[[ Part 8- Jaycee's Blog ]]

Heya... We had a debating meeting today. Nobody was doing what they were supposed to be doing, except for maybe Adele. But I'm not even sure about her. Mariah was just being Mariah, while Alex just had all the pictures in his wallet scattered across the table top. All of him and Amba, except for one. The one with me. When I saw it, I thought I was mistaken, that it was some other girl. But I knew better, I have the exact same picture stuck in the inner realms of my wallet photo pocket as well. Its so weird though. I was over Alex long ago. In fact, in the last three years, I haven't even thought about him at all. Not about the way his chestnut brown fringe falls lightly in front of eyes when he walks, or about how green his eyes are, or the dimple that he has in his cheek. Not at all, until now. I mean, I see him in the hallways, and we kind of smile at each other in acknowledgement, but the sight of him still never made me think about how much I used to know about this guy. His hopes, his dreams, his fears. But all of a sudden, I can't get him out of my head. Amba doesn't deserve him. She is a whore that sleeps with every guy that she talks to at party's and she's only 15. She has been cheating on him for years, I've heard her bragging about it to her friends. She goes on about how men can sleep around and be players, so why can't girls, all of that bullshit. It's not true though. If you are in a relationship, you're supposed to remain faithful to the other person. I don't think that Alex even REALISES what a ho she is. It'd be just like him, to see all the goodness in her, to take everything she says at face value and see if she's hiding something. He's always been like that.

*Sigh*, I hate thinking like this too much. It's like year 7 all over again, Getting over him. I was only young then, so it was easier. But now, everything's different, it's all changed, we have way more hormones now. Okay, that's it. I'm not gonna think about him. hmm... He's got a really good bod, i wonder if he- ARGH! STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM ALREADY! Well, I guess here is where i write my thoughts down, so I should talk about him anyways... I might send him an email, I have an excuse now, to talk about debating. Wait, scratch that, he's fourth speaker. That sucks. I wanna talk to him though. Like, send him an email or a message or something, anything! But it would be really weird and awkward. I mean, how would you feel if some old best friend sent an email 3 years later with her saying stuff like 'Hi, How are you? Long time no talk. Listen, I hate your girl friend. I think that's the reason why I stopped talking to you'??????  I would be freaked out, and confused.

Anyhow, I don't really want this entire entry to be solely about a boy I've long since gotten over, so I'll talk a bit more about the rest of my Debating Group. I've already said alot about Mariah in my previous entries, so I'll tell you about Adele. She's the new girl. I sent her an email before offering to help, and she replied with a really rude answer saying stuff about how it'll be better without my help, blah blah. How dare she?!?! I replied though, I think she did that deliberately to annoy me and make me leave her alone. I'm not gonna give up that easily though. Her other email made her seem Ok I guess. She wasn't as much of a bitch as I had originally thought. Secretly, I think that she's nice but she's just trying to distance herself from me so she's acting that way. Well, If i keep on persisting I might be able to make friends with her and leave the so called 'Popular Warzone' for good.

Charmed is about to start so I have to go

~Chow! * Jaycee*

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