Hypocrites and Society
August 14, 2002

Why are people that are in a position of power always hypocrites and greedy people? Well, this may not necessarily be true because I don't know many people in a powerful position. Therefore, I'm not exactly sure how accurate I am on this subject. However, I see people promise stuff and no changes being made. And those in power that I know mostly shouldn't be. (There are some exceptions) But I've found that this world is so corrupted. If I think of it enough I get nauseous.. really nauseous. I thank God that I have another world to look forward to because I'm not seeing a lot of good stuff in this one. Sure I see how God made everything so gorgeous, and how He made people... which is unfathomable! But then I look at society and how we are.. oh it's sickening. It makes me want to cry and wonder at the same time. To think God made us. And what are we? What have we done to repay Him? Nothing. Well some people have, but as a whole the human race is really quiet shameful and full of disappointments. ::sighs:: Oh how I wish for that child like innocence. How I wish for the times when, if you saw someone walking on the side of the road, you could pull over and pick them up without fear of being shot to death. How I wish for the times when the radio was edited and guys were gentlemen. And girls did not dress as sluts. What kind of world will we leave for our children? Well, anyway back to my talk of hypocrites. Hypocrites... they anger me. To say one thing and then do the opposite, what kind of trust does that leave for others? Who will trust you then or believe u? That's something I NEVER EVER EVER want to be. Like our gvt. says they're gonna help schools and education, but so far I haven't seen an approvement. If our education becomes run down then who will become the next leaders of our country? Uneducated people who do not know what they're doing. Then they will promise things they cannot deliver, and we will have hypocrites. But it seems to me we already have hypocrites in our gvt since nothing is being done about education so what's the point? It will be extremely hard to get rid of them if it can be done at all. Plus, the majority of people will be uneducated and they elect the people that run the gvt. How will uneducated people pick the right representatives? Because of their ignorance, they will pick the ones that promise things that cannot be delivered. The circle will begin again.

It's amazing how these people can be manipulated by others with "deep pockets". It's hard for me to realize how money can be so important in these people's lives. I don't understand it. There are things so much better than money. Wow, there are things soooo much better than money... Haha just another thing that makes me sick. For instance, at our school about half of my class was caught cheating on a test. It was a major ordeal. They had extremely harsh punishments for our school regarding cheating and amazinglg the punishments were lowered for these people. I heard that some people in high positions got a little persuasion from some parents with "deep pockets". (Now I heard this from a reliable source, an adult source, but I can't tell you that it is totally accurate. I will go ahead and say that the whole "bribe" thing may be false, and I don't really know. However, I believe that the adult who told me was telling the truth. And even if it is false, the whole thing is still disgusting because it is done). The whole ordeal made me sick and still does. How could these people do such a thing? For one it just so upsets me that about half of my grade was convicted for cheating. It so made me want to run and hide. When people asked me what school I went to and I told them, for a while there they said oh the one with all the cheaters... is that true? And I would hang my head and say yes. And they would ask if i was involved in it, and I would answer strongly no. And the SICKEST part of it was that the convicted people would run down the halls laughing and in class would shout if you're suspended raise your hand. And they all would and laugh and give each other high fives. And during their suspension, they went to the movies and the mall and other stuff like that. Where were the parents? What kind of parents are these? Is there no justice? And what kind of high school director do we have that does this? The teacher that administered the test left over this matter. I don't blame her and unfortunately that was one of the best teachers I've ever had. What a loss to my school, but I'm proud of her. I would have left too, but I'm glad she taught me before she left. And now I'm ashamed of the people in my grade... not all but most. In the halls they are swearing and being all popular and carrying on.. it's a sad sight to see the world going to hell. I'm glad there are a few that aren't like that. Thank you Lord for them.

I believe I now look upon the world like a person holding a snow globe. I'm on the outside looking in. I'm looking at all that's in the world and seeing it without being in it. I remember being in the globe and how innocent I was, and how I played along. How I was just a clone, carved like the rest of them in that typical village. I'm glad I'm outside now, and I wish I could bring other people outside to help me hold the snow globe. It's a hard thing to hold alone. Except instead of having a beautiful snowglobe, one of a dream world, my snow globe is broken on the inside and shines no more. I'm very disappointed in my snowglobe. And it's amazing to me that God sees the snow globe as well, and He loves it. He loves it with all He has. When I look at it, I am ashamed, hurt and upset. And I'm amazed that He loves that shattered snow globe. Wow. I guess that's why He's God (Talk about the understatement of the century). I hope one day I can love the snow globe even though it is broken. I guess that's another thing to work on.

Another thing that gets me down is when I go to church on Sundays, I see all of these people praising God. We have moments together.. oh wow moments that are so moving. We pray together and do the church activities together. And then at school I see them swearing and doing things that God would frown on and go what? I thought that these people were Christians and so they claim to be-- when they're not at school. I can ramble off many names, but names are not important. One guy in particular went to a Christian concert with his church band. He sang along and seemed so enthusiastic, and yet I watched him and wondered about all the things I'd heard he'd done at school. And it's not just gossip. He's admitted to it and laughs and jokes about some of the things that he's done. And I'm just like how could u? You're either a Christian and an advocate for God or you're not at all. It's cut and dry. I have two verses from the Bible, but forgive me because I don't remember them exactly. I'll have paraphrase.

1. Salt water and fresh water cannot come from the same mouth (So you can't be both good and bad becausec if you have some salt in the water, the water is automatically salty)

2. God would rather you be all cold or all hot than lukewarm for He will spit you out of His mouth.(So God would rather you be all bad then part good and part bad)

Well, I have to run. I'll talk to you later. Goodnight and sweet dreams.

Love,
Lemme