| Chapter 6: After Kevin left, Luke stood at the window looking out at the city. His mind was racing a mile a minute and it wouldn�t slow down for anything. Kevin�s words hit too close to home. Right now, Luke was fighting the memories of his childhood, but this time Lucky was in his place and Luke was his father. �How could I do it?� Luke asked himself. �How could I get so wasted that I hurt my own son?� Luke didn�t know and that bothered him. What made him snap? Kevin's questions triggered something but now Luke�s mind refused to work. He knew the answers to all his questions were in the past, but the problem was that his mind was so messed up right now that nothing work. Luke realized he was forced to take this slow and wait until his mind cleared up for him to figure out what had set him off. Luke lay down on the bed and thought about Lucky, Laura, and all that had happened in the last few months. A picture of Laura and Lu walking onto that fatal airplane hit him and tears started to fall. Real tears for the first time in months. Now without a way to numb the pain, Luke was forced to face his wife's death head on. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ On Spoon Island, Lucky sat high above everything, hidden from view. His room was getting too crowded for him even though it was half-empty. Strangely, that is how Lucky felt inside, but even that room was starting to get to him and so, Lucky was hiding on the ledge of the house watching ships come and go in the harbor. Ever since the day Lucky woke up in the hospital, Lucky had laid in bed trying to figure out what Luke was looking for. It wasn�t until after Kevin left that Lucky suddenly remembered Laura�s journals. Lucky had found them under his father�s bed and had taken them. Lucky wanted something that was his mother's and he figured Luke was so gone that he wouldn�t miss one. He did and now Lucky knew why. Lucky had just finished reading her thoughts and feelings and now everything was clear. Luke must have read it too, but instead of going after the person that took his mother from them, Luke got drunk and never sobered up. Lucky opened up to the last page and re-read the words again just before all the light disappeared on him. I don�t want to leave but I have no choice. I know that Stefan will tell Luke and that would be the end of our marriage. My lies about Nikolas did enough damage and now if Luke found out about me and Stefan it would be over. Luke might end up killing me and Stefan out of rage. I couldn�t blame him. How could I have fallen for that creep? He is just as bad as his brother, but much slicker. Stavros hated me and told me daily why he was doing it, but Stefan said he loved me and that he cared about me. How messed up was I then? I bought his lies and I thought that he really cared. Now my son is lost to me forever and I�m leaving the only man that I ever truly loved. I would rather have Luke and Lucky safe and apart from me then face life with their hate. This is the last page of this book and my new life will be filled in the one that I just packed. I hope that things work out and that I will finally be free of the Cassadines, but I doubt it. I will always wake up with the fear that the truth will come out. When will I have the guts to face my lies? When I have nothing left to loose? When I realize that having Luke with the lies isn�t worth it? Or when I don�t need my children any more? I don�t think that is going to happen, but you never know what life has in store for you. Lucky closed the book just as the last of the sun vanished from view over his shoulder. �No, you don�t.� Lucky thought coldly. She got on that plane because of him? Because Stefan forced her and now his mother, sister, and grandmother are dead? The hate inside Lucky started to slowly build up. He had to get even. He had to make Stefan pay for his crimes. Lucky was sick of the Cassadines and the pain they caused. He wanted them to suffer for a while and know what it was like to hurt and lose the peopled they loved. �What does Stefan love?� Lucky wondered. �Money? Power? Or is there something else? Maybe he loves Bobbie, Alexis, and Nikolas.� Lucky knew he couldn�t hurt his own Aunt and no matter how much he hated the Cassadines, Alexis was one of the nicer ones. So, maybe just loosing their trust would be enough... He had to find a way to do it, but then what? No, he need a plan and he needed to do this slowly. Stefan had spent years destroying his life and Lucky was going pay him back. �Stefan is going to find out that I am more like my father then he thinks.� Lucky finally got down from his hiding place and hid the book just inside a loose stone under the roof. He then went back to his room to take Foster for his nightly walk. The night air might help the plan Lucky was forming come clear and take shape. Early the next day, Kevin sat at his desk thinking about Lucky and Luke when Lucy walked in all excited about something, but at the moment Kevin missed it. He was looking past her and staring out at the window watching some birds play in the birdbath. �Kevin? Kevin?� Lucy said several times trying to get his attention. �Huh?� Kevin asked in a detached voice. �You say something, Lucy?� Kevin looked at her but he was still having trouble seeing her. His mind was still working on the problem of the moment. �Yeah I did, but you are somewhere else.� Lucy said in frustration as she sat down in the chair across from his desk. �What�s wrong?� �I can�t talk about it much, but it is has to do with Lucky and Luke. I think their problem is more then just what we know on the surface, but they are good at hiding this. At least Luke is. I�m just trying to figure out how to get Luke to open up to me,� Kevin told her. �Ask Ruby. She knows him better then anyone and I think she is the only person that he really listens to sometimes,� Lucy suggested. �Why didn�t I think of that?� Kevin asked, suddenly getting up from his chair and putting on his coat. �Because you are as smart and beautiful as me,� Lucy said smugly and headed out of the room ahead of him. Kevin laughed at that, but didn�t argue with her. Lucy was smart and beautiful. The problem was that she sometimes didn�t know the word �Stop� or �Quit�. She went too far and that got her into a lot of trouble sometimes. Kevin arrived at Kelly�s during the morning rush, so he had to sit around until things calmed down before Ruby got a chance to talk to him. �What can I get you?� Ruby asked after the place was finally empty enough for a real conversation. �I�m fine with the coffee. I came to talk to you about Luke. I normally don�t do this but he is so protective of his past. I need a little help. I need to know more about him. Can you enlighten me?� Kevin asked her hoping she wouldn�t pour the hot pot of coffee all over him. Ruby pointed to the kitchen and Kevin went after her. �What do you know?� Ruby asked as she started to clean up. �Nothing much. I mentioned something about his childhood and Luke got really cold on me. What is he hiding?� Kevin asked. �Kevin, Luke was beaten as child. � Ruby said, turning around and facing the doctor with a very sad face. �I made him promise that he would never hurt one of his own kids, but he did. I don�t know why, but that is up to you to find out. I will tell you that Luke�s father was a loving man most of the time. It was when he got drunk that he was a problem. By the time Luke was five, his father was drinking all of the time and not one day went by that he didn�t lay into Luke. Bobbie was too young and thankfully, she wasn't hurt as much. Luke wasn't as lucky and those early years shaped his life. I might be a little more forgiving because of it when it comes to Luke, because I still know that young boy and miss him greatly.� �Now I see. I at least have some idea of what lies ahead of me. I want to thank you and I promise that I�ll do my best to help find away to make things better,� Kevin said and he started out of the kitchen. �I do have one favor to ask.� Ruby said before Kevin got to the door. �What?� Kevin asked as he quickly turned around. �Tell him that I love him and that I�m not mad.� �Sure, and if you want to write Luke, you can. I�ll make sure he gets the letters.� �I�ll do that and thanks.� Ruby said and then went back to work cleaning up the kitchen before the next rush started. She thought about Luke and Lucky and prayed that Kevin could help. She felt guilty for letting them down at the time they needed her the most. She also knew that no one pointed a gun at Luke and forced him to drink like he did. She did wonder, thought, what got him started to be so bad. She had never known him to drink unless something was so bad that he just couldn�t face it or didn't want to face it. Ruby wondered if it was more then just Laura and Lu�s death. She knew that he took it hard, but it looked like he was keeping it together. At least he did the times she had seen him. Chapter 7 Back to Monster Within |