I watch how the Moon sits in the sky / in the dark night Shining with the light from the sun The sun doesn't give / light to the moon assuming The moon’s going to owe it one It makes me think of how you act to me / You do Favors and then rapidly / You just Turn around and start asking me / about Things you want back from me I’m sick of the tension / sick of the hunger Sick of you acting like I owe you this Find another place / to feed your greed - While I find a place to rest I want to be in another place I hate when you say you don’t understand (You’ll see it's not meant to be) I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy A place for my head Maybe someday I’ll be just like you / and Step on people like you do and / Run Away the people I thought I knew I remember back then who you were You used to be calm / used to be strong Used to be generous / but you should’ve known / That you’d Wear out your welcome / now you see How quiet it is / all alone / I’m so Sick of the tension / sick of the hunger Sick of you acting like I owe you this Find another place / to feed your greed - While / I find a place to rest / I’m so Sick of the tension / sick of the hunger Sick of you acting like I owe you this Find another place / to feed your greed - While / I find a place to rest You try to take the best of me Go away

AND ONE

Where should I start Disjointed heart I’ve got no commitment To my own flesh and blood Left all alone Far from my home No one to hear me, to heal my ill heart, I Keep it locked up inside Cannot express To the point I’ve regressed If anger’s a gift, then I guess I’ve been blessed, I Keep it locked up inside Keep my distance from your lies It’s too late to love me now You helped me to show me It’s too late to love me now You don’t take a word in Breaking a part of my heart to find release Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace Breaking a part of my heart to find release Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Break) Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace (Me) Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Too) Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace Keep it locked up inside Keep my distance from your lies Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Break) Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace (Me) Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Too) Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace Breaking a part of my heart to find release Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace Breaking a part of my heart to find release Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace Keep my distance Keep my distance Keep my distance Keep my distance [music slows to rap solo...] Spit drips from the jaw of the witless witness Cryptic colloquialism shifts your midrift Dark all I do embark the shadows Involved with my thought catalog, analogue, rap catalog Keep my distance, and fear resistance, hurt by persistance The twisted web of tangled lies Strangles my hope to waste and numbs the taste And I'm forced to face these hate crimes Against the state of being Feeling the weight-less-ness pressed between the ceiling Reeling around room Riding a bubble of sound proof It's the frequency making you Sha-Shake with every boom Involuntary muscle contraction Ignoring and drinking musical gas field euphoria The sound pounds to make the dead flush To have you a head rush with red thoughts and said stuff

BREAKING THE HABIT

Memories concern Like opening the wound I'm picking me apart again You all assume I'm safer in my room Unless I try to start again [chorus] I don't want to be the one Who battles always choose Cuz inside I realize That I'm the one confused I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way I know it's not alright So I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit tonight Cultured my cure I tightly lock the door I try to catch my breath again I hurt much more Than anytime before I have no options left again [chorus] I dont want to be the one Who battles always choose Cuz inside I realize That I'm the one confused I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way I'll never be alright So, I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit tonight I'll paint it on the walls Cuz I'm the one that falls I'll never fight again And this is how it ends [chorus] I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream But now I have some clarity to show you what I mean I don't know how I got this way I'll never be alright So, I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit I’m breaking the habit tonight

BY MYSELF

What do I do to ignore them behind me? Do I follow my instincts blindly? Do I hide my pride / from these bad dreams And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening? Do I / sit here and try to stand it? Or do I / try to catch them red – handed? Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness, Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? Because I can’t hold on / when I’m stretched so thin I make the right moves but I’m lost within I put on my daily façade but then I just end up getting hurt again By myself [myself] I ask why, but in my mind I find I can’t rely on myself chorus: I can’t hold on To what I want when I’m stretched so thin It’s all too much to take in I can’t hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking in If I Turn my back I’m defenseless And to go blindly seems senseless If I hide my pride and let it all go on / then they’ll Take from me ‘till everything is gone If I let them go I’ll be outdone But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer [by myself] How do you think / I’ve lost so much I’m so afraid / I’m out of touch How do you expect / I will know what to do When all I know / Is what you tell me to Don’t you know I can’t tell you how to make it go No matter what I do, how hard I try I can’t seem to convince myself why I’m stuck on the outside

CAROUSEL

she can't hide no matter how hard she tries her secret disguised behind the lies and at night she crys away her pride with eyes shut tight staring at her inside all her friends know why she can't sleep at night all her family asking is she alright all she wants to do is get rid of this hell well all she's got to do is stop kiddin herself she can only fool herself for so long [x3] are you too weak to face me? (she can only fool herself) [chorus] i never know just why you run so far away far away from me [x2] when it comes to how to live his life and can't be told says he got everything under control thinks he knows he's not a problem he's stuck with but in reality it would be a problem to just quit an addict and he can't hold the reigns the pain is worse cause his friends have it the same trys to slow down the problem he's got but can't get off the carousel untill he makes it stop he can only fool himself for so long [x3] are you too weak to face me? (he can only fool himself) [chorus x2] [interlude] [chorus x2]

CHALI

What’s up? You’ve reached Mike Give me a detailed m— Please enter your pass— First message Yo, Mike This is Chali 2na, w’sup, man? I’m just trying to catch up with you, man, so we can go ahead and get this song on the roll, with a pot-n-a-d Haha, call me back, peace

CRAWLING

Crawling in my skin, These wounds they will not heal, Fear is how I fall, Confusing what is real There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface, Consuming, confusing, This lack of self control I fear is never ending, Controlling I can’t seem To find myself again, My walls are closing in, (Without a sense of confidence, I’m convinced that there’s just too much pressure to take) I’ve felt this way before, So insecure Crawling in my skin, These wounds they will not heal, Fear is how I fall, Confusing what is real, Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me, Distracting, reacting, Against my will I stand beside my own reflection, It’s haunting, How I can’t seem, To find myself again, My walls are closing in, (Without a sense of confidence, I’m convinced that there’s just too much pressure to take) I’ve felt this way before, So insecure... Crawling in my skin, These wounds they will not heal, Fear is how I fall, Confusing what is real...(2x)

DEDICATED

I have a dream of a scene between the green hills Clouds pull away and the sunlight's revealed People don't talk about keeping it real It's understood that they actually will And intoxicated and stimulated emcees Staring in the trees, paranoid, are gone in the breeze Watch them flee, hip-hop hits Take a walk with me and what you'll see Is a land where the sand is made up of crushed up wax And the sky beyond you is krylon glue And everybody speaks in a dialect of rhyme And emcees have left materialism behind them Meanwhile I just grip my mic And hope me and my team make it through alright Because say what you will, and say what you might But don't ignore who it's for at the end of the night [Chorus] Because this is dedicated to the kids Dedicated to wherever music lives Dedicated to those tired of the same ol' same And dedicated to the people advancin' the game What's real is the kids who know that something's wrong What's real is the kids who think they don't belong What's real is the kids who have nowhere to run Who are hiding in the shadows waiting for the sun I've seen a lot of shit, I've talked to a bum Out on sunset strip, he asked me "How would you feel If everybody acted like you didn't exist You'd lose your grip, probably eventually flip." So let it be known, the only reason that we do this Is so you can pick it up and just bang your head to it While emcees fight to see who can be the commonest Be floatin overhead like a space odyssey monolith Over seeing the game, over being part of the same ol' thing It's all gonna change in a hurricane of darkness and pain And acidic rain and promises that you won't do it again Meanwhile I just grip my mic And hope me and my team make it through alright Because say what you will, and say what you might But don't ignore who it's for at the end of the night [Chorus] Pulling me close, the shadow is warm inside This is where I feel at home, this is my place to hide Pulling me close, the shadow is warm inside This is where I feel at home, this is my place to hide [Chorus] This is dedicated to the kids Dedicated to wherever music lives Dedicated to those tired of the same ol' same And dedicated to the people advancin' the game What's real, everybody who doesn't feel safe What's real, everybody who knows they're out of place What's real, anybody with nowhere to run Who hides in the shadows waiting for the sun

DON'T STAY

Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe Sometimes I need you to stay away from me Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know Somehow I need you to go Don’t stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities What you were changing me into Just give me myself back and Don’t stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities Take all your faithlessness with you Just give me myself back and Don’t stay Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know Somehow I need to be alone Don’t stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities What you were changing me into Just give me myself back and Don’t stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities Take all your faithlessness with you Just give me myself back and Don’t stay I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away With no apologies Don’t stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities What you were changing me into Just give me myself back and Don’t stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities Take all your faithlessness with you Just give me myself back and Don’t stay

EASIER TO RUN

[chorus] It’s easier to run Replacing this pain with something more It’s so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone Something has been taken from deep inside of me The secret I’ve kept locked away no one can ever see Wounds so deep they never show they never go away Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they’ve played (If I could change I would take back the pain I would) (Retrace every wrong move that I made I would) (If I could stand up and take the blame I would) (If I could take all the shame to the grave I would) (If I could change I would take back the pain I would) (Retrace every wrong move that I made I would) (If I could stand up and take the blame I would) (I would take all my shame to the grave) [chorus] It’s easier to run Replacing this pain with something more It’s so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past Bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back And never moving forward so there’d never be a path (If I could change I would take back the pain I would) (Retrace every wrong move that I made I would) (If I could stand up and take the blame I would) (If I could take all the shame to the grave I would) (If I could change I would take back the pain I would) (Retrace every wrong move that I made I would) (If I could stand up and take the blame I would) (I would take all my shame to the grave) Just watching in the sun All of my helplessness inside Pretending I don’t feel misplaced It’s so much simpler to change [chorus] It’s easier to run Replacing this pain with something more It’s so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone It’s easier to run (If I could change I would take back the pain I would) (Retrace every wrong move that I made) It’s easier to go (If I could change I would take back the pain I would) (Retrace every wrong move that I made I would) (If I could stand up and take the blame I would) (I would take all my shame to the grave)

FAINT

I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard Handful of complaints but I can’t help the fact that everybody can see these scars I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe this is real So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do Face away and pretend that I'm not But I'll be here cause you want what I've got [chorus] (I can't feel the way I did before) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored) (Time won't heal this damage anymore) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored) I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident Cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make sense I say what you never wanna say but I've never had a doubt It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear me out So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do Face away and pretend that I'm not But I'll be here 'cause you’re all that I've got [chorus] (I can't feel the way I did before) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored) (Time won't heal this damage anymore) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored) (Now) (Hear me out now) (You're gonna listen to me, like it or not) (Right now) (Hear me out now) (You're gonna listen to me, like it or not) (Right now) (I can't feel the way I did before) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored) [chorus] (I can't feel the way I did before) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored) (Time won't heal this damage anymore) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored) [chorus] (I can't feel the way I did before) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored) (Time won't heal this damage anymore) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored) I can't feel I won't be ignored Time won't heal Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored

FIGURE 0.9

Nothing ever stops all these thoughts and the pain attached to them Sometimes I wonder why this is happening It's like nothing I can do would distract me when I think of how I shot myself in the back again Cuz from the infinite words I can say I Put all pain you gave to me on display But didn't realize instead of setting it free I Took what I hated and made it a part of me (Never goes away) (Never goes away) [chorus] (And now) (You've become a part of me) (You'll always be right here) (You've become a part of me) (You'll always be my fear) (I can't separate) (Myself from what I've done) (Giving up a part of me) (I've let myself become you) Hearing your name the memories come back again I remember when it started happening I see you n’ every thought I had and then The thoughts slowly found words attached to them And I knew as they escaped away I was committing myself to em n’ everyday I regret saying those things cuz now I see that I Took what I hated and made it a part of me (Never goes away) (Never goes away) [chorus] (And now) (You've become a part of me) (You'll always be right here) (You've become a part of me) (You'll always be my fear) (I can't separate) (Myself from what I've done) (Giving up a part of me) (I've let myself become you) (Never goes away) (Never goes away) (Never goes away) (Never goes away) (Get away from me) Give me my space back you gotta just (Go) Everything comes down the memories of (You) I kept it in without letting you (Know) I let you go so get away from (Me) Give me my space back you gotta just (Go) Everything comes down the memories of (You) I kept it in without letting you (Know) I let you go (And then) (You've become a part of me) (You'll always be right here) (You've become a part of me) (You'll always be my fear) (I can't separate) (Myself from what I've done) (Giving up a part of me) (I've let myself become you)

FORGOTTEN

From the top to the bottom Bottom to top I stop At the core I’ve forgotten In the middle of my thoughts Taken far from my safety The picture is there The memory won’t escape me But why should I care There’s a place so dark you can’t see the end (Skies cock back) and shock that which can’t defend The rain then sends dripping / an acidic question Forcefully, the power of suggestion Then with the eyes shut / looking thought the rust and rot And dust / a spot of light floods the floor And pours over the rusted world of pretend The eyes ease open and its dark again In the memory you’ll find me Eyes burning up The darkness holding me tightly Until the sun rises up Moving all around / screaming of the ups and downs Pollution manifested in perpetual sound The wheels go round and the sunset creeps past the Street lamps, chain-link and concrete A little piece of paper with a picture drawn floats On down the street till the wind is gone The memory now is like the picture was then When the paper’s crumpled up it can’t be perfect again Now you got me caught in the act You bring the thought back I’m telling you that I see it right through you

FROM THE INSIDE

I don’t know who to trust your surprise (Everyone feels so far away from me) Happy thoughts sift through dust and the lies (Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit) (Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet) (All I ever think about is this) (All the tiring time between) (And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me) [chorus] Take everything from the inside and throw it all away Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you Tension is building inside steadily (Everyone feels so far away from me) Happy thoughts forcing their way out of me (Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit) (Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet) (All I ever think about is this) (All the tiring time between) (And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me) [chorus] Take everything from the inside and throw it all away Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you I won’t waste myself on you You You Waste myself on you You You I’ll take everything from the inside and throw it all away Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you Everything from the inside and just throw it all away Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you You You

HIGH VOLTAGE

Just do something to tell you who I am, ya know? It's high voltage you cant shake the shock Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out It's high voltage you cant shake the shock Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out It's high voltage you cant shake the shock Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out It's high voltage you cant shake the shock Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out I've been taking into crates ever since I was livin in space Before the ratrace, before monkeys had human traits Mastered numerology and bigbang theology Performed lobotomies with telekinetic psychology Invented the mic so I could start blessin it And chincheckin kids to make my point like an impressionist Many men have tried to shake us But I twist mic cords to double helixes and show them what I'm made of I buckle knees like leg braces Cast the spell of instrumental-ness and all of the emcees that hate us So try on, leave you without a shoulder to cry on From now to infinity let icons be bygones I fire bomb ghostly notes haunt this I've tried threats but moved on to a promise I stomp shit with or without an accomplis (Mixed media) The stamp of approval is on this It's high voltage you cant shake the shock Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out It's high voltage you cant shake the shock Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out Akira, put a kink in the backbones of clones with microphones Never satisfy my rhyme jones Sprayin bright day over what you might say Blood type craillon(?) Technicolor type A On highways with road rage I'm patient to win The cage and the tin to bounce all around In surround sound devouring the scene Subliminal gangrene paintings Overall the same things sing songs karaoke copy madness Break bones verbally with sticks and stone tactics Fourth dimension, combat convention Write rhymes at ease while the tracks stand at attention (Attention) Meant to put you away with the pencil Pistol, official, 16 line rhyme missile While you risk it all, I pick out of your flaws Spin, blah blah blah blah You can say you saw It's high voltage you cant shake the shock Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out It's high voltage you cant shake the shock Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out It's high voltage you cant shake the shock Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out It's high voltage you cant shake the shock Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out It's high voltage you cant shake the shock Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out It's high voltage you cant shake the shock Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out It's high voltage you cant shake the shock Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out It's high voltage you cant shake the shock Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out

HIT THE FLOOR

There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me Wondering what I think of you and I protect you out of courtesy Too many times that I’ve held on what I needed to push away Afraid to say what was on my mind afraid to say what I need to say Too many things that you said about me when I’m not around You think having the upper hand means you gotta keep putting me down But I’ve had too many standoffs with you it’s about as much as I can stand So I’m waiting until the upper hand is mine [chorus] (One minute you're on top) Next you're not watch you drop (Making your heart stop) Just before you hit the floor (One minute you're on top) Next you're not missed a shot (Making you're heart stop) You think you've won (And then its all gone) So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long All I know is that all I want is to feel like I’m not stepped on There are so many things you say that make me feel you crossed the line What goes up will surely fall and I’m counting down the time Cause I’ve had so many standoffs with you it’s about as much as I can stand So I’m waiting until the upper hand is mine [chorus] (One minute you're on top) Next you're not watch you drop (Making your heart stop) Just before you hit the floor (One minute you're on top) Next you're not missed a shot (Making you're heart stop) You think you've won (And then its all gone) (And then he’s all gone) (And then its all gone) (And then he’s all gone) (Now it’s all gone) I know I’ll never trust a single thing you say You knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway And all the lies have got you floating up above us all But what goes up has got to fall [chorus] (One minute you're on top) Next you're not watch you drop (Making your heart stop) Just before you hit the floor (One minute you're on top) Next you're not missed a shot (Making you're heart stop) You think you've won (And then its all gone) (And then he’s all gone) (And then its all gone) (And then he’s all gone) (Now it’s all gone)

IN THE END

It starts with one One thing, I don't know why It doesn't even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind i designed this rhyme to explain in due time All I know Time is a valuable thing Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings Watch it count down to the end of the day The clock ticks life away It's so unreal Didn't look out below Watch the time go right out the window Trying to hold on, but didn't even know I wasted it all just to watch you go I kept everythin inside And even though I tried It all fell apart What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard and got so far But in the end, it doesn't even matter I had to fall to lose it all But in the end it doesn't even matter One thing, I don't know why It doesn't even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind i designed this rhyme to remind myself how (I tried so hard) I tried so hard In spite of the way you were mocking me Acting like I was part of your property Remembering all the times you fought with me I'm surprised it got so [far] Things aren’t the way they were before You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore Not that you knew me back then But it all comes back to me in the end I kept everything inside And even though I tried It all fell apart What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I Tried so hard and got so far But in the end, it doesn’t even matter I had to fall to lose it all But in the end it doesn’t even matter I put my trust in you Pushed as far as I can go For all this There’s only one thing you should know I put my trust in you Pushed as far as I can go For all this There’s only one thing you should know I tried so hard and got so far But in the end, it doesn’t even matter I had to fall to lose it all But in the end it doesn’t even matter

IT'S GOING DOWN

*feat. X-Ecutioners I knew I was being threatened. Do you think it's worth holding out? I mean I've heard some pretty ugly things about those guys... Ugly stories. Watch them flee Watch them flee Rap-rap-rap up Watch them flee Hip-hop hits And you do it like this -- It's going down, the rhythm projects 'round the next sound Reflects the complex hybrid dialect now Detect the mesh of many elements compressed down The melting pot of a super futuresque style The combination of a vocal caress With lungs that gasp for breath from emotional stress, and special effects I-I-I-In the distorted collage, it’s carefully lodged between beats of a rhythmic barrage, It’s going down [Pre chorus:] The logical progression on the time line The separation narrowed down to a fine line To blur the edges so they blend together properly Take you on an audible odyssey Now it’s going down [repeat Pre chorus] [Mixed Chorus] Put-put-put it on I said it goes like this And you do it like this… It’s going down [Repeat] O-O-O-Once again it is Composed sentences, altogether venomous, The four elements of natural force Projected daily through the sound of the source Everybody on board as we blend The sword with the pen, The mightiest of weapons swinging right for the chin To elevate mental states long gone with the wind, To defend men from shoddy imitation pretends It’s goin down Style assimilation, readily Trekking through the weaponry of a pure pedigree, Cleverly, seeing through whatever is ahead of me Whatever the weather be, we’ advancing steadily It’s going down, Sub-terrestrial hide A r-r-r-rhyme regiment that’s calling the shots E-E-E-Execution of collaborative plots Ready to bring the separation of style to a stop [Pre chorus:] The logical progression on the time line The separation narrowed down to a fine line To blur the edges so they blend together properly Take you on an audible odyssey Now it’s going down [Mixed Chorus] Put-put-put it on I said it goes like this And you do it like this… It’s going down [Repeat] X-men about to blast off world wide Yo it’s request only X-men about to blast off world wide It’s built from scratch Album in stores soon, About to bl-bl-blast off world wide. And you do it like this… It’s going down… [repeat and fade to end]

LYING FROM YOU

When I pretend everything is what I want it to be I look exactly like what you always wanted to see When I pretend, I can’t forget about the criminal I am Stealing second after second just cause I know I can but I can’t pretend this is the way it’ll stay I’m just (Lying to bend the truth) I can’t pretend I’m who you want me to be, so I’m [chorus] (Lying my way from you) No no turning back now (I wanna be pushed aside so let me go) No no turning back now (Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone) No turning back now (Anywhere on my own cuz I can see) No no turning back now (The very worst part of you is me) I remember what they taught to me Remember condescending talk for who I ought to be Remember listening to all of that and this again So I pretended up a person who was fittin’ in And now you think this person really is me and I’m (Trying to bend the truth) Cuz the more I push the more I’m pulling away cuz I’m [chorus] (Lying my way from you) No no turning back now (I wanna be pushed aside so let me go) No no turning back now (Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone) No turning back now (Anywhere on my own cuz I can see) No no turning back now (The very worst part of you) (The very worst part of you is ME) This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would have you running from me Like This This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would have you running from me Like This This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would have you running from me Like This This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would have you running from me Like This [chorus] (You) No turning back now (I wanna be pushed aside so let me go) No no turning back now (Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone) No turning back now (Anywhere on my own cuz I can see) No no turning back now (The very worst part of you) (The very worst part of you is me)

NOBODY'S LISTENING 

Yo, peep the style and the kids checking for it The number one question is how could you ignore it And drop right back in the cut over basement tracks Rap stack got you back in the sub black Rewind that we just rolling with the rhythm Rise from the ashes of stylist division With these non-stop lyrics of life living Not to be forgotten but still unforgiving But in the meantime there are those who wanna talk this and that So I suppose that it gets to a point where feelings gotta get hurt And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt it goes [chorus] (Tried to give you warning but everyone ignores me) Told you everything loud and clear (But nobody’s listening) (Called to you so clearly but you don’t want to hear me) Told you everything loud and clear (But nobody’s listening) I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress Head full of anger, held in my chest And everything left’s a waste of time I hate my rhymes, but hate everyone else’s more I’m riding on the back of this pressure Guessing that it’s better I can’t keep myself together Because all of this stress gave me something to write on The pain gave me something I could set my sights on Never forget the blood sweat and tears The uphill struggle over years the fear and Trash talking and the people it was to And the people that started it just like you [chorus] (Tried to give you warning but everyone ignores me) Told you everything loud and clear (But nobody’s listening) (Called to you so clearly but you don’t want to hear me) Told you everything loud and clear (But nobody’s listening) I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress Head full of anger, held in my chest Uphill struggle Blood sweat n tears Nothing to gain Everything to fear Heart full of pain, head full of stress Head full of anger, held in my chest Uphill struggle Blood sweat n tears Nothing to gain Everything to fear Heart full of pain [chorus] (Tried to give you warning but everyone ignores me) Told you everything loud and clear (But nobody’s listening) (Called to you so clearly but you don’t want to hear me) Told you everything loud and clear (But nobody’s listening) I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress (Nobody’s listening) Head full of anger, held in my chest (Nobody’s listening) Uphill struggle Blood sweat n tears (Nobody’s listening) Nothing to gain Everything to fear (Nobody’s listening) Scratching Conclusion (Cu-coming at you from every side)

NUMB

I'm tired of being what you want me to be Feeling so faithless lost under the surface Don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) Every step I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) [chorus] I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so tired so much more aware I've becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you Can't you see that you're smothering me Holding too tightly afraid to lose control Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart right in front of you (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) And every second I waste is more than I can take [chorus] I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so tired so much more aware I've becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you And I know I may end up failing too But I know You were just like me with someone disappointed in you [chorus] I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so tired so much more aware I've becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you [chorus] I've become so numb I can't feel you there Is everything what you want me to be I've become so numb I can't feel you there Is everything what you want me to be

ONE STEP CLOSER

I cannot take this anymore I'm saying everything I've said before All these words they make no sense I find bliss in ignorance Less I hear the less you'll say But you'll find that out anyway Just like before... Everything you say to me Takes me one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break I need a little room to breathe Cause I'm one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break I find the answers aren't so clear Wish I could find a way to disappear All these thoughts they make no sense I find bliss in ignorance Nothing seems to go away Over and over again shut up when I'm talking to you

PUSHING ME AWAY

When I look into your eyes There's nothing there to see Nothing but my own mistakes Staring back at me [*the below lyrics are said backwords*] [*the only way to hear the words is if the song is played backwords*] Everything has to end, you'll soon find, we're outta time, left to watch it all unwhind Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down Everything has to end, you'll soon find, we're outta time, left to watch it all unwhind Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down I've lied To you This is the last smile That I'll fake for the sake of being with you (Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down) (Everything has to end, you'll soon find, we're outta time, left to watch it all unwhind) For sake of being with you (Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down) The sacrifice is never knowing Why I stayed with you Just push away No matter what you see You're still so blind to me [*backwards talk*] I've tried Like you To do everything you wanted to This is the last time I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you (Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down) The sacrifice of hiding in a lie (Everything has to end, you'll soon find, we're outta time, left to watch it all unwind) The sacrifice is never knowing Why I stayed with you Just push away No matter what you see You're still so blind to me Reverse phsycology's failing miserably It's so hard to be, left all alone Telling you is the only chance for me Theres nothing left but, to turn and face you When I look into your eyes, there's nothing there to see Nothing but my own mistakes staring back at me Asking why... The sacrifice of hiding in a lie (why) The sacrifice is never knowing Why I stayed with you Just push away No matter what you see You're still so blind to me Why I stayed with you Just push away No matter what you see You're still so blind to me

PAPERCUT

Why does it feel like night today? Something in here's not right today. Why am I so uptight today? Paranoia's all I got left I don't know what stressed me first Or how the pressure was fed But I know just what it feels like To have a voice in the back of my head It's like a face that I hold inside A face that awakes when I close my eyes A face watches every time I lie A face that laughs every time I fall (And watches everything) So I know that when it's time to sink or swim That the face inside is hearing me Right underneath my skin It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back It's like a whirlwind inside of my head It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin I know I've got a face in me Points out all my mistakes to me You've got a face on the inside too and Your paranoia's probably worse I don't know what set me off first but I know what I can't stand Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is I can't add up to what you can but Everybody has a face that they hold inside A face that awakes when I close my eyes A face watches every time they lie A face that laughs every time they fall (And watches everything) So you know that when it's time to sink or swim That the face inside is watching you too Right inside your skin Chorus The face inside is right beneath your skin (3x) The sun goes down I feel the light betray me (Repeat until end)

POINTS OF AUTHORITY

Forfeit the game / Before somebody else Takes you out of the frame / Puts your name to shame Cover up your face / You can’t run the race The pace is too fast / You just won't last You love the way I look at you While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through You take away if I give in My life My pride is broken You love the things I say I’ll do- The way I’ll hurt myself again just to get back at you You take away when I give in / my life My pride is broken Chorus: You like to think you’re never wrong You want to act like you’re someone You want someone to hurt like you You want to share what you’ve been through (You live what you learn)

RUNAWAY

Graffiti decorations Under a sky of dust A constant wave of tension On top of broken trust The lessons that you taught me I learn were never true Now I find myself in question (They point the finger at me again) Guilty by association (You point the finger at me again) I wanna run away Never say goodbye I wanna know the truth Instead of wondering why I wanna know the answers No more lies I wanna shut the door And open up my mind Paper bags and angry voices Under a sky of dust Another wave of tension Has more than filled me up All my talk of taking action These words were never true Now I find myself in question (They point the finger at me again) Guilty by association (You point the finger at me again) I wanna run away Never say goodbye I wanna know the truth Instead of wondering why I wanna know the answers No more lies I wanna shut the door And open up my mind i'm gonna run away and never say goodbye (gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away) i'm gonna run away and never wonder why (gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away) i'm gonna run away and open my mind (gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away) I wanna run away Never say goodbye I wanna know the truth Instead of wondering why I wanna know the answers No more lies I wanna shut the door And open up my mind i wanna run away and open up my mind i wanna run away and open up my mind i wanna run away and open up my mind i wanna run away and open up my mind

SOMEWHERE I BELONG

(When this began) I had nothing to say And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me (I was confused) And I let it all out to find That I’m not the only person with these things in mind (Inside of me) But all that they can see the words revealed Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel (Nothing to lose) Just stuck, hollow and alone And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own [chorus] I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long (Erase all the pain till it’s gone) I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along Somewhere I belong And I’ve got nothing to say I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face (I was confused) Looking everywhere only to find That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind (So what am I) What do I have but negativity ’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me (Nothing to lose) Nothing to gain, hollow and alone And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own [chorus] I will never know myself until I do this on my own And I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed I will never be anything till I break away from me I will break away, I'll find myself today [chorus] I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong Somewhere I belong

WITH YOU

I woke up in a dream today To the cold of the static / and put my cold feet on the floor Forgot all about yesterday Remembering I’m pretending to be where I’m not anymore A little taste of hypocrisy And I’m left in the wake of the mistake / slow to react Even though you’re so close to me You’re still so distant / And I can’t bring you back It’s true / the way I feel Was promised by your face The sound of your voice Painted on my memories Even if you’re not with me I’m with you You / Now I see/ keeping everything inside You / Now I see / Even when I close my eyes I hit you and you hit me back We fall to the floor / the rest of the day stands still Fine line between this and that When things go wrong I pretend the past isn’t real Now I'm trapped in this memory And I’m left in the wake of the mistake / slow to react Even though you’re close to me You’re still so distant / And I can’t bring you back no No matter how far we've come I can't wait to see tomorrow With you