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| 6 Feb 2005 New entry here 1 Feb 2005 Tick tick tick.... Time's running out! I've settled in alright but I've been pretty stressed out. Yesterday I said my last goodbyes to my home and was surprised as I didn't feel sentimental at all. I just want to get going already. I can't believe I'm leaving next week...! Oh well, I'm off to work now... Ta-ra people! 28 Jan 2005 I'm homeless! And I picked the WORST day to move out. There was a blizzard and it was bloody windy and cold (-15c). It took us 6 hours to skatter my life, oh I mean stuff, around Helsinki.... I feel so empty now. I'm 27 and I live at my mom's. A very VERY strange sensation, let me tell you. Every bone in my body is aching... And tomorrow I should get up early and go to work.... Bohohohohohooooo! This is the WORST part... I have nothing to keep me here but yet I must wait for 12 more days before I can go! 25 Jan 2005 Just spent the last night in my own bed. Our last night together was not the best one as I woke up at 5AM. Today most of my stuff is being moved out. S-I-G-H. Bye bye unfunctional Ikea furniture, I shall not miss you too much! 23 Jan 2005 I'm SICK of this. The persistant admirer I've had at work is now spreading rumours about me and how he could have got into my pants had he only had more time. For fuck's sake! I was gently trying to brush him off, saying I never sleep with my co-workers and that I was leaving Finland soon anyways. This was just a gentle way to say that I wasn't interested at all in such an old, short and intellectually challenged guy, who clearly has biiiig issues, acts compulsively, is paranoiac and DOESN'T get the subtle hints at all. HAD he been my type at all, I wouldn't have cared if we worked at the same place. HELLOOOO!!! WHERE DID YOU LEAVE YOUR BRAIN?!?! I was scared that night he was making his move and I was thinking all evening how to get rid of the situation without him snapping. My gentle way got me in trouble, I see it now. I was FURIOUS when I heard about the rumours he's been spreading. Thank fucking God I'm leaving pitiful little people like him behind me. ARGH! I was trying to be friends with him but he rubbed me the wrong way and he only has himself to blame. I hope he never ever approaches me in any way again. 21 Jan 2005 Oh JOY. I was at hospital for over 2 hours yesterday. The internal disease specialist was a nice woman who had lived in Australia and she had a wicked sense of humour. She apparently was very envious of my slim-ish thighs cos she kept on referring to them hahahaa... Also, She took my pulse from places that made me wish I had put on some other panties than my thongs. Dear reader, have you ever had your BP taken from your THIGH? SHIT it HURT! Anyhoo, she thinks I don't need medication for at least a year. But as my condition is what it is, I spent this morning at the lab again (I'm starting to be quite a pro) and had some problems there as the tests the specialist wanted to be taken, couldn't be preformed at my local health centre... But after half of hour on insisting they'd take the bloody sample NOW or never as I was going to Australia and my specialist said the tests need to be taken TODAY...it all worked out in the end... but it made me fucking angry! If I hadn't opened my mouth and insisted them to actually FIND OUT HOW they could perform the test, I didn't have the chance to be tested at all before my trip. So PHEW! Oh and yippeeee, I'll have MRI taken of my kidneys as well! So everything is being checked! I'm in good hands now and I can't believe they're really really taking my condition so very seriously! Hoooorraaaayyyy! 18 Jan 2005 WOHOHOHOHOOO, now I've got the visa as well! Now the only thing I need to stress about is moving out of my flat. Sigh... 15 Jan 2005 Got my passport and even my new ID, I had accidentally signed my passport with the name of "Hudin"... A mistake I must live with for the next 10 years :-D Also applied for a visa.... it was difficult and I don't even know if I applied for the bloody right one! Still felt a little sick today but yet dragged my apparently skinny ass to a bar where I saw quite a few of my friends. Drank nothing but yet had the energy to sit there for 6 hours or so. When I started to walk home, there was a man walking behind me, saying "oh my gawd, you have such a beautiful body, I have always fallen for thin and tall women, you are a dream in high heels, you're perfect, oh jesus christ I think I'm in heaven just when I look at you" etc etc. OH HELLO. Instead of flattering it was quite SCARY. Eeeeew! Good for him he likes us tall and lean girls but I happen to hate short, old and ugly men. TOUGH. 14 Jan 2005 Big day today! I'm getting my new passport with my brand spanking new name and then I'm off to my school to arrange the last things before I say ADIOS...! And finally after a month, I'm seeing Hanne! Yey! I still feel a little fragile after yesterday but I'm taking things as easy as possible and try to eat something, too. Oh, almost forgot. I never really liked Split Enz even though I'm a huge Neil Finn fan. But now I found a lovely lovely song by them and I listen to it again and again and my heart starts beating faster and faster as it's starting to sink in.... 28 days left....! 13 Jan 2005 Holy Vomit, Batman. Life with the torturing BP machine certainly wasn't easy. Especially after I got a mother-of-a-migraine in the evening and the headache was competing with the torture machine to keep me awake. In the morning I was in such a bad state I couldn't keep my eyes open and when I finally got up, all I could do was puke. Never in my life have I puked like that and yet be sober. It was a challenge for me to go back to hospital but I made it... I'm feeling a tad better now, I even ate a little just a short while ago... Hope it stays in....! Big day tomorow, I should get my new passport! Then I can finally apply for the visa! Yeehhhaaaaw! 11 Jan 2005 Told everyone at work that I'm leaving. My boss was WONDERFUL, she told me I'd be more than welcome to come back! PHEW. That was such a relief... At least now I've got a job waiting for my return.... Tomorrow I'm going to hospital to be turned into a cyborg for a day... nothing I'm particularly looking forward to but there you go. It needs to be done. *sigh* 10 Jan 2005 Oooops.... Every once in a while I get this "Oh my gawd, in about 30 days I'll be in Australia"-feeling. Just had it again as my contact person in Ballarat emailed and said "Not long now, I look forward to meeting you next month!!" JESUS CHRIST....Next MONTH??!?!?!? Where did all the time go?!?!?! I have so much to do and virtually no time to do it. Oh well... 7 Jan 2005 Saw Teemu today...Bloody wind ripped his favourite necklace right off his neck, dammit! I've said it before and I say it again.... BLOODY HAKANIEMI'S WINDY CONDITIONS! 6 Jan 2005 Applied for a new passport yesterday. As it was raining/snowing all day, I ended up looking like a scary junkie burglar. Oh GREAT. This is the picture I'm stuck with for the next 10 years :-D And as it was the first time I ever even signed my new surname, that also ended up looking like a child's doodling. So, can't wait to see that new passport of mine.... NOT! My little sister Tia was kind enough to hold my hand while I was shaking from all this stress. Love her for that. She's always there if I need help and I can only try my best to be there for her when she needs me to. Luv ya, sis :) Right-o. Difficulties difficulties... I am SCREWED with my visa application... and there's no-one to turn to because the Australian consulate vanished into thin air last year and now there's no-one who could give me instructions legally.... Yup, next stop: Ulcer-land. All aboard! |
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