time: 5:30am
listening to: "kiss u when its dangerous" 8 seconds
so im a home rite now.....sitting in my bed.....ya me....so i rote my ancient greek history test today....wooo....i think i did pretty well.....i hope so i need the marx.....and oh argh!! the presentation that i was doing work fer last nite....never happened....grrrr.....the damn teacher was sick so no freaking seminar....all that work fer nothing.....boo hiss....ooo well....
so my day has been rather uneventful....i spent what like 5hrs on a bus getting home...now if thats not a joy i dont know what it....i got home @ like 11pm called kirk....talked fer him fer like 10 mins and then he let me go and told me hed call back later......then i called mir...talked to her and jeremy fer like 10 mins.....and i spent the rest of the nite watching tv....i really like tv but i dont ever watch it @ school cuz theres too many ppl and i doubt that anyone is gonna wanna watch the shows i do....cept maybe the simpsons....everyone loves the simpsons dammit! so ya by like 2:30 kirk still hadnt called back so i called him....he was all getting ready fer bed and shit....he talked to his friend from the states and one of his other friends in between...anyway he said he doesnt want a relationship cuz he doesnt want it to "end in tragedy"....meaning he doesnt want it to end like it did the last time.....and he sez hell treat me like shit....argh...i dont get him....i dont even want a relationship like we had b4....i want to like see him er date him er whatever....just do the fun stuff u know the going out and having fun and making out and shit like that....i dont want a serious relationship with him cuz hes so not ready fer it....and now he doesnt even know if were gonna have sex...bah..whats up with that?? i think he said something about not wanting to hurt me er me wanting more er something but sux to that...i want sex...and hes pretty...and hes good...so what the fuck....were sposed to hang out on sunday....i really hope he doesnt ditch me....we dont need to go back to that whole stage again....oh well whatever...i mean i want him and blah blah blah everything i say everytime i talk about him but u know what?? screw it....if hes gonna be all weird er whatever i dont wanna deal with it.....cuz i dont have to...so why bother wasting my energy?? and im not giving up on him.....ill still be here fer him when he wants some sort of regular friendship/relationship whatever....but im not gonna put the effort into it anymore....and i really really mean it this time.....of course this is only if he jerks me around on sunday....i hope he doesnt...im so sick of it u know?? bah whatever....so anyway its like quarter to 6....oh my...id better not wake up at 8 er 8:30 and be up all day...i will be severly pist!! me and diana were talking bout going to a concert tonite @ call the office.....hopefully chantelle and nicole will wanna come so we can all go....it will be cool....its been so long since all of us hung out...my girls...aw.....anyway im gonna go now i guess...i wonder where my kittie went...she was attacking my hands earlier cuz im typing this....shes prolly in the bathtub....my mom just had a shower and my cat likes to go in the tub after and lick the water off the tap...shes weird...just like me....awww!! i love u sybil baby...yer soo cute...i miss her when im @ school.....shes my little baby....ya...nite (even tho im gonna post this tomorrow oh well)