time: 4:11pm
listening to: "dont fear the reaper" blue oyster cult
well lets see.....the most xciting part of my day so far?? rat (skewed persective) mentioned me in her entry! wooo! im a geek but i dont care.....actually whats sad is mir was more xcited than i was.....i woke up and shes all like "so i think u should read that journal today" and im like "nah she updated yesterday no big" and mirs all "no u gotta read it today" and being all mysterious about it and stuff.....it was funny.......mirs so cute
anyways at like 2 this after noon this big huge chunk of ice that was hanging on the eaves of the rez melted a bit and made this big huge crash.....it scared the shit outta mir.....i just went back to sleep....she thought a buch of boxes er something fell on me.....silly girl
so ya......here we go...it woulda been a yr.....either yesterday er tomorrow.....i dont care enuff to check but i still know.....i had a hard time sleeping last nite.....took me ferever to get to sleep........brain running 5 million miles a minute about everything....its really hard to sleep when yur thinking about yur x fucking some chic he just met....at least it is fer me.....and its weird....i never thought about that b4 til last nite....i mean i know he slept at her house and all but them fucking didnt seem like a possibility to me at the time....i guess it just needed time to germinate......but im still more disturbed by him sleeping with her....holding her....damn....i wish he was holding me.....grrr....
wow.....i must seem like a real crazy huh? oh well.....i dont think im that bad....if i was calling him everyday.....trying to sabotage his relationships.......creating a shrine to him in my closet........thinking bout him 24/7....then maybe ya......id be a little worried...but linz what about the fact that at least half of every entry is about him......and now yur refering to yurself in the 3rd person? bugger.....half a page fer an entry day aint shit...just cuz i dont really do a whole lot....but i dont sit round her all day pining away fer him.......and maybe if i get all this ridiculous feelings fer him out they get outta my system.....thats all i can hope fer....so to everyone who thinx im a crazy well yer rite....but im only moderately so cmon gimme a break!
time: 11:21
listening to: my noisey motherfucking neighbour and his noisey motherfucking friends and "porno slut" exploited
I HATE MY NEIGHBOUR!!!! i want to go over there and dropkick him and his noisey motherfucking friends in their head.....why cant u just SHUT THE HELL UP??? i hate u i hate u i hate u
now that thats outta my system...ah.....so bored.....so much work to do.....i realized today that i still have to buy a book fer english......hey wait.....ill just go to the library and get it outta there!! wow....im a fucking genius.....
DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE.....SHUT UP!!!
damn theyre annoying......anyways blah.....i have greek tomorrow...i hate greek....its soo totally pointless now.....grrr....i was planning on majoring in classical greek history...and well i figured hey knowing ancient greek would be plus.....unfortunately i did not for see the fact that i cannot stand the greek history prof......his lectures r totally retarted....we cover everything from the globe and mail to british lite maufacturors......but wait......its greek history!! AHHHHH!! its like pulling teeth....i hate it.......so anyway ancient greek now has no point so i find it hard to make myself go.....very hard.......and now i have 44%.........ouch......anyway its better than the 16 i have in my greek history class........but i have done nothing.......at all...so i figure "hey.......ill try" no big......god im such a slacker......oh well....
so anyway mirs writing her journal tonite on how abusive we r too her......poor girl.......hehehehehe......mir baby u know i love u.....u know im just kidding.......and well u know that im really irritable and u can be annoying.......just sometimes :)
so anyway.......blah....im bored......matts coming to visit.....cuz i bullied him into it.......haha.....im proud of myself.......i can bully him over icq.......thats a gift.....oh hell ya.......haha.......im the devil.....
speaking of the evil one......i got an email today....an email from satan.......yuppers.......and just to make yur life more fufilling here u go
I saw you yesterday as you began your daily chores. You awoke without kneeling to pray. As a matter of fact, you didn't even bless your meals, or pray before going to bed last night. You are so unthankful, I like that about you. I cannot tell you how glad I am that you have not changed your way of living, Fool, you are mine.
Remember,you and I have been going steady for years. and I still don't love you yet. As a matter of fact, I hate you, because I hate God. I am only using you to get even with God. He kicked me out of heaven, and I'm going to use you as long as possible to pay him back.
You see, Fool, GOD LOVES YOU and HE has great plans in store for you. But you have yielded your life to me, and I'm going to make your life a living hell. That way, we'll be together twice. This will really hurt God.
Thanks to you, I'm really showing Him who's boss in your life with all of the good times we've had. We have been watching dirty movies, cursing people out, stealing, lying, being hypocritical, fornicating, overeating, telling dirty jokes, gossiping, being judgmental, back stabbing people, disrespecting adults, and those in leadership positions, no respect for the Church, bad attitudes.
SURELY you don't want to give all this up. Come on, Fool, let's burn together forever. I've got some hot plans for us. This is just a letter of appreciation from me to you. I'd like to say "THANKS" for letting me use you for most of your foolish life. You are so gullible, I laugh at you.
When you are tempted to sin, you give in HA HA HA, you make me sick. Sin is beginning to take it's toll on your life.
You look 20 years older, and now, I need new blood. So go ahead and teach some children how to sin. All you have to do is smoke, get drunk or drink while under-aged, cheat, gamble, gossip, fornicate, and live being as selfish as possible. Do all of this in the presence of children and they will do it too. Kids are like that.
Well, Fool, I have to let you go for now. I'll be back in a couple of seconds to tempt you again. If you were smart, you would run somewhere, confess you sins, and live for God with what little bit of life that you have left. It's not my nature to warn anyone, but to be your age and still sinning, it's becoming a bit ridiculous. Don't get me wrong, I still hate you. IT'S JUST THAT YOU'D MAKE A BETTER FOOL FOR CHRIST.
P.S. If you really love me, you won't share this letter with anyone.
time: 3:02am
listening to: "these are the daves i know" bruce mccullough (kids in the hall)
so....i was propositioned tonite by my neighbour joe......oh my....see he was all drunk (as per usual) and i being the nice neighbour that i am said i would help him up the stairs to his room which is only 2 doors down from mine.....well i walked him up the stairs and he asked me if i was back with kirk and i said no and he went on about how no girls wanted him er something to that effect......anywayz we got to his door and he unlocks it and kinda stands there so im like "do u want me to put u in bed?" and he sez ya....so i take him into his room and move a book of his bed and turn to leave and hes like "u going home?" and im like "uh ya" and then he procceeded to say something about us having a one nite stand.....OH MY.....anywho...im like "no thanx......thats not really my thing"....er something......and then he kinda grabbed my arm and mumbled something......i wasnt really paying attention.....i was focused on the door......anyway.....he ended up asking me if he could have a hug and well seeing as how he outweighs my by a good 100lbs i said sure.....dont anger the big man......the hug lasted a little longer than i wanted but i managed to get outta his arms and back to my room with out anymore hassle......i can honestly say i NEVER xpected that to happen....wooo......xciting university life......drunken boys asking u to screw them fer no particular reason...u just never know whats gonna happen next......its a mad house.....A MAD HOUSE!
anyways i should go to bed and seeing as how this entry is already too long fer anyone in their rite mind to read anyway i will......ta ta dawlings