written at various points thru out the nite
listening to: "what i die for" the weekend
so my internet at home here is broken so im writing this down on paper (and posting it later).....woooo
so friday i came home........took a bus.......matt drove me to the bus station (what a sweetie)......fran and laurie (my dons)were on the bus so i had some ppl to chat with (and not the usual crazy bus ppl that try and talk to me)......anyways i got home at like 8 and i was sposed to go to renees but of course i had to call kirk first cuz im a freaking sycho....he had to clean his house fer a showing er some shit so ya.....i didnt see him friday nite......so anyways off to renees i went and i got ridiculously high and drunk and it was fun time i tell ya......fun times........anyway by like 11 i was totally in the bag so i went home........while walking home i went thru the alleys and ended up walking behind sam and melissa's place and whos car did i see parked there.....hmmm...let me think.....kirks.....ya......cleaning......whatever....anyway so i was home by like 11:30....am i a party animal er what? i watched tv til 3 and then went to bed.......i miss having my own tv to watch.......
today (saturday) i slept till like 4 but woke up periodically b4......called chantelle and kirk (of course)....anywayz at like 5 chantelle came and picked me up and took me to her house........she dyed and cut my hair all perdy like and then we watched high fidellity with john cusack......a really good movie in my opinion......it was a fun nite.....BUT i was sposed to do something with kirk.....but first he had to wait fer a fone call and then he was "just too tired".....no big surprise tho.......i told him he should come see me after work on sunday when hes done work.....well see......i doubt that ill see him....i dotn think he really wnated to see me this weekend....it seems like this "us getting together as more than just friends" thing was better as just an idea in his head....im not xpecting to see him tomorrow.....dont get me wrong id love to see him and spend some time with him but really....its not likely....its not like him.....i cant see him actually coming....hell be too tired er have something better to do......just like every other time.....thats just the way he is
but on a liter note my hair is now dyed (yeah!) no more blonde!!my bangs r pink and my mohawk is turquoise with black tips...me like.....chantelle is amazing....she makes my hair so fun!!
so now its 5am and i have to be at the arena by 11:30 so i should really sleep.......but im not really that tired......i really do wish that id seen kirk this weekend.......then maybe i could figure some of this shit out......grrr! oh well ill just have to fret about it until feb 17th.....then ill be home fer reading week and he cant avoid me that whole week.......and if he does too bad fer him.........i definitely wont wait fer him any longer than that (ya rite......i say that now.....)