Fun, Withdrawl and Strength
August 9, 2002

Lemme tell you a little about my day, and boy was it interesting! Sara and I went to the mall. And these guys that we know from Wed. stopped us again. (They followed Sara, Ellison and I on Wed. and they stopped us to talk to us. At one point there were at least like 10 of them! Some were kinda freaky and not too friendly though... but whatever). We went to the mall to shop and to visit Dan (Sara and Molly's friend--he's pretty cool) but we were stopped by them. They were telling us about all these gang fights, and what the deal was with the cults and stuff. lol Sara and I were so confused. It was really funny. They weren't in the gangs themselves, but they knew of them. There was supposed to be a "brawl" tonight at the mall between these two cults: The Gumps and a cult of Chinese people. I have no clue what happened or if it happened. Oh well. I'm not gonna get involved. It's stupid to get involved.

Then after that Sara and I went to this party for an exchange student from Denmark. Haha they had wine out, and I was so tempted to go get some. I'm not a big fan of wine, but in Italy I tried to drink some to get used to it and enjoy the culture. Then I remembered... oh yeah... 21... And I was so ready to talk to her about Europe, but she hadn't really been where we had gone. Oh well. She seems really nice! I hope she transfers to our school. Right now she's going to a different one but we're hoping she'll change.

Man I miss it... Europe. I never knew I liked it so much until now that I'm gone. I miss everyone sooo much and I miss the places. I miss the funny way Nick (our tourguide) talks and how sexxy it sounds haha. I miss Tony with all of his piercings even though they were kind of gross (the way he shot water out of his chin lol). And the way he'd pick up Carrie and mess with her, and we'd all whisper there was something between them. I miss Seth, and how he smelled sooo good that I just wanted to bite him lol. (::Sighs:: CURVE SMELLS SO GOOD!!!) How he's a big dumb blonde haha, and he was really really cute :0) And how we didn't wanna say goodbye the last night and so we (me, lauren and seth) stayed up until 3 all crammed on one bed about to fall asleep (don't worry we weren't in the covers or anything!). And how Micah messed with his hackey sack all the time, but he was really good at it. I was shocked every time I watched him mess with it. Haha I've bought one, and I still can't hit it. Oh well... He was a really good Christian too. And how we all played hackey sack and the funky moves we pulled trying to play. Carrie with her weird crotch stalls, me with the boob stalls and Lauren with her hat stalls. I really really miss it-- a lot. I miss how I got to know Philip, Wynn, Hans and John Michael. They were really cool. I never would have known them otherwise since they're older than me. And the Princeton girls (but we stay in touch... they were fun.) I esp. like Eva! We're talking now. She's sooooo AWESOME! :0) I loved the way John Michael would sit down and then jump up and offer his seat to any lady standing. It made me feel really proud, and I had a lot of respect for him (he's really cute too) and he didn't do pot. I liked how Wynn tried to convince me that pot should be legalized in the US even though I was like umm? He talked to me for something like 3 hours about it, telling me all these statistics and studies. And it was fun to listen to Philip at the table because he was so funny to hear. He was also very kind to Mrs. Graham (She didn't like me too much! Oh well..)I never really got to know Hans, but he liked to drink. And at dinner he'd be say uh oh the wine's out again and look up at us. And he got sooooooooo mad when he dropped his napkin. It was hilarious... And and and they're soo many memories! All of us singing at dinner.. belting it out! (haha Philip) and Allie getting SOOOOOOOO upset when the elevator wouldn't go to our floor.. wow what times. man i miss it sooo much. i miss it soo much that i like have this horrible pit in my stomach. maybe i'm stupid i don't know. i just.. had so many opportunities. i'm so lucky i got to go on this trip.

I do have to say this... the trip really tested my strength as a Christian. They were all drinking and smoking and swearing and it was horrible. I had to make some choices that left me alone.. with no one by me. But I think I made the right ones, and I think God is smiling down on me from heaven. And I think it's made me A LOT STRONGER. I think now i can face anything. It doesn't matter what my friends do around me.. I've made up my mind and i'm sticking to it! THANK YOU GOD!! :0)And my parents really trust me now. They know what went on, and I told them that I wasn't associated with it. They trust me. My mom really smiles at me now, and it makes me feel good. Well, I better go... off to take in the world facing it right in the face!

Love,
Lemme