| 11/18/01 I broke my toe. And I don't mean a little bit. As I collapsed in pain last night, I saw that my toe was horribly mangled, pointing in a completely different direction than my other toes. And my parents kept saying, Are you sure you broke it? It could be jammed. It's not swelling. etc. Well I CAN'T FREAKING PUT ANY PRESSURE ON MY LEFT FOOT WHATSOEVER, THE TOE IS BLUE AND SWOLLEN AND YOU KNOW WHAT? IT'S BROKEN. So bite me. Yeah it kills. My mom gave me one of her pain pills last night and I felt pleasantly numb all over but, unfortunately, I was still quite aware of the pain in my little toe. This is the same toe that I thought I broke at the Goldfinger concert. But I must have just sprained it or something then, because the pain I experienced at the concert doesn't even begin to compare to what I felt last night....and right now, every time i accidentally bump it against something. let me tell you, taking a shower this morning was interesting. See, I can't put any weight on my left foot without some serious pain. Hahahaha and shaving my leg was even worse. I do a lot of leaning on things now, I've noticed. And by the time I can walk properly again, I feel that my right leg will be much much stronger, seeing as how I've been literally hopping on one foot everywhere I go. Sucks. 11/24/01 Well, well. All my family's gone. The crazy drunken brawl of a family reunion is over. Sad really, but only because now I have to write college essays. My toe is doing better. Still hurts like a bitch, but I can walk without limping now. Right now I'm watching Legend on the SciFi channel. God I love this movie. I also like Labyrinth. ANd Last of the Mohicans wa on A&E last night, and holy crap is Daniel Day Lewis hotttt in that movie. Where's a love like that, lol? I think I might go to Starbucks to get coffee and write some essays. I've been in the house for three days straight and if i don't get out today, I never will. My bathroom is finished too, by the way. It's very white. Bright too. nnnnnnnnmmmmm......nneeeeeed sleeeeeeeeeep. b but must get oooooouuuut of the hooooooouse. coffeeeeeeee. sigh. 11/30/01 The cutest guy was at Starbucks this afternoon. I went there after school to work on my Georgetown essay, and sat inside at a table by the window. He sat down outside at a table next to me. Green shirt. Long hair. Cute as anything. Smoked, yuck, but so cute. In other news, I'M 18!!!!! (well, I was 18 on Wednesday) Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I'm a legal adult now. Frightening, isn't it? Tomorrow is my mystery birthday celebration. I'm being kidnapped after Clay and I go Xmas shopping in Little 5 Pts, and who knows where we'll go. All I know is I have to dress nicely and we're going to dinner. Don't know where or anything. I wore this BRIGHT neon green (think tennis ball) sweater today. I like it and I got lots of comments on it...mostly "Woah that's bright!" and "you look like a tennis ball!" Yeah. God I"m jittery. All that coffee. Hey, if you've been to the Starbucks on the corner of Johnson's Ferry and Roswell, have you ever seen that big biker looking dude who sits in there and makes beaded necklaces and things? I've seen him the past few times I've been in there. While I was writing my essay he walked up and said "You know the weekend is for taking a break from things like that." I said yeah I know, but I'm working on college essays. Told him it was for Georgetown. He said, oh yeah, I went to William and Mary. I blinked really hard and said Oh yeah?! I'm applying there too! So next time I'm in there, I'll have to say hi to the guy. Maybe check out the bracelets and stuff he's making. He was really nice. He's a mailman. Maybe that adorable guy in the green shirt will be there too. ;o) 12/2/01 Goddamn, I'm going on absolutely zero sleep from last night. As it turns out, I was kidnapped and taken to Dante's Down the Hatch, where we met Dante, saw an alligator, and scared our waiter. At one point he actually asked if we'd been drinking before we came to eat. Then it was on to Cafe Intermezzo where the espresso machine exploded and the drunk table kept breaking things and I ordered a pot of regular coffee. The waiter was nice enough to keep bringing us bowls of sugar since that was all Cory and I ate while we were waiting. Clay helped eat my chocolate chips (the waiter was nice enough to bring those too for my coffee) and drink the last bit of my coffee, spilling it down his shirt in the process. Katie and Cory decided to build a sugar cube house and our waiter wanted us to leave, I think. We weren't sophisticated enough for them. Right, so anyway we watched Chasing Amy and then I couldn't sleep cuz I'd had so much caffeine and I knew it would only be like 2 hours until Jessica had to go to work anyway, so really, what's the point of sleeping? I'm feeling it now, though, now that I have to finish my college essays and write that stupid ap lit thing. stupid! Did all of you remember to send in your remember whens for the yearbook? I have a feeling a lot of people didn't turn any in. Does that mean I get to add more to mine?! Anyhoo I got Katie's xmas present in Little 5. I got Drew his xmas present too. Drew, I got you your xmas present! It's dumb, but you'll hopefully appreciate it! 12/8/01 Yippee! I'm going to see Jump tonite at Earthlink Live. Hope it's a good venue, I KNOW it'll be a great show. 12/9/01 Every time I see Jump live I remember why I love them. The concert was awesome last night, the guys were funny, they played great songs, and some chick in the back yelled "Sexy bitch!" every time Matt was talking. I only wish they'd played #11 of Vertigo, since that's my favorite on that cd. I got home pretty late and woke up kinda early at 1130...all the while avoiding my mother and still in shock from what she said to me last night...AND that she's not coming in and apologizing. Ah, all I'll say is that thank god I had a wonderful concert to go to last night. We had a good time, didn't we, boys? 12/10/01 I fear I've become a music snob. This chick at school asked me what concert I went to this weekend. I told her Jump Little Children. "Oh REALLY? I LOVE them!" What? You love- "Yeah! I have their CD!" Someone burned it for her. And I couldn't help feeling my little bubble of music was about to pop. My problem is not that more people at my school are hearing of my favorite band...I'm not sure what my problem is. Maybe it's that I recognize in this girl a tendency to go along with whatever's trendy, and I know that Jump's music isn't a trend, it isn't some passing fad, it's quality stuff that has substance and was born of musical genius and creativity. Perhaps I'm reading too much into this. But surely you've tensed up when you've felt that your "turf" (to use Cory's phrase) is being infringed upon. In other news, why is it that every small problem within my group of friends has to suck everyone in? Why can't we all have our own problems?! 12/11/01 Mr. Bolinksy stopped me on my way out of school today to ask what was wrong. "You don't look like your usual perky self!" He was genuinely concerned, and I realized I must have looked miserable for him to say anything. All I said in response was "Well, let's just say I'm really ready for the break." 12/15/01 Relevance: "Can't you see I'm trying, I don't even like it...I can't think cause I'm just way to tired...Is this it? Dear can't you see, it's them it's not me, we're not enemies, we just disagree... We all disagree I think we should disagree..." "In many ways they'll miss the good old days, someday, someday, Yeah it hurts to say but I want you to stay, sometimes, sometimes....Promises they break before they're made, sometimes, sometimes...You say you wanna stay by my side Darling your head's not right...I see alone we stand, together we fall apart, yeah I think I'll be alright, I'm working so I won't have to try so hard, tables they turn sometimes. Oh someday. I ain't wasting no more time. Trying, trying." "Your little problems, they're not yours they're mine...And all together it went well, we made pretend we were best friends...The things we did the thing you hide, but for the record it's between you and I." "No choice now, it's too late, Let him go, he gave up, Don't give up, Lisa said 'Take time for me' dropping him down to his knees, Oh just go. Take me away, see I've got to explain things they are changing such a permanent way, life seems unreal...People try, felt so right, giving themselves good advice, looking down sometimes felt nice...We all like it a little different." "Leave me alone I'm in control...and girls act too much and boys act too tough, enough is enough....Just take it or leave it...He's gonna let you down...I fell off the track, now I can't go back, I'm not like that." I never thought the Strokes' music was all that amazing or deep, it was just nice stuff to sing along to on the way home. But all of a sudden, the lyrics are relevant. Do you understand? 12/18/01 I stayed home today because I knew my time would be wasted at school, so I'm just studying here. Finals are gonna blow. Tomorrow is Zoology and AP Modern Euro. Zoology should be easy as crap, but mod euro's gonna kick my ass. Man, I joined makeoutclub.com. Am I cool yet????? I have met some pretty cool people, tho. grrrrr, hungry. Sleeping in felt nice. 12/20/01 I blew my precalculus exam pretty hard. I really didn't know anything. AP Lit wasn't that bad, and government tomorrow should be no sweat. I've gotten pretty far in the biography of Edna St. Vincent Millay. God, she's amazing. Her whole life reads like a novel. I usually don't like nonfiction, or at least biographies, but this is pretty interesting. Only like 400 more pages to go. I was just out on my porch taking pictures of my dogs....I got the real camera out this time as opposed to the disposable ones so I could get these awesome close up shots of their faces. Of course, I had Molly looking at me perfectly and then she put her head down. The camera makes her so nervous, she can't sit still. Christmas break officially started for most people today, but alas I have a last exam. Ssh, I know I told you that already. I'm glad I'm taking it tomorrow and not after lit today. That would have sucked. I had such a headache. I love that song No Rain by Blind Melon. And I Want You Back by Jackson 5. Hey, I never mentioned the Nikka Costa concert. I went to see her at Earthlink Live with Jessica, Cory, and John last Thursday. And what can I say? The chick's amazing. That voice on the cd is not fixed up one little bit. She really does sing like that. And she's probably the most fit person ever. How can she move like that? I told em afterwards that she's enough to make a gay man straight. We saw Michael Quarantello there. 12/21/01 See, Weezer bonds people. I went to Blockbuster after antiquing at the Marietta Square and you know how when you give the Blockbuster guy your card, he asks for your name? Well I said it, and the other dude, upon hearing my name walks up and says "Well Caroline, is that a Weezer shirt you have on?" and I said "Why yes, Brian, it is." He asked if I'd seen them in Athens. no, it was sold out. Yeah, he missed them too. Geocities keeps sending me these emails telling me that my site has been getting too much traffic. So it has to periodically shut down. Well, periodically a lot. Bastards. I can't wait to remember what it feels like to be bored!! Woop! 12/22/01 Man, don't even THINK about driving any time soon. Traffic is murder out there, all those insane people getting last minute gifts. Roswell Rd. was a joke. They should just shut it down. I got into University of South Carolina. It's weird. I was so happy and so relieved just to know I was accepted somewhere. It doesn't matter that I don't really want to go there. Ha, I've never even visited. I hear from all the colleges I want to go to in the spring. It's gonna be a long wait. But nevertheless, go me! 12/23/01 When I transferred all my rants from my old webpage to this one via ftp, the text got screwed up. All these random letters got inserted, and i figured since i've got time to waste for two weeks, i'd fix a few. So there I went, fixing up a rant. And I read it as I went and realized I sounded like an idiot. Sure, there were a few rants that were ok, but THAT much incoherence and vain babbling ain't good. So the link at the bottom of the page will remain inactive. There. 12/27/01 Forgot what today was all of a sudden. Man, worry is enough to wake you up. That, and I woke up at close to 1 this afternoon. So I'm not tired at all. Ok listen to this: it's a review of makeoutclub in Seventeen magazine. I couldn't believe it when I saw that a magazine like that was talking about...yeah well here: "Makeoutclub.com: No, it's not an orgy, just a totally cool space where indie-music lovers can expose their thoughts, art, poetry and pics. Bonus: If you find someone special (and there are plenty of sensitive boys to pick from), maybe the site can live up to its name...." oh my GOD. Expose pics? Find someone special? It can live up to its name? What is it all coming to? 12/29/01 I'm having a sexy Caroline day. What does this mean, you ask? It means I feel really great and...oddly enough...want to go participate in some kareoke. Yeah, I wanna go sing onstage. I wanna go party. later that same day!: I just saw a Behind the Music-ish thing on Bush. Oh...my.... lord...Gavin is still the most beautiful creature. I think my crush on him that started in...what, 8th grade? molded my idea of ideal guy. siiiiiiigh..... 12/30/01 Hiiiii. A buddy of mine has x-ray vision! Amazing. Cory is happy! Amazing. Sarah and Don and Jeff and Will were fun today. I had a good time with them. I actually found my way back home from Alpharetta. Amazing! I've been downloading lotsa music. Welp. See y'all tomorrow at the cobb parkway ihop. Ready to gorge yourself on pankcakes? 1/1/02 It's a new year! Nothing really feels different, 'cept my head for lack of sleep. I hope you had a safe, fun New Years celebration and didn't do anything you'll regret too much! 1/2/02 It snowed today. yaaaaaaaay! 1/3/02 No more snow, I am sad. I added a ton of Jump Little Children lyrics, go check em out. Not done yet, I just got bored of typing. Usually I just go type up my favorite lyrics, but I love all their songs. Go figure! 1/4/02 tired. 1/10/02 Life's so rad. My history paper got moved to Monday, I get to go to bed early...and tomorrow is Friday! I just called Cory. He'd been asleep, and was the most incoherent blob I've ever talked to on the phone. So he mumbled a story that didn't make sense and informed me that he was going back to sleep. OK then. We've been playing football in PE. I'd rather work out in the weight room, but today I actually had fun making a fool of myself. Does anyone know when the crap the movie is tomorrow?? Drew has made me a White Stripes fiend. 1/14/02 I am really just incredibly tired. I have a huge modern euro test to study for (they're all huge, you get the idea), a huge math quiz to study for (same idea), and some inane task to complete in Ap lit. AND i'm supposed to call Jason and interview him for the paper. I like tortilla chips. My dad gave me some of those Torengoes chips in my christmas stocking and now he won't stop buying them, which is good because they're addictive. How was everyone's weekend? Mine was good, I got to hang out with Trey (hi). And then I braved the mall on Saturday. That was a baaaaad idea. Malls are no good. ever, really. And Barrett Parkway is just a perpetual nightmare. It was cold and dreary today, no help to my usual Monday blues. Crap, I have an astronomy quiz, too. I worked out in PE today and i fear i'll be paying for it in the morning. Lotsa leg presses and arm junk. Might as well take two aleve and go to bed now. Cold! WHY??? Ha, I like Goldfinger. 1/15/02 Well, I got my first prom catalog of the season today, full of slut trash and glitter. I saw maybe 2 dresses I like, but probably wouldn't wear. I mean, what the hell?! Who buys this stuff? And who wants to think about shelling out this much money for a dress this early? In other news, I t hink I did an average job on my math quiz and a slightly below average job on my history test. That class will soon be the end of me. Worked out again, feel good, but tomorrow is football. Booooo. Hey, how is it only Tuesday? 1/17/02 I'm at school right now. In astronomy, to be exact. I'm not sure if I like this class or not. The teacher gets really tired of answering questions, of which I have many, but he can be entertaining, so whatever. I have PE next, and we played mat ball yesterday so I'm hoping if we don't play that again we can go to the weight room. Anything but football! Wow, the week has actually gone by quickly. Ok, it's study hall now. I COULD do my math worksheet, but what's the fun in that? I'll sit here and do nothing. "Motherboard, motherboard, motherboard!! duh-duh-duh-duh-duh-duh..." 1/19/02 whew! I just finished going through all 8 pages of my poetry as well as the creativity page to correct long-standing typos. This is what happens when I spend all day in my pajamas. I realized that a bunch of my early poems suck. And some more of my recent ones, too. 1/22/02 I hate school so so much, but that's not important right now because you have to go see the cutest thing ever!!! 1/24/02 I feel like the weather. Dark, dreary, 100% humidity. Ok, well maybe not the humidity part, but I sure am sleepy. I'm getting ap lit ideas from thespark.com, which is always helpful and does not teach me in the least to be resourceful on my own. I figure I already know how to do that, I just choose not to. I just downloaded the letters to cleo version of Cruel to be Kind, which is so great, and i'm in the process of downloading How Soon is Now by the Smiths. Y'ever notice how I only capitalize the most random things? I think i did alright on astronomy today. the precalc quiz will kick me in the face, tho. hmmmmmm want bed 1/30/02 It's Wednesday, which means it isn't Saturday. Friday is Better Than Ezra at the Roxy, which i'm totally psyched about, and Saturday is Katie's birthday celebration. I foresee a fun weekend. I had my interview with the woman from Washington & Lee Univ. and I think it went well. My precalculus test blew, and soccer was fun today in pe. i was unsure if i'd be able to head the ball at one point so when i jumped up it instead hit my right boob. Again! Why not the left?? WHy must the right one always be subjected to such pain? Whatever. I need to study for my history quiz and work on this Vanderbilt application supplement. Ah, life. 2/4/02 Have you ever seen a battle of will between two nerds? It's really funny up until the point it becomes incredibly irritating. One was on the only computer that the other had saved some game, and so nerd #2 kept bitching and nerd #1, who's actually a friend of mine, shooed the younger nerd away. This went back and forth for seriously 5 minutes before the computer lab guy threatened to throw them out. OK, you would have understood if you'd seen it. Anyway, the Better Than Ezra show was amazing. They've got so much energy, you can't not have the time of your life. Kevin Griffin is friggin amazing on guitar and vocals, he's my hero. Kind of. And the opening act was the ex-lead singer of Brand New Immortals, and it seemed to me that Cory and I were the only ones who knew who the guy was. He's got THE most amazing voice. God, it's amazing. His name is David Ryan Harris, look him up. I bought a cd and he signed it for me and I shook his hand and told him how awesome he was and yeah we talked. He played one of my favorites. Er, two actually. I wish they hadn't broken up. They had the best sound. They incorporate different styles and it's perfect. Bwa. Go buy the Brand New Immortals cd and see what i'm talking about. Holy crap tho, Cory and I saw ms may at the concert. We ducked so as not to be turned into stone upon eye contact. At one point we looked up and she was the only one on the balcony standing up and dancing. hahahahahahahahaha mock her. 2/8/02 I'm 18, and already losing my hearing. People tell me I should wear earplugs to concerts. And people would be WRONG!!!! I ain't scared. Though this constant ringing in my ears is quite bothersome. 2/11/02 It doesn't seem like it's been 5 months. Seems like it was last week in some respects, but in others...it's unreal how distant it feels. After it happened I thought about how I didn't want this to be another Pearl Harbor -- meaning that I want people to remember the pain, not be half way through their lunch break in 50 years and go "Oh yeah, this is the 50th anniversary of the World Trade Center disaster. Should I get mayo or mustard on my sandwich?" 2/14/02 I went to the doctor today to find out why I've been having these dizzy spells. Turns out my blood pressure is incredibly low. I have some....thing....that i can't pronounce, but is apparently bad. Bad enough to make the nurse eye me warily as she wrote down my numbers. Anyway, I have to get more sleep, make sure to eat enough all the time, and stay hydrated. Well eating is never a problem. I just don't ever pay attention to how much I drink...and sleep...well I don't have time to sleep as much as I should. So oh well. I'll just start hauling water with me everywhere. I can't WAIT for Music Midtown. The bands are announced in the middle of next month. Yay!! And Jump Little Children will be back at the Variety Playhouse on March 29!!! Yaaaaay!!! Tickets are $12. It's an all-ages show. You should come. And not just because I'll be there, but because the music is great! hahaha. Just another reason why I love spring: so many frickin concerts to go to!! 2/17/02 Why WHYYYY do I have so much homework? *lament lament* 2/21/02 Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you... Anyway, I'm in astronomy again. Well, study hall to be exact. Man, I'm gonna get raped by my math quiz tomorrow. There's nothing going on. Except Trey is going to see Weezer!!!! Muy jealous. BUT Cory and I bought tickets at break to see Blink 182/Greenday/Jimmy Eat World on May 18. GOD May is gonna ROCK!!! Midtown, concert, graduation. It's gonna be sweet. And Jump in March!! I feel that the remainder of school will go by slowly. There's so much going on, but I'm looking forward to all of it, so I'll go nuts waiting for it. Yeah. Word. OK, time to surf the net until the bell rings. Later. 2/23/02 Saw the play at school last nite, and it was great!! They did such a good job. I'm gonna start my poetry analysis here in a minute. I need to go through my unmentionables drawer and toss out old underwear. I bought a bunch of new bras on friday, so it's time to get cracking on spring cleaning...well, only in my top drawer. Right. If you have a minute, download "Love Songs" and "Ugly Girl" by Fleming & John. It's worth it. 2/27/02 Atlanta traffic is enough to make me hate humanity. 3/2/02 I've done nothing today but read magazines and watch tv. It's been fantastic. But I probably won't be able to sleep tonite, as I have used up none of my energy. Hell, I didn't take a shower till around 8. Anyway. Rocky Horror was awesome last night. Erica and I had a blast. And now that it's moving to the Marietta Star Cinema right by my house, I'm dragging you all there with me. HA!! You Rocky Horror virgins, you. Tomorrow I'm driving down to see Trey, yay! I need to start that vietnam book for ap lit. bah. i won't do it tonite, but sometime. Oh let me complain: the font you see here is supposed to be Helvetica. And on some computers it shows up as times new roman, which didn't bother me as long as it showed up as Helvetica on my computer. But then I go tonite, and it's times new roman! what gives?? you don't care. but i sure do!! 3/9/02 OK I've solved the font problem. I've changed just about everything to Arial. Yay, can you tell? Ha, can you also tell I was in serious need of something to do? I finished that book for AP lit in 3 days, visited Georgetown in one day (including flying up and back....ugh), watched loads of tv, and hung out with trey and cory. i also cleaned out my closet more, got rid of all the old stuff i haven't worn in forever. it's gloriously rainy today. well it WAS now it's just dreary and overcast. i want a really really big scary thunderstorm. righto. ok, that's all for now! all in all this wasn't a bad break, hope yours was delicious! 3/11/02 6 months. Weird. I made the mistake of walking in my room and seeing my bed looking all...soft...and....welcoming. Fat chance I'll do anything productive tonight. I'm already in my pajamas and it's 8:15. But pajamas are a good place to be. First days back always suck the hardest. 3/13/02 I'm a nerd. I'm waiting to go to tutoring so I'm sitting in here in the library talking at you. The kitten picture caused quite a stir in my retarted school today. If I didn't email it to you, you're missing out big time. Hm. Today was boring and worthless, but pretty much every day has been like that since second semester started. I hear back from all of my colleges next month. I'm not really scared or nervous...more anxious, really. I'm anxious to have my life plan set for the next 4 years. OOOh! Music Midtown bands were announced last night and then quite a few were added by the time I saw the list this morning. Bush is coming!!! I really don't care about the music. I just want to go to stare at Gavin. I'm gonna try to get as close as possible. Better Than Ezra will be awesome, and I'm looking forward to Incubus, Joan Jett, Butch Walker (sans the other Marvelous 2), Hoobastank, Counting Crows, Garbage, Journey, Remy Zero...and the experience in general!!! God, Midtown is so much fun. MARTA is calling. 3/15/02 This save the kittens thing has gotten OUT OF CONTROL!!! I printed out ONE copy the other day and now people are just coming up and asking me to email it to them. It's insane! Oh well. Funny stuff spreads quickly. 3/24/02 Yeah, haven't updated in a while. I got wait-listed at Wash U in St Louis and i got accepted to Gettysburg in Pennsylvania. Those in addition to already being accepted at UGA and South Carolina. Funny how the only one out of all of those that I'd want to go to is Wash U. UGA would be my next choice. Pennsylvania would be too cold and too far away and South Carolina...well, whatever. Hey, thanks to all of you who helped make jessica's birthday fun and special! Funny, how nearly everything weird that happened involved Cory! The weather was absolutely beautiful today, so after taking showers, Trey and I got lunch and ate it at the Square. Thanks, Jessica, for indirectly giving me the idea! And now I'm falling over dead because I got maybe an hour and a half of sleep this morning. We didn't go to bed till 6. I think. I'm not sure. No, it had to be later than that. Whatever. Point is, we're all exhausted. Happy anniversary, Jessica & Clay! 3/28/02 Wait-listed at Vanderbilt. Jump Little Children tomorrow! Mother driving me insane! 3/31/02 Happy Easter. The Jump concert was awesome, and the end was the best. They got their cell phones out and much hilarity ensued and then they broke into some Metallica and the audience went nuts. AND they closed the nite with My Guitar, which is one of my favorite songs. Jessica and I went shopping yesterday. Nothing normal can ever happen when she and i are together. There was this huge torrential downpour yesterday. I'll take you step by step through our misadventures. First we had a showdown in the parking deck over what was very possibly the last open space known to mankind. I zipped in there first before a big suburban could crush me. Hey, I had my blink on first, so eat me. Then we wandered around looking for shoes and prom dresses but ended up in this make up store, Sephora, for about an hour. It was like dying and finding yourself in someplace better than heaven. So after that we ate, because wasting time sure does make you hungry. I had a club pita and some chicken ziti salad. Club good, salad baaaaaaad. Anyhoo we wander around forever trying to find that goddamn jessica mcclintock store only to find out after a while that it's no longer in the mall. We went to Cache, where Jessica bought a lovely dress, and I tried on this really outrageous black and white number but didn't get it. We went back to the shoe dept and i tried on a pair of insanely high heeled shoes, only to fall over. Meanwhile Jessica is experiencing high levels of mental instability, yelling out "I don't care!" at everything and we were so tired it seemed really funny. Then we drove home and that was fun. We were so exhausted that we got all nice and delirious (I still say we were delusional too) and of course there was still a downpour but at least it was pitch black outside so we coudn't see when i started to cross the yellow line. Anyway we took a major detour cuz i got a mad craving for some dairy queen. then we got home. jessica got in her car, started to back down my driveway, and ended up going down the ditch in the mud, pulling up wires in the process and lodging the ghetto hooptie solidly in the mud. so we call AAA, the dude comes, we laugh hysterically, and jessica finally drives away. AH, fun. Of COURSE that would happen. 4/1/02 I am sad. 4/6/02 Got my hair cut today and searched for prom shoes. seriously considering wearing flip flops. came home, very tired, planned to camp out on front of the tv and watch dvds all nite, dad came in, killed plans for Ferris Bueller, hence I am up here doing nadda on the computer. Trey is out of town (er, out of his town), hence i am doing nadda in the first place. Oh yeah forgot to tell you: I was rejected from Georgetown and Duke (big surprise) and wait-listed at Washington & Lee, William & Mary, and UVA. So that makes for 3 acceptances, 2 rejections, and 5 wait-listed. I'll be visiting Gettysburg and South Carolina next week (spring break...so much for fun! woop!!) I've been quite annoyed with people trying to comfort me about my college situation. I was really upset the first nite, but that's out of my system and now i'm just bitter and annoyed. Oh yeah, see back there where it says 'i am sad'? that was that nite. i have a lit paper to write sometime in the next week.....hmph. if i decided to go to south carolina, i could see jump more often! same with uga i guess. they don't tour in pennsylvania. [blog missing here due to STUPID ASS COMPUTER suffering from an illegal operation] 4/11/02 bow chika wow wow 4/16/02 dammit! i had just typed out about 5 jump little children songs when nolan's quiz made geocities shut down. bah!! anyway, i was vomiting quite a bit last nite so i stayed home today. woop! 4/23/02 oh GOD i love saltines. Prom was so much fun last friday, and so was the party at katy's. I've been agonizing of whether to sign my life away to UGA or South Carolina. Cory says since my name is Caroline, it would make intoductions easy at South Carolina. Yeah, ok. If only I knew I would definitely have a dorm room at uga... but alas, i'm seriously leaning towards out-of-state education. who knows?! dammit, i hate this!! oh and that new radio station that i talked about...yeah it got annoying really fast. mmmmm saltine crackers...... 4/26/02 please...help...me....i have that pink song "don't let me get me" LODGED in my BRAIN....and it's killing me....very...slowly.... in other news, i said yes to University of South Carolina and continue to wonder what my life would be like had i said yes to UGA instead. and i continue to hope for uva or william & mary. and to all of you people who visit my site just for the heck of it...sign the guestbook, wouldja?? for cryin out loud, people...i like to hear from you. i got new shoes. Ponys. Or is it Ponies? if the brand is PONY, singular, is the plural still Ponies or since it's a brand, would it be Ponys? Anywhatever, they're guys' shoes. in a teeny, scaled-down size for the likes of my female feet. i'm getting my hair cut tomorrow! again! super short this time! woop! 4/30/02 Waited at the DMV for quite a while today, but I got my Class C license! No more restrictions! wooooo....and a new picture that's kind of scary. 5/11/02 I wrote a rambling senior year in review. It sucks, so don't expect to follow it. But it sums up how i felt about this year. More will come later about this year's music midtown and about anything else on my mind. but don't feel in a typing mood. 5/12/02 OK so i deleted a ton of people from my im list. i mean really, i didn't im them, they didn't im me either. it's like cutting off that huge growth on your eyelid. ha, maybe not. BORED!! but it's a nice feeling for once. 5/19/02 techincally it's 1:42 on the morning of the 20th....but who's counting? I wrote the folks at the Music Midtown website a nice little email telling them why their festival sucked so much ass this year. They haven't gotten back to me. Tomorrow morning Jessica and I will experience Round Two of bathing suit shopping. Then I go to the orthodontist. Then I take a trip down memory lane and go back to school for a bit. I'll check in on the journalism class and give thanks that i am there somewhat of my own accord and not because i have to be. now that i've been out of school, i see absolutely no reason in attending a 2 hour ceremony telling me that i am no longer in high school. i mean, come on. just mail me my diploma...and maybe just send me some of those tasty finger foods available at the reception. 5/31/02 Well, I'm back from Bermuda (tan!) and from Trey's house (sad, he'll be gone all summer), and I'm completely exhausted. Today and maybe tomorrow I'll just sleep. Sunday is venture out into the world day. I've been writing in my new journal recently, which is nice. Haven't had the time or patience to sit down and write in a while. I'll be heading over to South Carolina for orientation and placement testing on the 5th. sucky sucky. Wish I didn't have to do that. I ate a LOT when I got home, which was nice. See that picture of the water up there at the top of the page? Pegasus, my school's annual literary magazine, accepted it. It's on pafe...um...48! I didn't submit any poetry, which is unusual for me. But I just haven't written anything lately. God I'm glad to be done with high school. 6/8/02 "moo moo...hee haw...cluck cluck...F*** F***!" Yes, ladies and gentlemen, that's the subject line of an email I got in my junk mail folder this afternoon. Has anyone else noticed a TON of spam mail lately? It seems the more i unsubscribe from these lists i seem to be on, the more mail i get about free printer cartridges or porn or losing weight or whatever. ANyway. Had my physical yesterday and did NOT pass out when the doctor pricked my finger. weeee! went shopping for dorm stuff today, and my mission will continue tommorrow. yay, i love doing nerdy things like that. i'd like some ice cream right now. mmmm ice cream... 6/21/02 After running over a mile this morning (shut up, I know it's not a lot...I just started running two days ago after a long period of NOTHING) and taking a blissfully cold shower, I felt great....that is until i threw up and proceeded to feel weak, nauseated, tired, and, generally speaking, like crap. But i'm sucking it up and going to see minority report tonite, even though my body is begging me to get back in bed. Shut up body. What do you know? 6/25/02 It's FINALLY raining. well, kind of. It rained a lot earlier. Anyway, point is, we needed the rain. And I'm leaving for michigan soon, so my life will take on a really weird and wonderful new tone. 6/26/02 I've been incredibly and thoroughly bored out of my mind. Hence, I finished reading my Edna St. Vincent Millay biography (started it in november but put it down for about 3 or 4 months). Tomorrow I'm getting my hair cut and probably doing a little shopping. Actually slept somewhat well last night. Watched Dirty Dancing today! Love that movie. Whenever I start to gear up for Sequanota, I get a hankering to watch that movie. I got some clothes together that I'm taking up north. Probably won't pack till the night before. Jessica leaves for Illinois tomorrow. I think I'll call her now. 7/30/02 I'm back from one of the best Michigan trips ever. This summer was awesome, and many things happened that I didn't foresee. Good things, though. Er, a couple of bad things too, and weird things. But mostly good. I kind of resent being home, just because home sucks. and Sequanota doesn't suck. I really would love to work in the kitchen up there next summer. Just so I could be there longer. Otherwise, since my family has the cottage in August, I'd only be able to stay there for a week and a half about. Anyway, yeah, I'm in total Sequanota mode, which does not exactly motivate me to be social at home quite yet. And I was not a Dave Matthews fan until this summer. Ok i know i know, booo hiss. but some of their stuff is really good. and now their music is, for me, inextricably connected with Sequanota. It's just the way it is, I went to the Weezer show here in Atlanta last night, and they kicked serious ass. I've never seen them live before. woooooo yeah! =w= forever, baby. 8/4/02 Where is August going? Man, sleeping takes up a lot of time, but I had no idea it was already the 4th. Anyhoo, On friday I got my tetnis and meningitis shots. I seriously thought I was going to cry while I waited. Needles terrify me. Actually getting a shot is even worse. Thankfully the actual shot didn't hurt, but both arms felt like they'd been pummeled for quite some time afterwards. That night we went and saw Cracker and Better Than Ezra at downtown rocks. And MAN were they both awesome!! BTE always amazes me, no matter how many times I see them live. I truly love love love their music. It started to pour during their set, which only made it more fun. This weird guy was hitting on me, trying to start conversations by asking me about my multiple bandaids (which i had because of my shots), but once he saw I wasn't going to talk to him, he left me alone. I was by myself in that huge crowd, as katie and cory had left and jessica and clay were over to the side. and i think i actually had a better time being by myself. i'm discovering this for the millionth time, you know. being by yourself can be quite wonderful. Jessica and I are going shopping at Perimeter tomorrow. Watch out Sephora, here we come!! Oh, by the way. As I'm rapidly running out of space for this website, all the pictures from Michigan 2002 will not be put up here. IM me or email me if you'd like to see them. I also deleted the astrology page because it was stupid and I'm trying to cut down on stupid stuff to save space. Heck, once i'm actually at college, i'll probably scrap this whole site completely anyway. 8/11/02 oh GOD the Goldfinger show was amazing friday nite!! 'cept for the part where i lost my thumb ring. If you were there and you have my thumb ring, i'd like it back please! Anyway yeah I went up onstage with the rest of the audience and it rocked and i got a tshirt and the band signed it!!! weee and I'm in love with the guitar player he's so cute and little and un-tattood so he stands out and the crowd was really small and my ears are still ringing even tho it's two days later and there's no chance they'll come to columbia and that makes me sad but jump little children is playing all over south carolina and that makes me happy and i'm WEARING my autographed tshirt right now and i'm never gonna wash it and i've been packing like mad and i'm worried i'll leave stuff behind that i wanted to bring and i miss my michigan friends and i'll miss my friends from home like crazy but i know we'll all do really well being away from home and away from parents even if we miss them too. how's THAT for a sentence? 9/19/02 Here I am in the hallowed halls of college. Well, technically, I'm in my freezing cold dorm room singing along at the top of my lungs to Etta James. I had the first test of my college career this morning in Psych 101. NO MORE 8AM CLASSES FOR CAROLINE!!! i have learned my lesson well. Hm, there's so much to tell, but i need to keep this brief. In typical caroline fashion, I'm updating this website instead of studying. I'm also downloading music like a fiend. I've been to a few concerts, mainly of bands I'd never heard of before. Denali and Superdrag were especially good. But Jump Little Children, of course, topped them both. I've never NOT had an absolute blast at one of their shows. I love my roommate, I love the girls on my floor (the BABs), and my boys on the 9th floor. As of two days ago, I've been here a month. I'm going home tomorrow for the first time to see my high school's homecoming game and run around with my friends, whom I miss like crazy. I can't wait to do the following: see my friends, see my parents, see my dogs, drive my car, see MY CITY (and buildings that are taller than parking garages), take a shower without shoes on, take a nice long bubble bath, sleep in my big bed, get a pedicure, get my spine readjusted at the chiropractor, buy lots of food to bring back to the dorm, hug everyone and everything in sight. I LOVE anthropology. People who want to know what i believe in...I believe in anthropology! evolution! I also love my art history class. Stats sucks big time, and so does psychology. I should have take sociology instead. University 101 is a joke. Waste of time. Went to the USC-UGA game this past saturday. we lost, like I knew we would, but I still had a great time. I love being surrounded by so many people, i love the diversity here, i love my new friends. This place may be 100 times hotter and more humid than Atlanta, Columbia may be small beans compared to my hometown, but I still like it here. Every once and a while I think about transferring to UGA, as Athens is a great town and my uncle and brother would love me for it, but I do NOT take for granted how lucky i am with my roommate, my dorm, my friends, whatever. I'd be worried I'd never have it so good again. Everyone I've met here is already important to me. Hey, download Coldplay's "The Scientist." It's a really good song. I haven't had enough to time to write in my journal, which makes me sad. I always have so much to write, but there's always something else to do. Like sit here staring at the monitor, for instance. Speaking of stats, I really need to study for my test that's at 2 this afternoon. Then I'm done for the day! DONE!!! God, I love anthropology. 9/24/02 You gotta love these southern boys... 9/29/02 Telephone conversation I had with my mother recently: Mom: Sooo.....are you going out with...people? Me: People or boys? Mom: Well are you going out on...dates and things? Me: Mom you know I don't want a serious relationship right now. Mom: Yeah, I know I know....what about groups? Me: Am I going out in groups? Yes, I'm going out in groups. Mom: Yes groups...oh good. Me: Yes mom, I have friends, don't worry, I'm not a loser. I didn't think you were supposed to have conversations like this until you turned 30. 10/7/02 One would think it would NOT be a million degrees and humid outside in OCTOBER. But alas, that perception is incorrect here in good ol' South Carolina. On a much more wonderfully happy note, I'm going home this weekend to see Jump Little Children at the Variety Playhouse!!!!! YAAAAY!!!!! And I'm going to goodwill if it kills me. I finally got that package from my parents that included, but is not limited to, Seattle's rainy day hot chocolate, shampoo, a tiny dreamcatcher that supposedly induces good health, zinc tablets, hangers, and magazines. I feel like the luckiest gal on the planet. But the idea of taking zinc tablets scares me. Mister Chiropractor said it would help me stop getting all these friggin colds tho. You know what? Blind Melon's "No Rain" makes everything all good. 10/8/02 You know what else makes everything all good? Talking to Drew "stop or you'll make me blush" Pizzini. 10/10/02 Today may not be an early 90's day in the traditional sense, but it's close enough! I dub this the first early 90's day of the season and shall listen to music from that time. Empire Records Soundtrack, here I come! I can't wait to go home tomorrow, where it will be perfect weather for this! |
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