The first couple of weeks have been fairly pleasant so far. I have a new friend, "Slow",
that's Richie Kotzen's latest album. Finally a bootie shaker cd from this guy, I really, really
hope no girls break his heart cuz I love his blues oriented albums but funky just do me
better, it's sad but I never claimed I believed in love.
that way. The concept of romantic love was invented by the troubadours, alias
musicians and poets who were dirt poor back then and had to find a way to get
some love among the pretty ladies. Well, sorry to say, I'll put the most perfect
lines together but my intentions are not always all that higher love & 'I' die for you'
tinted. I'm not dying over nobody, at least not a love interest but I'd probably
die in the name of God or to save someone which whom life is of more value.
about myself. So to get to the four subjects that really fascinate me, sex, music
mankind and God, this one is about sex. I hate to say it but there are connected.
sprinkle me, go grab a copy of the Dictionnary of the Concile of Vatican II,
then we can talk over it. It's in there, the difference between brotherly love
and romantic love is in the fact that we do want the other person to possess
them and enjoy them in a sexual way.... Hmmm.... I don't want to do all
my brothers and sisters (especially not my sisters) but some of my brothers
are fine, fine, fine. And yeah, they are often Black!!!!
from within and to me, it's more of an attitude than a look. I like men with a very
lay back attitude, comfortable with themselves, loud, easy going with a great
sense of humour. What can I say they amuse me and when I'm amused you
are half way there. Sex is sex, in our modern society where sex is a mean of
recreation, I don't take it seriously. I don't get all uptight and stuck up and
weird with my playstation, same with my boy toys!
Sure I don't sleep with anybody but it doesn't mean that I don't like to play.
Too many people thinks that being sexual is about how many people you do sleep
with while it's all in having sex in your mind. As a certified erotomaniac I can
assure you as an eye witness that some of the most promiscuous women have known
were incredibly boring lay. I'm sure it's great when you have a spiritual connection
with people but the only way to get one is thru the wedding vows in front of the
altar, everything else is giving ourselves the third degree in the sin but it's still dead
on wrong, so why lie? At least, I'm not hypocritical about what I'm doing.
or not and some of the reasoning is frightening. Some say the guy was so on them,
they just went along with it with a 'I guess I don't mind', other time it was
'Sometimes it's better to get it over with so you can talk and be friends' and some
other just got 'laid off' so it was a way to heal their egos. How many really do
it cuz they want to remains to be determined and that's kind of a weird one to me.
Even in my own choice to keep things low on the sex department, I'd say 90%
I'm fully guilty off and happy to be guilty. It was wanted, waited for, worked
on and well received! I really do use sexually oriented behavior for recreation
and don't give in cuz I can't say 'no', don't feel like fighting or got rejected!
turn around and the person doesn't come around eventually. I have learnt
this with my first boyfriend. Nothing in life lasts forever so I don't really
sweat the little things. It bothers me but I move on, find another playground.
Despite my many frustrations, I'm so glad, lots of it didn't go thru cuz when it came
around, I was fully aware of what I was up against and I could� see clearly
and not with lusty eyes and boy, it didn't look good! So there is a method to the mayhem.
I simply try to take the best decisions I can with the information I have at a given moment
and remember that there are many dead angles and parameters I don't envision and will
understand a bit better once the light will be shedded, hopefully in this life span.
in irreparable conflicts w/my intellect, I'll always have this split personality within me,
so between, my own duality, the other idiot/devil working at blinding me, my soul is
the siege of some quite pretty pretty battles!
I am sometimes, I'm just not. I fight it tooth and nails, try to keep it in check but
it's not always successful. Sometimes, I'm only doing damage control cuz I'm
sick of fighting against my nature. Now you can wonder why fight it? But would
you ask me the same question if I say I feel the need to kill someone once in a while?
