Update
It is now 8 January 2001.
I have managed 3 three weeks
now with out self harming. I am nervous about going into detox but it is something I must do for myself.
When I have done detox I am not going to drink anymore (I know that seems
impossible but I think that if I did drink alcohol again, I would risk drinking
too much. Better safe than sorry). I know I have support from many people, but it
is me that needs to find other ways of coping.
It is 17 January 2001,
I have seen the consultant today about my detox. I get admitted on the 22nd January. I should be in for about 7-10 days but I should be off college for 2-3 weeks. I will admit that I am very scared. But I am going to try my hardest to sort this out.
It is now the 19th January
I am getting even more nervous by the day. I am lucky that I have some support. I don't know what I would do without the support.
Dated October 2001
As updates go there are normally lots to say, but I
am afraid there is not much to say. But I thought I would put here
what has been happening.
It is now October 2001.
I still have
not self harmed, which makes it over a year, YAY. I am not
drinking. I have also managed to stop smoking and biting my
nails.
But most importantly, I am still with the person of my
dreams (over a year now).
August 2002
I have moved house to a very nice area in England. The countryside. We are in a bigger house. I am still with the person I love. We have been together nearly 2 years now. I am still not self harming so that will be 2 years also which is brilliant. My life has improved lots since I went into detox. Yes it was hard but it was worth it. I do drink, but very restricted. I have a lot to loose if it went all wrong. But I am determined not to let it. As long as I am honest with myself and deal with things and not hide it. I have done some computer courses at college which has done a lot for my confidence.
28 December 2003
Recently I have taken on various animals some rescued, some I have taken from petshops that SHOULD NOT have been there. One of those I have had to nurse back to health. Guinea Pigs (cavies) cannot produce their own vitamin c, so have to have a diet that is suitable, if their diet is not right for them it will make them ill. Anyway to cut a long story short. Our household has 11 lovely animals/pets. I love them all dearly. Now for info about me. I am still under the care of the chmt (community mental health team). I get by thinking of day to day things, some days I have to write lists of what I have to do. But slowly I am getting to where I aim to be.