I havent written in ages. So much things have been happening, but i think the most recent thing that has happened is hard to explain. I dont know if i should smile or cry. I just want to say to penny how i am sorry. and that Yes my intentions were good because i never believed u could commit because i always found you as the type as everyone thought. So hopefully you prove me wrong. and i guess if this cost our friendship or whatever we had then i guess it was meant to be. Its hard to except the fact that you can be sumbodys friend but to them you are just someone they know. I hope everything works out with you. have you ever felt that the people you thought were your friends, then sumhow they stabbed you in the back. Then everything you knowand thought to believe wasnt really real. well i'm listening to the song big yellow taxi.. and i'm crying cuz i'm so sad that i just dont know what to do. so i'm talking to mark thank god he cant see me crying even though he thinks sumthng is wrong.. sniff.. well thats it.
at candices house.. i'm gonna get introuble when i come home probably have to do a million chores. I still have so much hw arrgh and i really wanted to updated my site. okay i'm getting introuble cuz like i was only suppose to sleep over 1 day but 2 and yea. dude i feel so fat, the farenbaughs feed u sooo much ahahhaha.. did u know cnadice weight 120. laughs she said it was cuz of muscles then she says my thys so jiggley ahh okay i will sooo try to excerise when i can. its gonna kill me to walk or jog. yea i havent write so much here okay lets see what has been happening. HA i was soo write penny is so not the commitment type. please the day i even see that is the day that theirs such thing as heaven. oh and me andmark well i dont think everything is going okay but i just act like it is because i dont know like i dont feel like he can give me the time hes always busy and so yea. andres & vicky dont know how you do it but yea. dude candice i cant believe u would say that in the notebook that i would pretend to be sad and shit to get attention geez candice what do i have to do kill myself to show you. u act like i'm only pretending but i'm not and your family isnt as bad geez think about mine like no one even cares. we have no dinner time geez i can do drugs and shit and no one would know. WHy u think i spend so much time with your family. okay i cant remember everything your said so yea. okay well anyways i'm not feeling that sad okay i guess but still sad and geez u dont know how i feel and u think i have mark and u have nothing please okay i dont even know if i like him like i do but arrgh i dont know. you know. okay i'm updating things with like admire, comic, music, and picture page. hahhahahahaha.. oh yea i've been talking to candice admirer travis who like totally adores her 24/7 so yea. so far hes like an asshole/nice guy but i bet you hes only friends with me because i'm her best friend. sigh but hey u wouldnt understand would u. omg and dont start about death and how you want to kill someone that was like ages for me now i think the best way to hurt sumone is like to kill yourself because if you kill someone u have to live with the guilt but they if you kill yourself u die and plus people will have to suffer. so yea. okay well people i updated this site and its preti suckie i dont even know who reads this. OKAY tom. big news i will try jogging every single day till june. and unless i'm nover sumones house and yea i'll jog for an hour or 30 mins. hahah get fit and i'll try to do like 30 sits up/crunch up. yea thats a big major thing for me cuz we all know grace do not excerise hahaha. and this relationship with mark well i'll try to work it out sumhow and hope it works out but i doubt it .. la well okay.
ahhhh okay first thing first i went on my first jog it was suppose to be starting on monday but hey i actually started. what motivated me to go was after watching this movie call AI sumthing i cried through that movie it was sooo sad but yea. than i felt so stuffy at home and home didnt feel like home so i decided to take sum freash air it was a 24 min jog and although it wasnt as long as i have except next time will be long. haa first we have to past to the house with the big tree.. than we past to the three house i like than we go up this hill and keep going stratight and just loook at the houses till we see this one re modled i still can remember and we pass that till we see the house with the little small house as a kid i use to think if i had that house i would live ther than we past my favorite house i call the doll house its like that old antique homes with a grape or wine yard or sumkind of fruits and it has this other house oh its soo beuatiful cant beleive its on sale i barley see it but yea thna we go down see more house turn wlak to the allley and go home. TA DA. yea i want to be like jared from subway .. need tooo get fit i got 2 months well less but ha yea. my relationships eems to be going down cuz its all my fault.. i'm just weird i dont know. ahh have a head achhh... arrghhhh and have motivation to do hw.today so weird feeling good yet still sad.
I"M VERRRYYYY VERRRYYY ANGRY not only am i having the worst day but also AGHRGH@!()#*@()*$()@&()$@&*$&*@U$*@(* i hope u die jessica i hope u die so much if i had one wish i just hope u died cuz it would be by dream for u to DIE. and kunle omg i am soo mad at u do not even start with it. first u didnt listen to what i said and u deliberty did it well u know what ITS OVER so yea blah and then when i try to talk to u when i'm feeling better u just left me.. okay well blah fine see if i'll be talking to u in spring break or when we get back because i am sooo pist off at u and my sis............. i want to scream right now because i'm soo bad and i keep twitching arighhhhh.. I"M SO MAD AT U TOOO THAT I WILL NEVER FORGIVE U!!!! NEVER AND I HATE U SOOOO MUCH ESPECIALLY JESSICA ARGRHAHGHGH I HOPE U DIE>> I"D GIVE MY @$&*@&$ LIFE TO SEE THAT THATS HOW MUCH I HATE U EVERYDAY U DO THE SAME SHIT TO ME AHGRHGARHGHAGRHGAGR>>>>>DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i will never talk to u and u are no longer my sister and no apology or gifts can forgive u because i've had it. and if your reading this kunle good for u. ERR U WONDER WHY I TAKE JOGS HUH U THINK ITS JUST TO GET FIT HUM LETS THING AGAIN >.. ITS CUZ I CANT DEAL WITH U GUYS >> I"M SOO STRESS AND EHH I HATE CLEANING I HATE IT THE ONLY REASON I DO IT IS CUZZ I"M SOOO MAD I TAKE MY ANGER AND STRESS ON CLEANING BUT SINCE THAT ISNT HELPING NOW A DAYS I MIGHT AS WE<LLL DO THIS TILL ONE DAY I JUST CANT TAKE IT>> AGRHRGRHGRHGR I HOPE ITS SOONNN>
okay well i dont think its over our relationship though i am still mad at u. and turst me today was not one of my best days today was more of a to do hard work day auntil of course i came across sumthing spectacular so wonderful. laa laa.. anyways tom. go to beach family thang sigh guess candice wont come and of course mark cant come so typical in the end everyone lets u down. Dissapointment is everywhere and sumhow no matter if u try to face it... it wont go away. well gtg. sad.