Lines of Leaving

I am losing you again, all again

as if you were ever mine to lose.

The pain is as deep

beyond formal possession

beyond the fierce frivolity of tears.

Absurdly you came into my world

my time-wrecked world

a quiet laugh below the thunder.

Absurdly you leave it now

as always I forknew you would.

I liveed on an alien joy.

Your gentleness disarmed me

wine in my desert

peace across impassable seas

path of light in my jungle.

Now uncatchable as the wind you go

beyond the wind

and there is nothing in my world

save the straw of salvation in the amber dream.

The absurdity of that vast improbably joy.

The absurdity of you gone.

- Christy Brown

1932-1981

Soft Pink Pajamas