~*~ Chapter 5 ~*~
The third day was the day that I realized I was already too much involved. Deeply involved. And even for me it felt crazy. Come on! It was only the third day. The third day and I had spent the entire day, and I mean it, the entire day, logged on waiting for him to go online and to talk to me.
I was almost giving up and going to bed when he appeared online at 2:15 a.m.
“Hi beautiful!” he typed.
Oh, this damn stupid smile again.
“It took you too long. I thought you weren’t coming tonight, silly.”
“Hi, it’s good to see you too. I missed you too.” he joked about my first line of conversation.
He explained he hadn’t logged on earlier because it was his mother’s birthday and there were too many people at the house for the party. And, what made me feel so good and special (and, if I remember it correctly, I think I cried a little bit. Yep! I’m a crying baby! Sorry!) was the line “See, I logged on just to let you know that I wasn’t gonna be able to Chat with you tonight. That’s how much I care about you.” There. Falling even harder.
You see, you guys that are reading this, you can NOT say a line like this one to a girl who’s completely needy and trying to heel from a bad relationship! You’re asking for the girl to fall for you. And maybe that was Josh’s wish. To see if he could get a girl to fall for him. Maybe that was all he really wanted. To see how far he could go.
We talked for a little while because he had to socialize with the guests at the party. But before logging off, he gave me his cell number.
Now, just who really knows me, and now you guys that are reading this, knows this: I can’t have anyone’s number. If you give me your number, don’t worry, I will call you. Even if I hardly now you or even if I don’t have anything else to say. I can’t have a number and never call it. I guess it’s one of my many O.C.D.s (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder).
He got me completely hooked and he now gives me his phone number? He was asking for it! LoL
So, the next day I woke up singing. LoL Yep, I was falling for him. And even so that I wrote him a testimonial for him to place it in his Orkut. I didn’t even know him and I was already writing about it. And it felt normal, because he was always on my mind, I felt like I knew him because he was the only thought in my mind since the first day we talked.
We talked too much this fourth day. And what did I say about the phone number? I called him, but just to say a hello! I was too embarrassed. Just wanted to listen to his voice. And it was amazing. My heart skipped not only one, but 4 or 5 beats.
We resumed chatting online. That day we chatted from 4 pm. To 4 am. We talked about pretty much everything. I didn’t even see the time passing. And I didn’t want it to end. The next day I was traveling and would only be back after that New Year’s.
This was day he told me he didn’t believe in fate. He told me I had “found” him because I was looking for him.
But, you see, I always believed in one thing: all things happen for a reason.
Things just don’t happen because you want them to or because you don’t want them to. They happen, or don’t happen, because they are supposed to be that way. You can work hard to get something, really hard, and if you don’t get it, it was because you were suppose to work that hard and do not get it, you had to go through all of that. I can’t say why that is, but for me everything happens because of destiny. Fate. It’s all part of a bigger plan.
So, when Joshua said that he was going to the U.S.A., of course, my first
reaction was to be devastated. But then I came to think about it and realized
that maybe that meant that I had to work harder and faster to fulfill what
I so wanted: to meet him in person.
~*~ Chapter 4 ~*~
~*~ Chapter 6 ~*~
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