| Chapter 9: Stranded |
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| Music to read by: "Stranded" by Plumb You know it only breaks my heart, to see you standing in the dark. Waiting there for me to come back. Too afraid to show, its coming over you, its coming over me. Crashing like a tidal wave, it drags me out to sea. I wanna be with you, you wanna be with me. Its crashing like a tidal wave. I dont wanna be stranded. |
| After last night's mess of events and a serious lack of sleep on my part (Since when did sleep become optional in my life?), I needed some serious me time. A girls night out, anything, so long as it didnt involve guys. (I had also formerly cancelled Joey's little 'revenge pow-wow' at my house previously planned for this evening.) I called up Mel, but my very best friend was going on a date, with Zac. She offered to cancel, but I told her not to. So, I did the next best thing. I drove. Not going anywhere, just driving. I got in my Jeep Wrangler, took the top off, blasted the music and headed out, going nowhere. I watched the city fly by. All the lights lighting up the night sky. They seemed to blend into one bright mesh. "Stranded" came on the radio. The cold night air blowing my hair all around my face, the cars flying by at 60, my mind running at 85. Where was I in all of this? Where did I want to be? I just listened to the lyrics of the song... Its coming over you, its coming over me. Crashing like a tidal wave, it drags me out to sea... I had 2 of the greatest guys. One I dont really know, but would love to get to know. The other I know all too well, he was one of my best friends. I cared about him alot, did I want to get into all this? Take the chance of killing our great friedship. I wanna be with you, you wanna be with me. Its crashing like a tidal wave, I dont wanna be stranded... I drove across the bridge watching the city again. Watching it go on with its business. All the people, the cars, the lights. I turned the music up louder to drown out the thoughts swirling in my brain. I didnt even want to think. I just wanted to escape. I can only take so much, these tears are turning me to rust. I know youre waiting there for me, to come back. Im too afrad to show...I dont wanna be stranded. It was 11:30, I had been driving for over an hour and a half. I never really got anywhere, which was all I wanted. I yawned and decided to head home. You cant escape forever. I got back to the apartment and just fell into my bed. Burrying myself in my covers, the song still in my head. I slipped into a dream, escaping reality until morning. |
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