| i tend to beat myself up at times... i often loose sight of God's love for me, i get cought up in my own little world and i forget how much bigger life is. if i'm havng one of those days (or one of those weeks... one of those months...) where i'm down that far, i have a hard time not continually getting down on myself. i do pretty well in the day time when i have lots to think about, but at night my mind goes a million miles a minute and the only way to slow it down is to get out a pen and whatever scrap of paper i can find. whether it be a journal, a napkin, a reciept... sometimes i write out prayers, when i don't know what to pray or don't even know what it is i need, i'll write songs, or poetry. sometimes it's really aweful, but hey, it helps. :) sometimes i just write out scripture i have memorized, and then what it means to me and to my current situation. most of the time i don't complete a song or a poem, and many times i take things i've written before and put them with other things. the few songs i have written and actually put music to are like that. So this is just a compilation of some of the lines or stanzas or whatever that i've written. some are complete and easy to read, others may be a little complicated because i'm twisted like that ;) but if you've had any training in poetry none of it is difficult if you wanted to spend the time. as always, if you have any questions feel free to ask, this is, afterall, a rare glimpse into my mind. |
