Hello I thought I would give you an insight into my life.
Warning This may be upsetting
Dated:/11/2000
I am a 26 year old single mum of one beautiful son. I didn't have much
of a childhood due the fact that I was abused. I don't have much of a life
now due to the effects of the abuse. Possibly P.T.S.D.
I am now a student doing a national diploma in public services. I am on
my last year. Hoping to improve my grades from the last year. People think I
have a lot going for me but people do not realise that I do not feel like
everyone else. I do have friends and they do know something about me but I
do have secrets that I try to keep away from people. There are lots
that people do not know about me, that I am too ashamed to admit to. But one
day I will not be able to hide any longer. And they will find the
person hidden inside this shell. I am a shell of a person that used to be.
But as each day goes I am fighting to get stronger and stronger each day,
and no one will stop me.
Friendship is something that keeps people going, and I am not alone in that.
I have some really good friends that I can talk to, but not many people know my
secret. There are some people that know about my secret and they
are the people
I feel I can trust.
Trust is a thing that doesn't come easily. People have to earn it and work
for it. But one day I will be able to trust people. It is a learning process.
One day someone will surprise me and I will be able to trust them. Which I am
starting to do.
I have someone that I trust now. That person means soooo much to me. I will
not say the persons name but they know who they are.
It seems like I am leading a double life. One life in college and another at
home. To mix the both might be wrong, but one day I will have too
