| Chapter 10: Alexis watched as Stefan walked around the house doing what his mother's men ordered. She wanted to yell and scream at them but what good would it do? Get them hurt or worse yet, Nikolas killed. Helena�s yacht had just docked on the landing her staff was moving the belongings in. Helena walked in with Nikolas, who looked at first glance to be all right. Helena had ordered that the little agreement between Stefan and her be kept quiet. Nikolas would not know a thing about it. Stefan was forced to except this or risk Nikolas getting hurt. �Well, this needs a little work,� Helena said coldly as the two of them walked into the living area. �Ari, my bags to my room and make sure that Nikolas' room is right next to mine. I want to be close to my grandson.� She ordered in a sweet, loving voice. �Can I go to Sheba?� Nikolas asked. Wanting to get as far away from his uncle as possible. The blood test he had taken proved that Stefan was lying and he felt betrayed. His grandmother said that she was in charge of things now and not to worry. He wouldn�t have to deal with Stefan at all if he didn�t want to. �Of course and have someone stable up a horse for me. I will join you shortly,� Helena said giving Nikolas a kiss on the cheek and the boy soon took off. Helena waited until she was sure he was out of ear shot before speaking. �You did good.� She said coldly. �I see you are still able to take orders.� �I want to talk to him,� Stefan asked. �No. He thinks all you said was a lie. He hates you more then he ever hated me. I said that you are around because I need someone to teach me the ropes. If you get out of line, I will have you shipped back to Greece. Is that clear.� Helena said coldly as she walked around the room. �Yes, mother. I get your message really clear.� Stefan said, not hiding his hate for her. �Watch it Stefan. You are here only because of my generosity. You could end up back in Greece within the hour.� Helena warned and then she was gone. Alexis walked up to Stefan and placed a warm hand on his shoulder. She could feel the tension within him. �It�s ok. We�ll beat her.� Alexis whispered. �How?� Stefan asked. �I don�t know but we have to because we are dead otherwise.� she said. �As soon as she can get away with it, we are dead. I wouldn�t even make it back to Greece.� Stefan muttered. �If she does get on a plane, grab Nikolas and run. I don�t care how you do it just do it.� Stefan ordered. �I will but don�t worry. We will think of something.� Alexis said and she had on one of child hood game faces. Stefan smiled at this and relaxed a little then. He knew she was right. He beat his mother before he will do it again. Kevin walked into Luke�s room and found him exactly where he had been ever since he started coming to see him. �You must like that window?� Kevin said as he sat down in the chair beside the window. �It is the only view I have. I�m not allowed to go out,� Luke said coldly. �Oh, one of those moods.� Kevin muttered as he placed the recorder on the table. �Yeah, I�m in that kind of mood. So, how about we call it a day?� �No, we are going to talk whether you like it or not,� Kevin said. �You take a hint. I don�t want to talk to you. I don�t want to be here,� Luke said his voice getting louder. He really couldn't� help it. After a full mouth of this place, he was about to go nuts. �You can leave. No one is keeping you here but remember once out that door. You can never see Lucky again. I don�t think you are willing to risk that because you still here. So, how about showing the judge that you are willing to go a little further and talk?� Kevin pleaded. He was about to loose all hope to ever finding out what bothered Luke. He and Lucky were going along fine, but Luke hadn�t moved an inch since they began. Luke turned around from the window and looked at Kevin with a cold, empty look. �Why talk? It isn�t going to change what I did? I hit my son and that should between us, but people like you put your nose in it where it don�t belong.� �Luke, you might know this but we are doing this for both of you. You didn�t just hit Lucky, you broke his jaw. You had his blood on your hands and what is worse; you were drunk to the point that you could have died. I still don�t know how you survived it. Medically, you should be dead.� Kevin told him. �How is he?� Luke asked, his tone of voice changing. The thought of Lucky�s blood on his hands turned his stomach. �He is getting better. Bobbie is settled in a new home and Lucky is even trying to study again. If he passes the test in the fall, the school will let him pass to his next level. They are doing that because of what Lucky lived through.� �Good, Laura always put a lot of stock in his schooling,� Luke said and he turned back around. �Damn it, Spencer. Talk to me. I�m the key to get you to your son.� Kevin yelled he had lost his cool with Luke and was about ready to give up and let someone else try. �Why does he love me?� Luke said. This got to Kevin, because this was the first time he noticed that Luke was crying. Kevin then thought about all the times he came to talk to Luke. He turned his back when things got tough because he was hiding his tears from him. �You're his father.� Kevin said finally. �That isn�t a reason. I hated mine. I hated to look at him. I hated to talk to him and day in and day out, I wanted him dead. I never got it. He killed her first then he walked out on us. You know what my loving father said as he walked out that door. �You're on your own kid.� and then he was gone. Why doesn�t my kid hate me?� �Because, he remembers the good times and wants the old Luke back. He lost his mother, sister and grandmother. I don�t think he could survive loosing you.� Kevin saw a little door slow open in Luke and hoped he could get it to open more before Luke slammed it shut on him again. �Damn it. Why did I get drunk? Why did I let her words get to me? Why in hell didn�t she tell me? I would have left. I loved too so much. She was my world and now I don�t know what to do.� Luke�s heart was ripped apart and he was loosing all control over his emotions and that was one thing he didn�t want to do at least not with Kevin around. �You told me that you got drunk because of memories. How did those memories start?� Kevin asked. �The day I first met her. Do you know that I was trying to get her to go to Juvy. I messed with Baldwin's car to keep her past her curfew. I was doing it for my little sister and I soon fell in love with her or was it lust? I never knew the difference at least not until Laura. I had lost of women. I either paid for them or they were around for a few weeks. I don�t think I'd ever have someone for more than a month. It has been too long to remember. She was different and I knew it.� �How did things change between you?� �Oh, I raped her one night. On the floor of the disco because I got drunk,� Luke didn�t say this with ease but full hate in his voice and it was all aimed at himself. Kevin looked at Luke to see if it was a joke but then he soon realized it wasn�t. �She forgave you?� Kevin asked trying to find his voice. �Not at first. She hung around after words but hardly talked. I was on the verge of marrying Jennifer when Scotty found out. He hit me and saved me from hell. He should have stayed away and I would have gotten everything I disserved.� �What did happen?� �Laura pulled me out of the water and we brought down Frank that summer. All that summer, she was an arm's length way from me. We danced and kissed a little but nothing else. She even put a blanket up between us and I got the couch or what that was.� He could sometimes still feel that couch at night even after all this time. It was the one thing his back would never forgive him for putting it through. �You mean. You didn�t do anything but be together?� Kevin asked. �No, she wanted to come to me after she was over the rape. She didn�t want that between us. I went along with it. She was the first woman that I was around and didn�t do more then hold hands with.� �She showed you what love really was. Luke, love is more than sex. It is more then going to bed. It is a feeling that some people never feel or to the lucky ones they get once. Laura gave you the best gift in the world. She gave you love. So, why hate it?� Kevin understood more about Luke and Laura then anyone outside them ever did and realized how deep their love went. �Look at how it started� Luke said, still not seeing the real picture. �So, what? If you hated how it started then you hate the gift she gave you. It was done to her. She found the will to go on. Why not you?� �I don�t know. I never forgave myself for that night. All these years after that night and I still feel like I should have been punished for it.� �Did you ever say you were sorry?� �Never say, I�m sorry.� �Why not?� Kevin asked wondering what was wrong with a little words as I�m sorry that could mean so much when it was meant. �Because that is a cop out. My father said it in the mornings and beat me at night. It is only a word.� Luke said with cold ice in his voice. �Only, if you don�t mean it. I know some people say I�m sorry just out of habit and others like you never say it. I think if you really mean it then it is worth saying. Laura forgave you and you had great years together. You think her forgiveness was misgiving?� �I don�t know. If I say yes, I hate all that we had and that includes Lucky. If I say, no then what happens to fact that I hurt her?� Luke asked. �Luke, what would be punishment for you? Beaten to pulp? Locked for life? All of these would have done nothing to help either of you. Laura needed to forgive you because of reason she only knew and as for you, I think you are a better person now because of it. Laura was the first one outside your family that showed any love. I think that helped you out more then anything else could,� Kevin said getting up finally from his chair and joined Luke at the window. �You think so?� Luke asked looking at the doctor. �Yeah, look at the kid you got. I think Lucky is worth her forgiveness.� Kevin said. �You're right about that. He did make all of it worthwhile.� Luke said with a smile on his face as the thought about the day he watched Lucky being born. �You feel better?� Kevin asked. �A little and not so guilty about it.� Luke said. �I don�t think I could ever erase all your guilt, but I�m glad that you got rid of some of it,� Kevin said grabbing the recorder and turning it off. �I think we will stop here and please, let's not go a full mouth before you talk again,� Kevin begged. �Ok. I�ll be good and talk. You just keep feeding me information on my kid. I�m worried about him,� Luke admitted. �He is okay, He is being loved and taken care of until you can do it.� Kevin said and then he walked out of the room and headed to make notes on Luke�s chart about the session. There were some things that he was going to keep out of it because it would hurt Luke�s chances to get Lucky back if it was know. Kevin figured it was the least he could do for Lucky, Luke and especially Laura. 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