[name] lil mousie
[aka] mousie * yam * dork
[b-day] 12.16.84
[age] 17... i feel old =/
[height] 5"2' ...very tiny
[status] wish i was taken...haha JKin
[grade] senior =)
[skool] alhambra high skool
[clubz] uh..campus?

linkz:
[mai site] go sign mai guestbook =)
[sleepygyrl's journal]sleepgyrls thoughts

- tryin so hard -
everynite i stare blankly into the nite sky,
seein time passin bai slowly infont of mai eyes,
remberin all the times you made meeh laugh,
seein every moment that imma with you..
replay in mai mind,
everything jus seems to end with memories,
cant forget the fact that nothing last forever,
it feels like imma lockin mai heart away,
tryin so hard not to think, not to remember,
all the happiness that u've brought to meeh,
tryin so hard to push everything away,
makin maiself forget hoz i feel n what i think,
cuz imma scared, scared to loose a friend,
dont think i can hold it in ne longer,
all the feelins has taken the best of meeh,
tryin so hard not to cry, but wht can i do,
i choose to remain silent but...*sigh*
wonderin when will mai star come..
to guide mai way,cuz ur the one imma missin
- lil mousie 08.15.02


06-30-02
billie - i dream...that song ish so evil...wellz it was a good song at first until i realized that i was being tricked..stupid diana..she called up the duck n didnt tell meeh..when i was singin that song she put the phone almost next to mai mouth where u can hear meeh sing..BLAH..both of them r soOoO evil..now steven heard meeh sing >.< EVIL EVIL EVIL...no one ish suppose to hear meeh sing..i sound so horrible...i gots to go make the duck sing now

does ne one hab a costco card i can borrow?? i need to go pick up the pic that i developed..stupid parnents lent the card to someone -_- ...i want to see those pic that i took of pplz at the bowling alley. it should b pretty funnie..diana bowling,canded pic of the duck,lil john n lisa eating ice cream...

06-29-02
i cant seem to dl this song rite now..tamia - who do u tell...the file keeps failing of meeh..the song was stuck in mai head the whole day..jus this part tho..

"Just one look in your eyes, and i see the truth
And I try hard to hide that I'm made for you
But I know deep inside things that we could do
Just as long as we're together
But...Who do you tell when you love someone"

....i want to hear the rest of the song..freakin kazaa..does ne one kno a better program i can use to dl songs?

senior pictures announcements are here...ahHh..gots to tan out mai tan lines..ne one want to go to the beach with meeh? imma takin the senior pictures on July 12th 11:33am..IM meeh n tell meeh if ur takin it that day tooh..ish so freakin expensive..45 dolllars jus to b in the yr bk..total 80 dollars if u wanna buy it.. i BETTER get a picture from you guyz =D .. theres onli 8 huMm...who to trade it with..i dont kno if u guy remember..the first time we went to expo to take group picture..we said that when we graduated we're all going to come bak n take one last graduation group pix..i dought that ish going to happen tho...but it'll b nice to have a pix like that

i habent been this lost for a while..so confused..i dont kno wht to think ne more..ish kinda stupid cuz i got maiself out of one n imma putting maiself bak into one..at times i dont kno y i feel so jealous..i dont even kno..i tried to think bout it last nite..think of why n everything but i cant seem to find the answer..kinda hopein that person would call last nite but..*sigh*.. then i feel alseep not knowin at least not rememberin the answer

06-27-02
talked on the phone with diana n steven last night..it was pretty quiet tho..either pplz r doing their homework or fallin asleep..but it was still fun stayin on the phone till like 2 ish in the morning..

ish been one long day today..tired from all the walking. woke up at 8 ish cuz diana called meeh from wendy's..i was so freakin tired, went bak to sleep after i hung up the phone..took her like 45 min to get to mai house..when she got to mai house i was still sleepin..after a while that freak kicked meeh off of mai bed n went to sleep herself..the funnie thing ish that she woke up not knowin where she ish..it took us a while to wake steven up..

alan,wilson,and kevan came to visit meeh n diana when we were waitin for the duck at lollicup..he was still at home when we called him >.< ..wilson drove us to alan's house n we stayed there for a while..meeh n duckie went to watch LiLo n Stitch again with diana since she didnt see it yet..MR.Dees was realli realli REALLI boring n it sucked..good thing we didnt hab to pay for it or else i would of wanted mai money back..ate at the quad..ham n cheese sandwich *yumMmMmie*..we did alot of walkin todai..after the movies all 3 of us walked from there to alan's house..pplz tried to scare us at the 6th street bypass..got an earlie 4th of july..we lit morning glories at the balcony n alan almost burnt a bush...

- i dont kno wht to think ne more..everything ish so confusin..should i be feelin this way or ish it jus meeh..

sometime i wonder y i eben bother to sai "good nite" to u online or sai "hi" to u wheneva i see you..ish not like ull do the same for meeh. it jus doest feel the same ne more even tho were friends...i guess i was pretty good at lyin to maiself this whole time..i guess i jus realized that things arnt the same as the way they were b4 n theyll neva will b...i jus dont get hoz pplz that used to b so close can seem like strangers now..was it a coincidence when i bumped into him all those times when he was mad at meeh bak then..hummm who kno..mayb god will but yeah ish still hard for us to talk even tho were kool with each other..at least that wht i think....

06-25-02
the service this morning wasnt that bad..7 hrs passed by pretty quickly with tony,kenneth, and jan-michael there makin fun of each other..got a hand massage roller thingy and a towel..but i missed going out to eat at noodle world with pplz..i wanted to go to noodle planet tooh =( ..some pplz can b so rude when askin u to go somewhere...could of at least asked a lil nicer..ate 3 slices of papa john pizza..remind meeh neva get pizza from there again..

i didnt realize todai ish the 25th until i chekced the caledner...i think i went ova mai last cell phone bill..but ish all ova now =D the minuets starts again todai YEEY..haha i gets to call people n waste minuets again.. >.< i dont wanna see mai bill tho...been usin the phone soOoOo much..mai sis ish gonna kill meeh when it comes *prays that she doesnt get mad*

- i might b able to upload mai journal todai..
- thankie diana for helpin meeh make the background

06-24-02
spent three hrs this morning tryin to figure out hoz to make frames..argh...it was such a waste of time..i hate frames. I GIVE UP!!!! could of done it the easy way if i used front page >.< *sigh* dont wanna learn on mai own ne more..so frustrating..bombed pplz pager after that..watched passions..went to diana house..walked to get boba. tried to wander but then it was toOoh hot...scanned lots of pix..was gonna upload it to site but then i hab to go home...went home...duck called...where ish he?? u were supose to call meeh bak!!!! >.<

freakin phone chain...i gots to call soOoOo mani pplz...ne one want to go to JDRF service tomorrow?? mRs.towers better go tomorrow or else....lunch ish provided *yuMmMie* i want ice cream!! ICE CREAM..ICE CREAM =P where ish mai bro with the ice cream..gonna go make banana split *yumMmMmie* ahHhHh freak...i jus found out that the service ish freakin 7 hrs long...wht the hell did i jus get maiself into..argh..*smack maiself in the head* >.< imma so mad at maiself!!!!!

06-23-02
so bored >.< probablly going to start a new journal now..habent written in the old one in a long time.dont kno wht to write in that one ne more.i had no idea that so many pplz had that link.it wasnt ment for a lot of u pplz to read it.but oh wellz.whts done ish done.summa ish boring..nothing to do at all.stupid diana if i get stuck makin the frames imma gonna bomb ur pager when ur at summa skool *muhahaha* >=D

watched LiLo n Stitch last friday with steven[duckie],lisa w,chris,alan, wayne,n duckie lil cusin..ish soOoOoOo cutie =D...made meeh tear up tho " 'Ohana mean family...family mean no one gets left behind"..=*) had to walk to the movies that day >.< cuz mai dad wasnt home..i left tooh earlie...got there like an hr before everyone else...ate at the quad..sat there like an idiot all bai maiself ... ate cold stone ice cream...cheesecake ice cream ish EVIL!!! i never get the rite one -_- blah...sat n talk to da freak for a while ( diana ish not gonna see that) all of us thought that we were goin to hab roasted duck for dinna =D ... he pretty luckie for someone that ish last min..call rite when we were bout to get the ticket n got there a min before the movie started...

freakin chris woke up so earlie todai...1130am =( GOOD JOB jimmy for throwin the slippers at him =D..went to costco for breakfest hotdogs..drive round lookin for where mai summa job orientation ish..sg..diana house..mcD =D i got a Stitch todai *YEEY* better then that pleakley i got the other day..

06-22-02
i jus realized that i got one more week of freedom until i start work. then i gots to wake up at 6:30 in the morning for the next 6 weeks. freakin so earlie in the morning for ROP. i think tony ish going to keep meeh awake. i get money deducted if immma late to ROP...blah..wht kinda nonsense ish that. well ish better then sitting at home n doing nothing for the whole day. care to visit meeh at work sometime?? 2116 W. Main Street kinda close to Elserno

SAT II scores came. 610 for biology,460 for math, and writing ish not released yet >.< scores soOoO low...barley made average for biology..BLAH bak to studyin again...


06-21-02
let meeh b urs tonite,hold meeh in ur arms all nite
leave the world far behind,make meeh high to ur paradise
you are the one i love,you are the one i need
you're be onli one in mai heart,baby come save meeh
the touch of ur hand,can take all mai pain away
and the sound of ur voice,heels the soul forever im urs

you are the one i love,you are the one i need
you're be onli one in mai heart,baby come save meeh
baby..i love u and i cant live without u
i cant imagine how,life will be without yoOoh
you make mai world compelete,you mean the world to meeh
you are the one i love,you are the one i need
you're be onli one in mai heart,baby come save meeh

- spent the whole day lookin for this lyric..>.<
- thanks chick for finding it..

July