the airport seems as if we are doing this a
lot here lately saying good bye at the airport, but the best part of
it is we know that its not for long as I would be going to be with
Martin to start our lives together... Seeing Martin go back home
again was so sad.. I cried so hard for my baby and felt as if once
again my heart was being ripped from my body. Once again we would be
back to waiting for that next time..
Within
days after martin returned home he started his new contract in
Germany .. And in a few shorts weeks my baby once again pays for my
ticket for me to come start a whole new life with him.. On July the
6th I leave to be with the most wonderful man ever.. this time away
from Martin has been harder than ever. .ever day I fall deeper and
deeper in love with him.. Even though there's not a day that goes by
without a call from him I still miss him so bad.. Since martin and I
have been talking to each other there isn't a day I can think of
that we have not had some contact either by phone or computer. this
means a lot to me for him to ever day for the last 8 months stay in
touch with me to let me know he loves me and talk with me in some
way ( Even when I know that he is dead tired). Each day that goes by
I find myself feeling guilty about leaving my Daughter Donna behind
to start a new life for us.. Donna says that she doesn't want to
come live with me and Martin and I'm hoping and praying that in time
with a visit that she will want to come... this is one of the
hardest things to leave a child behind you have loved like no other
can. And every day I feel so sick and guilty about this.. Donna
loves Martin and wants me to be happy with him.. but worry like
crazy that she will not be loved in the special way that I love her
while she is staying with her dad and his wife he has now.. All I
know is its my goal to get her to come live with us before long, so
I want greave so bad for her.. For almost 13 years Donna has slept
with mom ever night that she is with me at home ..We both love
sleeping in the same bed.. feel like she's always safe and secure having
her in the bed next to me... she's my special little answered prayer
from heaven and always will be my angel.. Some of you may judge me
as a bad mom for leaving her behind who reads this but trust me I'm
a wonderful mom and you have no ideal what I have been through in my
life to have decided to make a decision as this.. For the first time
in 9 yrs I have found happiness since my divorce from Donna's dad..
For the first time in my life I have met and found a man who makes
me feel as special as I used to when I was in my early 20's..
Martin makes me feel as if I'm as pretty as any princess or queen..
and I love this.. And I love him for the person he is....
He works hard for what he has and I'm so
proud of him for this. Martin can give me the life I've always
prayed for and wanted...Read what he wrote to me and the world many
months ago by clicking here For
My Angel ...I love him in such a special way as no man I've ever
loved before.. we both are going through such a hard time right now
being away form each other.. each day between missing him and
leaving Donna I get sicker and sicker.. I don't wish to be away from
my daughter any sooner than I have to but if only July would hurry
and get here so once again I would feel safe and secure in his
arms.....I love and miss you Martin my darling ...
coming
soon my move to be with Martin
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