Do I know
you? Do I know you? The words fluttered around Dawn’s mind, repeating over
and over louder and louder until she thought she would go mad.
They’d told her that she’d have no memory, that she’d
forgotten everything and everybody… but a part of her, buried deep down had
insisted that her sister would never forget her.
She might forget everybody else but never her.
But she had.
The woman staring at her had eyes that were blank, showing no
recognition at all of either her or Cordy. She’d never met Connor so Dawn had
never realistically expected Buffy to know him.
“Buffy… I’m Dawn you know me… You’re my sister,” Dawn said
softly, even though her mind was stunned by the implications her hand had yet
to drop from her sisters’ face.
“I don’t think so,” Buffy smiled wryly. “I think you have me
confused with somebody else.”
“No!” Dawn protested loudly. The only thing keeping her from
throwing herself at Buffy and shaking her until she admitted that she indeed
remember them was the feel of Connor’s hand on her back and Cordy’s comforting
presence beside him. She idly wondered when Cordy’s presence had become
comforting, always before it had been annoying at the very least. “You’re my
sister. You’re name is Buffy Summers.”
“Well my name is
Buffy,” she relented casting a glance over their shoulders she arched a brow at
her companions. “But I don’t have a sister…”
“How ‘bout a last name?” Connor asked quietly. His mood was
much like Dawn’s. The sooner she remembered her family the sooner they could
introduce the fact that she had a son… that was almost the same age as her. But
as long as she didn’t remember them there was no way she’d believe anything
that they told her. “You have one of those?”
“It’s complicated,” Damon murmured moving around the group.
He took the crossbow from Buffy’s hand holding it loosely in his grip. “If you
guys are okay then we should really go…”
“No! No…” Cordy stepped forward. “We need to figure this out
before…”
“Look miss…”
“Cordelia… Cordelia Chase,” the brunette interrupted. “She
knows that… you know that,” she said directly to Buffy. “We went to high school
together… lived in a small town called Sunnydale…”
“Sunnydale? Isn’t that…?” Buffy turned to Damon confusion
marring her face.
“Yeah,” Damon’s eyes narrowed as he studied the threesome in
front of him. They weren’t warriors, the boy was the only one among them that
was probably even a fighter.
And from the periodic glances over his shoulder he’d also
been the only one who even noticed that Jade and Colin were flanking them from
behind, ready to intervene should they become violent.
He glanced at Jade she’d already taken stock of the matter
and was handling things in her usual matter.
Utilizing her powers to determine if the three before them
were friend or foe. To find out if they were who they said they were and what
useful information they had.
He watched as her eyes blanked out, watched as she mumbled
words under her breath. When her eyes cleared her expression thoughtful she
issued a sharp nod.
“Maybe we should listen to what they have to say,” Damon said
quietly to the woman at this side.
“What?!” Buffy turned to him Dawn’s hand falling away. “You
can’t be serious?!”
“Buffy,” he said soothingly. “What will it hurt to listen to what
they have to say? Besides they’ll have a phone and with Jade forgetting to
charge the cell…”
“I didn’t forget to
charge the cell… damn things just not working,” Jade protested indignantly.
“We’ll listen to what they have to say and then we’ll go home.”
“We should do it someplace else… this alley’s not the safest
place in the world,” Connor murmured.
“I take it you have someplace in mind?” Damon arched a brow
in his direction. He knew of course that he did, Jade was whispering secrets in
his mind. Whispering what she had learned from the minds of the three standing
before them.
There were things they knew… they knew things about Buffy
that she didn’t even know. And he for
one couldn’t wait until it all came out.
Should make for one hell
of a show.
“We don’t live very far from here,” Cordy muttered.
“I can’t believe you’re actually
contemplating doing this,” Buffy’s voice rose slightly. “They’re obviously
deranged ax murderers or something and if they kill us all I’m going to hold you personally responsible.”
“Now babe…” Damon smiled down at her as she snatched her
crossbow from his hand and turned on her heel. “If they were ax murderers then
they probably wouldn’t have been attacked by the other side…”
“He’s right they would have been recruited for the other
side.”
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Connor was in a virtual heaven. Pressed tightly to one side
of his body, legs aligned was his mother.
The one that was supposed to be dead…the one that he wasn’t
supposed to ever have a chance to get to know. The scenarios he had pictured in
his mind since finding out she was alive was of course not what was currently
playing out.
In even his most horrible nightmares he had never imagined
that his mother would be sitting so close to him, her body fraught with tension
ready to leap from the vehicle at the slightest indication of the trouble.
Somewhere deep in him he had a feeling that she had more
memories than she was letting on.
He didn’t think she would be this overwrought about talking
to Dawn about her sister if she didn’t remember something about being that
sister.
It had been decided that since Connor, Dawn and Cordy had been
going to walk back to the hotel that the others would give them a ride in their
vehicle.
It had been about this time that Connor had figured out that
Jade knew something.
As Colin and Damon had moved weapons around in the vehicle to
make the far back seat accessible she had announced that she would ride in the
back with Dawn, Cordy would navigate for Colin and Connor would sit between
Buffy and Damon.
Connor had wanted to thank her, hell he’d wanted to do
cartwheels down the middle of the street… and for once he didn’t really care
that Dawn was complaining up a storm.
Stating that Buffy was her
sister, that she should be the
one sitting next to her.
Because he was going to have open access to his mother, even
if she did look like she was going to jump out of the vehicle and go running
down the middle of the street at the first sign of trouble.
As he drew a deep breath, attempting to relax himself… and
wipe the perpetual grin that seemed to have found its way across his features
he caught another whiff of her scent.
He had always thought his father was waxing poetic when he
talked about Buffy.
Once he and Dawn had confronted Angel with the truth, once
Angel had admitted the truth to himself he would every so often talk about her.
Would smile, his eyes going distant as he described her to
their son.
How she had glowed with her humanity, how she had smelled of
vanilla and sunshine. Connor had laughed more than once at the descriptions.
He didn’t think he’d doubt anything Angel had to say about Buffy
again.
Because she did glow with humanity (even if it was somewhat
dim from whatever trials she’d undergone) and she did smell like vanilla and
sunshine.
She smelled like what he imagined home would smell like and
for probably the millionth time he wished that he met her when he was a child.
Even as an infant he would have known her as his mother.
“Just take a right here,” Cordy said quietly, Connor
stiffened as he realized that they were at the hotel already.
His father was going to go nuts if they didn’t handle this
right. Right now he could sense two vampires and three demons inside the hotel.
Angel, Spike, Hallie, Lorne and most likely D’Hoffryn.
As Colin stopped the blazer Connor turned his head slightly
exchanging a look with Dawn.
“You guys live here?” Damon asked in disbelief as he stared
up at the building.
“Yeah… my dad owns it,” Connor murmured as he turned around,
glancing over at Buffy he wasn’t surprised to see her staring at the building
with apprehension lining her face.
“There’s vampires in there,” she said softly her hand on the
door.
“They can’t hurt you,” Cordy muttered as she opened her door,
stepping out. “They both have souls… and Spike has that the chip thing.”
“Souls and chips?” Colin asked as he slowly closed his door,
a habit formed within the last year so as not to alert the enemy to their
presence by making loud noises.
“Long stories both… Buffy knows them,” Dawn said casting a
look at her sister. Buffy had opened her door but was still staring up at the
building, her eyes distant.
“Well… are we going in or are we going to stand out here and
have this discussion?” Jade asked brightly, she exchanged a nervous look with
Damon. Now that they were here, getting ready to face Buffy’s past, one she no
longer remembered right now because of the latest wipe she had to wonder if
this was indeed a wise idea.
Maybe they should have just made an appointment and done it
later.
Much, much later.
“We’re here,” Buffy said softly as she finally stepped from
the blazer. “Might as well get it over with.”
“Buffy we don’t have to do this,” Damon said moving to stand
behind her, with his hand on her shoulder he gently squeezed, moral support for
what she was about to face.
Her past.
“Yes we do.”
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“Where the bloody hell have
you been bit?!” Spike exploded out of the kitchen as he heard the front doors
swing open, Dawn led the way in, Connor following closely behind her. “Peaches
is almost convinced that the three of you are dead.”
“Had a slight problem on our way home,” Connor stated as he
swung around. “But we ran into an old friend.”
“What…?” Spike asked as he stalked over to the youngest
Summers a stern expression on his face. Ready to shake some sense into her head
chip be damned.
He didn’t make it that far, he stopped still as a statue as
he caught his first sign of Buffy. “Bloody hell!” he breathed as he drank in
the sight of the lost Slayer.
Flanked by two men that he didn’t recognize and followed by
Cordy and a brunette that he also didn’t recognize she looked just as beautiful
as he remembered. Her hair was still short and her eyes still weary.
The last time he’d seen her, right after the fight with Anya,
she’d looked just like that. Tired, beaten… he’d smelled the defeat on her and
while at one time it would have made him leap for joy at that time he’d been
scared for her.
A defeated Slayer was a dead Slayer after all.
“I take it he’s one of the vampires with a soul?” he heard
one of the men ask Dawn as he stared at Buffy unmoving. She stared right back
at him, her features blank and for a split second he thought he saw something
flicker in her eyes. Some form of recognition that was quickly banished and
replaced with nothing.
“Spike… he also has this chip thing…it keeps him from hurting
humans,” Dawn said quietly.
“Christ Dawn have you told them everything?” Spike glared
down at the girl.
“They knew that there were vampires in here,” Dawn said
defensively. “Didn’t think it would be a great first introduction if they came
in with stakes blazing.”
“Spike knew Buffy as well,” Cordy stated as she moved further
into the hotel lobby. Tossing her purse on the couch she turned to face the
unmoving former Slayer.
“Was there anybody that didn’t know her?” Colin asked with a
small measure of amusement lacing his voice.
“The janitor at the high school… but I can’t guarantee that…
especially not after we blew it up,” Cordy said with a thin smile.
“We… you blew up the high school?” Buffy asked softly shaking
her head as if she was clearing it.
“She doesn’t remember anything,” Cordy said when Spike shot
her a questioning look, he could tell from the tone of her voice that she
didn’t buy that the Slayer remembered nothing of her former life anymore than
he did.
“Peaches is going to have a cow,” Spike said with wide eyes.
“Spike I heard voices are they back yet?” he heard Angel’s
voice long before he saw him and he exchanged a worried look with Cordy.
Knowing that Buffy was alive and might not remember them was
one thing. Having a live Buffy in the hotel lobby that didn’t know them was
something else entirely.
“Well…” Spike started.
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He’d wondered since they had discovered the truth that she
was still alive what his first reaction would be. He’d wondered what hers would
be.
He knew that Hallie and Faith, hell even Cordy had said that
she had no memories. That they’d all been wiped clean when she chosen to fight
under the title of Indaran.
But some small part of him, some little part of his ego
insisted that she would never forget him.
He was her mate, just like she was his… if he would never forget her then there
was no way that she would forget him.
Another part of him though had tried to prepare him for the
worst case scenario. That they would find her and she would look blankly at him
and either stake him (because he was a vampire and therefore the enemy) or even
worse ask him who he was.
Neither one of those scenarios filled him with warm fuzzy
feelings.
He wanted her to have ached for him as much as he ached for
her.
Over the last year, after he’d recovered from the initial
shock of being told she was dead, he’d relived every moment of their lives
together. He’d sworn that once he found her, once she was home where she
belonged with him, Dawn and Connor that he would never let her go again. That
he would take however long it took to make sure that she understood just how
much she meant to him.
How much he loved her.
When Hallie had told him that she’d seen her, that she’d laid
eyes on Buffy, had touched her and determined that she was real he had
rejoiced. It couldn’t be much longer; the powers wouldn’t keep them separated
forever. The fact that the powers had been the one to separate them in the
first place never settled in his mind.
He decided that he just needed to be patient. He could do
that, he’d waited a year what was a few more days?
Unfortunately that was easier said than done. He was filled
with an intense desire to see her, to reclaim her as his regardless of what had
happened in her life since she had left them and if
The tingling had begun about five minutes prior. A tingling
that he always associated with Buffy
and he’d become as nervous as a boy facing his first date. He knew she was
here, was in fact in the Hyperion right at that moment.
Drawing a deep unneeded breath to fortify himself he moved
towards the stairs.
“Spike I heard voices are they back yet?” he called out
amazed at how steady and sure his voice remained despite the turmoil that he
was feeling.
“Well…” he heard Spike start saying, his grandchilde’s voice
was filled with emotion that he hadn’t heard in a long while.
He knew what he would see when he rounded the corner and
started down the stairs. He was going to see his love again… and it was time to
bring her home.
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Buffy remained silent and quiet in the lobby of the Hyperion.
Not looking at anyone or anything she fought back the urge to wrap her arms
around herself.
Everything was changing.
Conversations were happening around her but they sounded like
they were so far away that it hurt to concentrate on them.
People and places that she had seen in dreams were suddenly
standing before her insisting that she knew them, insisting that she remember
them.
In her dreams she had seen the girl and young man standing
before her. She’d known their names once, eventually she’d know them again… and
then Whistler would appear and the names would vanish but the faces would
remain.
She’d never physically been in this hotel, had never
physically walked through it. But she knew if she went up the stairs, second
door on the right that she would find him.
She didn’t remember his name anymore; she’d known it once…
she knew that he was important to her. That he had been important to the person
she had been before she’d become an Indaran.
She always remembered his eyes first. They’d haunted in her
in every dream she’d ever had in the last year, those chocolate brown eyes that
looked at her as if she was the most beloved thing in his life.
Flashes of memory, of their first meeting viciously assaulted
her and she shook her head attempting to clear it. Now was so not the time for her memories to be
making their renewed presence known.
But of course her brain never listened to her and her vision
faded, replaced with a dark alley in a town that she’d never been to Sunnydale… the Hellmouth a voice
whispered and she could see herself facing the owner of those eyes that loved
her.
Is there a
problem ma’am?
Yeah
there’s a problem… why were you following me?
I know what
you’re thinking… but don’t worry… I don’t bite. Truth is I thought you’d be
taller, or bigger muscles and all that… You’re pretty spry though.
What’d you
want?
The same
thing you do.
Okay… what
do I want?
To kill
them. To kill them all.
Sorry,
that’s incorrect. But you do get this lovely watch and a years supply of Turtle
Wax. What I want is to be left
alone!
Do you
really think that’s an option anymore? You’re standing at the mouth of hell.
And it’s about to open. Don’t turn your back on this. You’ve got be ready.
Ready for
what?
For the
Harvest.
Who are
you?
Let’s just
say… I’m a friend.
Yeah well
maybe I don’t want a friend.
I didn’t
say I was yours.
When her vision cleared again she realized that the others
were still talking. Cordy mentioning that they’d blown up the school.
“We… you blew up the high school?” Buffy asked correcting
herself as she once more shook her head. Voices once whispering in her head.
Cordelia, Oz… Xander…
I for one
have never heard a worse plan.
We attack
the mayor with humus.
I stand
corrected… but it’s like the only plan… besides its Buffy’s. You know little
miss likes to fight.
I think
there was a yay vote buried in there somewhere.
“She doesn’t remember anything,” Cordy was saying when she
refocused on the conversation. From the look that the blonde vampire, Spike, sent her she could tell that he
didn’t buy her not remembering anything anymore than Cordy or the others seemed
to.
“Peaches is going to have a cow,” he muttered.
She felt him approaching long before his voice rang out.
“Spike I heard voices are they back yet?” she heard the
voice, shivers running down her spine as she rubbed at her forehead staring
resolutely at the floor.
Maybe if she didn’t make eye contact with him, didn’t
acknowledge him they would let them leave and continue their fight without
involving them.
Before the thought was even through her head she knew it
wouldn’t work. Knew that now that she’d found him again that she was going to
be bound to him. That she would never voluntarily be able to leave his side for
anything less than the fight.
“Well,” she heard Spike start saying.
“Well what?” Angel asked rounding the stairs. She hazarded a
glance up and saw him stopped in the middle of the stairs, hand clutching the
banister for dear life as he stared at her with something akin to awe.
Quickly she averted her eyes, staring back at the ground
fisting her hands at her side as she gnawed on her bottom lip.
“Buffy,” he said in an almost whisper and she felt her heart
pang at the loneliness he heard in the simpleness of her name.
He had missed her. With that one word she could almost feel the
depth of his loneliness, the despair at having thought her dead and buried.
She could feel him moving again, could feel his presence
tickling along her skin and a corner of her mind registered that although Colin
had moved away, had moved to stand beside Jade, Damon had not. He’d taken a
position at her back, lending silent support ready to intervene should she say
anything indicating that she was not ready for this to happen.
She could feel tears welling in her eyes as she stared mutely
at the ground. She couldn’t understand why Whistler had wiped her if her
memories were going to come back almost immediately… in their entirety. Her
life was crashing repeatedly over her, her life with Angel, her life as a
Slayer… ending with Xander’s death.
Xander… a single tear leaked from her eyes as she thought of
her fallen friend. Dying to protect them from someone that he had loved.
“He died a
warriors death, just like he wanted, just like he was meant to.”
“Like he
was meant to?! He wasn’t a warrior!
He shouldn’t even have been there! Should never have died like that.”
“Buffy,” he whispered once more, she could see his shoes,
knew he was standing right in front of her, so close that she could reach out
and touch him if she chose to. Her nails dug into the skin of her palms as she
fought that urge, then fought the urge to lean into his touch as he raised a
hand to cup her cheek.
God how had she lived so long without him?
Because she’d had to… and she still had to… she was still a
warrior, still an Indaran. She fought enemies that he couldn’t; she fought a
fight that he wasn’t involved in… yet.
So drawing a deep breath she stiffened her back, she might
have her memories back but that didn’t meant that they needed to know that she
had them back. She wouldn’t allow anyone else to die because of her.
Xander was enough.
Blinking away the tears in her eyes she schooled her
expression into one of indifference… and prayed that it would hold as she raised her eyes
to meet his.
“Angel,” she
breathed his name even as she inwardly cursed her weakness where this man was
concerned. As their eyes locked she saw the smile being formed on his lips and
then darkness descended.
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It was a dark night, no moon showed in the sky and it cast an
almost ominous feel over the city.
The streets seemed almost absurdly empty. Normally they would
be crawling with the denizens of the night. Selling their wares, selling their
bodies. But it seemed as if even those that normally sauntered down these
streets, cocky in their belief that nothing could touch them felt the evilness
that seemed to permeate every darkened corner and took measures to protect
themselves from it.
Or it could have been the caravan of five identical vehicles.
Black blazers, tinted windows that were currently traveling the strangely
silent streets of downtown
The military was in town some were probably saying. Others
were going into hiding even as they watched the vehicles move past them.
Sitting in the passenger seat of the lead vehicle, tapping
his unringing cell phone against his leg he was staring out the front window
urging the vehicle to move even faster.
He could feel it in his bones… as they were traveling at a
snail’s pace through the streets his life was being changed. After the fight
tonight his life would no longer be the same, he would no longer be able to say
that he had no family, no friends other than those that carried the title of
Indaran.
He only hoped that Buffy was still alive to deal help him
deal with the friends that were getting ready to spring out of the woodwork.
“They’re not dead,” Brendan glanced at him from the drivers’
seat. He was one of Susanne’s warriors, a bulky young man with a friendly face.
“He’s right… you need to relax Wes,” Susanne murmured from
the seat directly behind him.
“Right,” Wesley snorted rubbing at his eyes. He’d put his
contacts, which he despised, in before they’d left. He’d taken to wearing them
a few months prior as it wouldn’t do for the enemy to knock his glances off his
face during battle and for him to end up crawling around on the ground because
he was totally blind without them. “I’ll get right on that.”
“Look around you man,” Brendan gestured wildly with one hand.
“If something had happened believe me
I would be speeding through these streets cops be damned. But they’re fine. Yes they were engaged in battle,
but they won…”
“So where are they huh? Why aren’t we able to get through to
them on the phones or the radios? Why can’t the witches get in touch with Jade
directly?”
“There powers don’t always work like that… and all the
witches aren’t psychically sensitive like Jade…”
“And sometimes the powers lock them out making it near
impossible for them to get in contact with each other,” Wesley finished. He
glared at the phone once more. A piece of technology that would normally link
him to his four favorite people in the world right now it was only serving to
distance them from him.
“If something had happened to them we would know, chill…”
Brendan stated stubbornly, glowering as he tightened his hands around the
steering wheel, Wesley envisioned that he was probably it was his neck and that
the life was slowly being strangled from him.
Sometimes he forgot how volatile the warriors could be.
Settling back in his seat he gripped his phone in one hand
and turned his attention out the window, watching the scenery slowly pass by.
He didn’t believe them dead. No matter what the others might
think of his behavior it had nothing to do with fear of their demise. His fear
was of discovery. Fear that the family and friends that he and Buffy had in
common had located her and even now his carefully structured life was going to
be demolished in one swift blow.
He comforted himself with the fact that the family and
friends couldn’t have been all that close to him. The Indaran’s had been chosen
by their lack of significant
friendships… Buffy had been one of the sole warriors chosen that had any family
at all left. And after his last talk with Whistler it had been his
understanding that the bonds that were even now pushing and pulling his warrior
in a million different directions had, at the time, been stretched beyond any
hopes of repair by the powers. That the bonds she shared with the vampire in
particular had been all but shattered and destroyed by outside influences.
Obviously that was no longer the case.
The vampire had marked her, he’d seen the bite on her neck
and identified it as a vampire’s bite months ago but it had never dawned on him
that the vampire that had bitten her still walked the earth. He had just
assumed that the Buffy had been bitten prior to dusting the offending vampire.
He had never imagined that she would have allowed a vampire to claim her.
He didn’t remember what Buffy had been like prior to the
wipes. Sometimes he was thankful for that blessing, becoming friends was enough
of a trial without their past history clouding their opinions, but he would
never have envisioned that she would have allowed
a vampire to mark her as his mate.
Whistler had told him the vampire had walked away, had marked
her and then left her years prior. The bond that had been strong upon his
departure had weakened as the years passed and then days prior to their being
called as Indaran she had found out that he had moved on.
The information, Whistler had explained, had not come from
the vampire, or even the woman that he was supposed to be moving on with… it
had come from a source that Buffy had trusted, a friend that she never believed
would lie to her. Then Whistler had corroborated the story when he had came to
offer her the choice. The powers had not informed him that it was a spell, that
the vampire was in the process of being tested for his own worthiness. If he
had broken the spell he would have been called as well… they had a demon that
fought by their sides after all and warriors were chosen by their worthiness
not by their status as human or not.
But he hadn’t been strong enough, being away from his mate
for so long had weakened the bond so that he was unable to counteract it even
though he knew that it was there. It had taken Buffy’s ‘death’ to break it and
by then it had been to late, the warriors had been chosen and the vampire had
been left behind.
The powers had never imagined that the bond between Buffy and
her mate would strengthen after that, by all accounts it should have been
weakened to the point of destruction. By it had strengthened, and the bond
continued to link the two of them, he was the reason the wipes weren’t working
on his warrior. Why they hadn’t been working.
“Do we have five witches?” he asked suddenly turning in his
seat to face Susanne.
“Yes… I don’t see the point though,” Susanne rolled her eyes.
“Jade is fine and now we’re putting six in battle at the primary when the
bigger battle is going to be the secondary.”
“It’s better to be safe than sorry,” Wesley muttered turning
back around.
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Angel crouched over his bed, his broad shoulders blocking the
view of Buffy laying motionless there. When she had collapsed he had scooped
her up in his arms and carried her to his room. Ignoring everyone’s objections
as he fought to keep a skip out of his step he had raced up the stairs.
He was a vampire he didn’t skip he kept telling himself as he
reveled in the sensation her closeness brought. Fighting back the urge to
gather her close to him, to clutch her to his unbeating heart and never, ever
let her go again.
He settled
for stroking her cheek gently as he smiled. She had remembered him, had said
his name in the breathy little way that she had… of course then she had passed
out in his arms but still…
“Dad…”
Connor held a wet washcloth over his shoulder staring down at the unmoving
woman lying there. His mother.
Even at that
moment people were descending on the hotel to see for themselves that she was
alive.
The call had gone out almost immediately. Faith had already
arrived. Giles and
“Thanks,” Angel murmured absently as he touched the wet cloth
to her face. He could see her eyes moving rapidly under her closed lids, could
feel the tension in her body and as he moved his hand over her face he fought
to feed her positive emotions through their bond.
Struggled to show her the depth of his love and devotion. He
could sense her fear through it, could feel her terror which he didn’t
understand. Because she was scared for him.
A movement on the other side of the bed drew his attention
and he met the inquisitive eyes of the brunette female, Jade as she sat on the
edge. Gifting him with a small smile she turned her attention to Buffy laying a
hand on her forehead as she closed her eyes.
“Well?” Damon asked from behind her. “What happened?”
“I don’t know,” Jade said in puzzlement, opening her eyes
again she frowned as she lifted her hand away. “Something rendered her unconscious.”
“You mean something did this on purpose? How, why?” Angel
asked with quiet anger.
Jade studied him before turning to Damon. “I need to call
Wesley… we’re protected against spells and enchantments like this, only the powers
could intervene and allow something like this to happen.”
Angel started at the sound of the familiar name. His mind
running in circles as it considered the implications. “Did you say…? Wesley?”
he heard Giles ask from behind him.
“Yeah… he’s our watcher,” Damon said taking Jade’s place by
the bed.
“Your watcher,” Angel said numbly. “Wesley is your watcher.”
“Yeah… so?” Damon shrugged exchanging looks with Colin as he
entered the room.
“Wesley Wyndham-Price?” Giles asked his face full of dawning realization.
“We don’t have last names,” Colin stated from his position by
the door.
“He’d be British… about thirty…”
“He’d have a scar… across his neck,” Angel finished.
“That’s Wes,” Damon nodded.
“Oh lord,” Giles breathed. “Oh dear lord.”
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“Jade tell me that’s you,” Wesley ordered as soon as he
turned the phone on.
“Geez baby did you miss me that much?” Jade smiled, no matter
how worried she might be about Buffy the sound of his voice always did wonders
in calming her.
“Where the hell have
you been?! We’ve been trying to get in touch with you for hours,” Wesley muttered furiously.
“The cell didn’t work; we tried to call when we got out of the
movies but…” Jade shrugged. Crossing one arm over her stomach she tried to
decide the best way to broach the subject of Buffy having met her family and
friends and been rendered unconscious by an unknown assailant all in a few
short hours.
Maybe she should just lie and tell him everything was okay.
“We’ve got a small problem…”
“Please don’t tell me that you’ve been arrested,” Wes begged.
“No,” she laughed. “Although once you hear what the problem
is you might wish that it was as simple as that.”
“What’s the problem?”
“You know that situation
you told us to be on the lookout for?”
“Yes.”
“Well it’s happened… they’re all here.”
“Why do I have a feeling that’s not all,” Wes sighed as he
rubbed the scar across his neck.
“Because its not… we got here and Buffy was fine, she took
one look at this vampire, said his name and then passed out,” Jade mumbled
quickly. When she heard nothing but silence from the other end she frowned.
“Wes, honey, you still there?”
“Yes,” he sighed loudly into the phone again. “You’re right
it would be so much simpler if you had just been arrested for fighting again.”
“Are you in the car?” she asked curiously as she heard a car
alarm faintly through the phone.
“Where are you right now?” he asked ignoring her question in
favor of determining her whereabouts and getting her to the primary playing
field.
“We’re at this hotel… the Hyperion? The vampire that Buffy
knew… he owns it.”
“Fuck,” Wes muttered. “We’re on our way to you.”
“Wes?” Jade asked softly trying to ignore the pang of horror
that she felt at the tone of his voice. Walking to the balcony she gazed down
into the lobby. These were all humans. Buffy’s friends, sister, mate… son.
There wasn’t a fighter among them if you didn’t count the
vampires, the Slayer and the boy.
“We’ve got primary and secondary playing fields.”
“Primary?”
“Is your location…”
“No,” she said abruptly drawing attention from those milling
about in the lobby. “Wes there are civilians
here. Buffy’s family, your family is here.”
“Evacuate them if possible… but you don’t have much time…
maybe a few minutes at the most.”
“How close are you?” Jade asked closing her eyes. Evacuate them, sure that would work… not.
There was no way that anyone would voluntarily leave the premises until they
found out what had happened to Buffy.
“Couple minutes… they’re going to beat us there.”
“You know sometimes I hate my life,” Jade grumbled. “What do
you want us to do?”
“Get ready… might help if you had a conscious Buffy but
that’s your call.”
“Right… conscious Buffy… on it… see ya in a bit,” Jade hung
up. Tapping the phone against her forehead she started back towards Angel’s
room.
“So?” Colin asked as she entered. “What did he say? Was he
mad?”
“He wasn’t mad… but
I think he would have been happier if I’d told him we’d been arrested again,”
she said softly her eyes on the still form of her friend. “He’s on his way
here.”
“What? Why?”
“Jade?” Damon asked slowly climbing to his feet.
“We have primary and secondary playing fields.”
“Which are we?” Colin asked understanding in his voice as he
walked towards her.
“We’re the primary… he suggests we get Buffy conscious and
get ready.”
“Right,” Damon nodded. “Any suggestions on how to do that?”
he asked the three all focusing on the unconscious warrior.
“Well…” Jade started. “I have no clue.”
From his place beside Buffy Angel followed the conversation.
It was almost as if they’d forgotten that he was even in the room with them.
“What’s a primarily playing field?” he asked curiously.
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Buffy woke slowly on her bed in her house on
She’d never had clothes like the ones she currently wore. Too
sedate, to baggy… too black.
Pushing herself to her feet she glanced around her room
finally noticing the fine layer of dust over her belongings.
Didn’t mean anything she told herself firmly. She’d been
busy, what with Dawn and going back to school… and Anya trying to kill
everyone.
“Dawn?” she called rushing from her room. Hazarding a glance
in her sister’s bedroom she found nothing and raced down the steps.
“I won’t
let you hurt them!” Xander yelled placing his body between the demonic form of
Anyanka and Buffy and
She gasped as she swayed, clutching at the doorframe for
support.
“And you’re
going to stop me how?” Anyanka scoffed with a malicious smile waving the knife
in her hand towards the two females. She had powers that she could have used
but physical damage was best inflicted by hand not by power. The Slayer was
already hurt; Buffy had a hand pressed to her stomach where Anyanka had managed
to stab her with the knife.
“I won’t
let you hurt them,” Xander repeated arms outstretched as he stood his ground.
“You’re
worthless Xander,” Anyanka mocked. “You’re the most worthless member of the
Scoobies, no powers, no strength… I’m surprised they haven’t cut you loose long
before now. I would think you would want me to do this… before they figured out
how pathetic you really are and banished you.”
“They’re my
friends,” he said quietly. “They would never do that.”
“Friends,”
she laughed harshly. “Friends are a dime a dozen. Easily replaceable.”
“Anya,” he
said softly moving towards her.
“Xander
don’t,” Buffy warned laying a hand on his shoulder trying to stay his forward
movement.
“She won’t
hurt me,” Xander said confidently.
“Sure about
that?” Anyanka murmured arching a brow. “I’ll take what I can get,” she snarled
shoving the knife into the soft flesh of Xander’s abdomen. He gasped his face a
mixture of surprise and resignation as his eyes flickered from his ex-lover’s
face to the knife that she was slowly twisting.
“Xander,”
Buffy and
“Oh god,” Buffy moaned falling to her knees burying her face
in her hands. “Oh god… Xander.”
“Hey Buff…” she jumped as she felt the gentle touch on her
shoulder. “None of that now.”
Whirling she was on her feet a hand pressed to her chest as
she gaped. “Xander… You’re dead.”
“Yeah,” he mumbled. “People keep saying that.”
“You did this!” she accused sharply.
“Yeah,” he laughed sharply. “Got a lot of nifty little powers
now… I pulled you here to keep you from making a huge mistake.”
“A mistake? What are you talking about? All I was about to do
was tell Angel that I didn’t remember anything.”
“Exactly,” Xander smiled. “And that’s not the plan right
now.”
“What do you mean?”
“You and Angel… you guys are supposed to be together,” Xander
said sheepishly.
Buffy stared at him in disbelief before she started laughing,
shaking her head.
“Uh Buff? Not seeing the funny here.”
Buffy giggled as she stared up at him. “It’s just… god Xander
you hate Angel more than anyone else on the planet and you’re trying to tell me
that you think that we belong together… Who are you really?” she asked with a
grin peering up into his face.
“I’m not kidding here,” Xander muttered. “Wish I were but I’m
not.”
“Sorry Xander I just don’t buy it… besides Angel’s with Cordy
now… remember?”
“Yeah about that,” he ran a hand through his hair awkwardly.
“That was a spell…”
“A spell?”
“Yeah… designed by the other side to drive a wedge between the
two of you… The powers knew it was there and decided to use it as part of his
test…”
“What test?”
“If you stop interrupting I’ll tell you,” Xander growled. “He
was being tested for Indaran along with the rest of the warriors… His test was
fairly simple, he passed all the physical stuff with flying colors but the
emotional test…”
“He was supposed to break the spell…” Buffy whispered her
eyes wide.
“Yeah… he failed… both he and Cordy did. When he found out
that you had died… the spell broke through his grief.”
“But by then it was to late,” Buffy murmured. “The Indaran
had already been chosen…”
“He loved you Buffy… just like Cord realized that she loved
me… but your right… it was too late,” Xander shook his head. “It was just too
damn late,” he whispered.
“What was my test Xander?”
He looked away, staring at the frozen scene that had been
forgotten by them. His other self laying on the floor bleeding, in shock. Buffy
and Anya locked in combat.
“Xander?”
“Not interfering,” he whispered.
“What?”
“Your test was to interfere or not… Whistler gave you the
tools, told you that Anyanka was going to attack you and
“But you died,” Buffy cried.
“Did I?”
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Angel watched in horror as tears began leaking from under Buffy’s
closed eyes. Her grief was so tangible that he could feel it emanating
throughout the room. He had no idea where her mind was locked. What she was
seeing but it was hurting her.
Leaning close to her he laid his forehead against hers
closing his eyes. “I love you,” he whispered as he reached down to grip her
hand. “I love you.”
“Angel?” he felt her breath on his face even as he heard the
almost silent whisper.
“Buffy,” he whispered drawing away just inches so he could
gaze down at her. “Hey,” he smiled at her.
“So sleeping beauty has decided to rejoin her waiting
public,” Damon grumbled as he crossed the room. Sitting on the bed next to her
he “How do you feel babe?” he asked ignoring the growling vampire on the other
side of her.
“My head hurts,” she murmured as she pushed herself into a
sitting position.
“Probably would have hurt a lot more if your vampire hadn’t
been there to catch you when you passed out.”
“Yeah,” Buffy squeezed Angel’s hand slightly. “He’s good at
catching me when I fall.”
“So you up for a fight? We’ve got a world of trouble headed
our way,” Colin asked brightly from the door.
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Jade paced the length of the lobby in agitation. They were as
ready as they could be barring the arrival of backup.
She hadn’t wanted to exit the hotel to get weapons from the
blazer and had found that the weapons housed in the hotel more than made up for
what they would normally have had. And if she was honest with herself she
wouldn’t have expected anything less from a warrior of Angel’s magnitude. What
was agitating her was the wait.
She hated waiting.
Buffy’s family and friends were scattered throughout the
lobby, she had attempted to get them to leave, to get to safety but they had
all refused stating they weren’t going anywhere until they had a chance to talk
to Buffy.
She hadn’t wanted to be the one to tell them that any
conversation they wanted to hold with her would have to wait until a later
date. Once the fight was done at the Hyperion they would be shepherded to the
secondary playing field.
“Girl you need to sit or something,” Gunn muttered. “Pacing
isn’t going to make the bad guys show up any faster.”
Jade growled at him as she resumed her streak. She was on her
way back across the lobby was almost to the stairs when she heard the crashing
at the door. Whirling she crouched a smile creasing her face.
“Indaran,” a demon she didn’t recognize at the front of the
pack pouring through the door pointed his sword at her. “You are challenged.”
“It’s about damn time,” Jade snarled as she grabbed a sword
from the collection on the stairs. “Saren,” she murmured under her breath as
she raced across the floor towards them, already sending a mental summons to
the others when she saw Spike appear out of nowhere.
“No! Don’t!!” she yelled even as she saw Spike charge the
lead demon. She winced, but never stopped moving as Spike made contact with the
demon’s armor yelping in pain as he went flying backwards from the electrical
backlash.
“Don’t touch them!” she yelled as Faith hovered over the
downed blonde vampire.
“What the hell?!” the Slayer asked her tone pissed.
“This isn’t your fight… don’t
touch them!”
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Buffy leaned back against Angel on the bed. She knew she
should keep her distance. Should try to make sure he understood that her life
wasn’t really hers at the moment.
But she couldn’t.
His arm was around her invoking feelings she long thought
dead and buried. Home, love.
That arm was supporting her but it was also sending a
message. One that Damon was currently smirking at. Her vampire was showing
signs of possessiveness and that left her feeling unbelievably giddy.
“Guys!?
Could use some fucking help down here!!” Jades voice rang loud in
their heads and Angel started as the three jumped. Exchanging looks they raced
from the room, already they could hear the clash of battle and wondered how
they had missed the sounds.
Ignoring the stairs, and the vampire following closely on
their heels they used the banister as leverage and dove from the second floor
to the middle of the battle below. Screaming the word that would activate their
shields in unison.
“Saren!”
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Buffy leapt into battle with a cry and a grin. Kicking out
with one leg she twisted and easily caught the sword being tossed at her by
Colin.
Beside her she could feel glee and determination rolling off
her companions in waves. There was absolutely nothing like a good fight to
really get the adrenaline pumping.
And to take her mind off the fact that even now she could
feel Angel moving quickly down the stairs. Without turning she knew that he had
stopped at the bottom to take stock of the situation, in another few seconds he
would grab a weapon and attempt to join the battle.
Something she just could not allow.
She wanted her vampire mate aliv…ish… or at the very least
not a pile of dust.
She couldn’t yell at a pile of dust, couldn’t plan a future
with a pile of dust.
Unless she moved quickly once the battle was over and had him
moved into an urn. But she was normally quite vague after a big battle and
chances were she would forget that he was lying in a pile at her feet.
Besides did she really want to be known as the crazy Warrior
who talked to her urn?
Nope if she had a vote she was going for an undead vampire
mate versus dusty vampire mate.
“Jade,” she called out swinging the sword in her hand she
caught a Menthlusa demon in the torso, turning away to avoid being sprayed in
the face by its blood.
“Hmmm?” Jade grunted as she took a hit to the chest and flew
solidly into the wall.
“Barrier,” she jerked her head towards the group that was
even now having taken stock of the situation and was moving towards them.
“On it,” the brunette muttered. From where she was fighting,
side by side with Damon she could see Colin take up position between Jade and
the demons closing on her disappearing under the onslaught only to reappear
seconds later.
Jade on the other hand had her sword in one hand, her other
cupped as she chanted softly. Her eyes glowing pure white as she whirled
suddenly throwing it seemed nothing at the group descending on the fight. Only
the other three warriors saw the small ball of light leave her cupped hand and
quickly grow into a shield in front of the stairs.
Effectively cutting off the arrival of those that would
attempt to help… and would no doubt die in the process.
Buffy heard the growl emanate from Angel’s throat as he
bounced off the barrier. Her name a desperate cry on his lips.
With a smile she turned her full attention to the battle in front
of her. Now that her love and her family were safe she could concentrate on
winning this fight.
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Angel snarled as he banged his fists futilely against the
invisible barrier separating him from his mate, her companions and the demons
they were currently engaged in furious battle with.
“Can you get it down?” he spat angrily at
Breaking this barrier down well surpassed the limited powers
she did have.
“Maybe Halfrek,” she started frowning when Hallie shook her
head at them.
“Way beyond me… even being a demon… That witch,” Hallie
gestured at Jade, who had rejoined the battle now that her spell was done.
“That witch was the one who did the sleep spell on me… she’s probably the one
that distorted the path so that we couldn’t figure out where my port originated
from.”
“We can’t just let them fight alone,” Angel muttered. “Look
at them… they’re totally outnumbered.”
“I’d say they were holding their own,” Spike wheezed as Faith
helped him into a sitting position.
“What’s wrong with you boy?” the older vampire asked with
narrowed eyes.
“Got hit with some sort of electrical shock when I went to
hit that first demon,” Spike mumbled as he struggled to his feet.
Giles sighed removing his glasses as he took a seat on the
stairs. Pulling a handkerchief from his pocket he slowly started cleaning them.
“You might as well sit down,” he offered quietly as he looked up into their
disbelieving faces. “You can’t fight them.”
“What the hell are you talking about? They’re demons, we
fight demons…” Faith started.
“Not these demons you don’t...”
“What do you know Rupert?” Angel asked quietly.
“The Indaran will fight those that cannot be fought. Locked
in battle with a cry they will fight with unity sparks lighting their way.”
“What?” Dawn exchanged a confused look with Connor that
turned to quickly to realization. “Oh god.”
“What?!”
“The blonde… Colin he said something when they were fighting
off the guys that were attacking us…” Dawn murmured. “It didn’t even click
until now.”
“He said something? Why don’t I remember this?” Cordy grumbled.
“Think you were unconscious at the time Cor,” Connor grinned
before turning back to his father and Giles. “Jade and Damon were facing off
against these big guys…”
“And a vampire,” Dawn interjected.
“Yeah, yeah… then Colin appears out of nowhere tells us to
move out the way.”
“Because with shields on if one of them had hit us it would
have been like getting hit by an electrical charge,” Dawn finished.
“More like a couple,” Spike muttered rubbing his hands.
“Bleedin’ hell it felt like I’d stuck my hand in an electrical socket or
something.”
“He said that it wouldn’t hurt them… but that it would hurt
us,” Connor said reassuringly. Touching his fathers arm lightly he turned his
attention to the fight that had been raging behind them.
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Angel hadn’t felt the raw sting of jealousy in years. Hands
pressed against the invisible barrier that separated him from his love he waited.
He didn’t even wince at the pain the barrier inflicted on him as it tried to
repel him from its surface. But even as the barrier fought to push him away he
touched it, the moment it dropped he would be across the invisible line that
had been drawn.
He just hoped it wasn’t too late.
The pain comforted him; at least he knew he could feel
something besides the jealousy that was clawing at his insides.
The demon inside him demanded that he reclaim her, that he
show the boy who fought at her side just who she belonged to.
The last time he’d been this viciously opposed to someone had
been the first time he met Riley Finn.
But even through the haze of his jealousy back then he’d
known that he wouldn’t be replaced.
He couldn’t be replaced because as often as not Buffy would
had to have pulled Riley’s butt out of the
fire and she would never have had to do that with Angel. They had fought
as equals and he’d known back then that even if she replaced him as her love as
a fighter he could never be replaced.
But watching her synchronous movements with Damon he wondered
if he had been replaced. Watching the two of them instinctively fight together,
watching each others back, supporting each other he felt that blinding haze as
furiously as he ever had.
Even to his jealous eyes he could see that they fought well
together, they intuitively knew exactly where the other was going to be at any
given time… he could remember a time when he and Buffy had fought like that.
“Chit’s gotten good,” Spike commented from next to him.
“She was always good,” Angel muttered.
“Then she’s gotten better.”
Angel grumbled under his non-existent breath but he had to
admit his grand-childe was right.
She had gotten
better. Now she fought with an edge, a viciousness that he’d never seen in her
fighting before.
Although no noise from the battle could be heard on their
side of the barrier he imagined it would sound like any other battle he’d been
in. The clash of metal against metal. The grunts and cries as blows were
landed.
The battle cry of warriors fighting for a cause.
He knew that the tide was changing, that reinforcements had
arrived by the positions that the four took.
The way Buffy and Damon positioned themselves he knew that
they’d used this particular maneuver before.
And it was flawless, so ingrained into them that they
probably never even thought about it. Buffy knew Damon would be there, Damon
knew exactly when Buffy would attempt it.
He could see that
from the way that Damon never even looked at her before dropping to the floor
in a crouch, sword caught between his knees as he cupped his hands just mere
seconds before Buffy took a running start and planted her foot in them.
With an upward thrust he tossed the former Slayer into the
air as if she weighed no more than a sheet of paper. She twisted and turned in
the air, landing on her feet in front of the door, sword swinging the entire
time.
And it all happened so fast, so precisely that Angel was sure
that if he had blinked he would have missed the entire thing.
“Good lord is that…?” Giles squinted as he saw black clad
figures battling their way through the door. Buffy cutting a swathe through the
demons between her and the door her compatriots were entering through.
“It kind of looks like English but…” Gunn shook his head.
“Wesley?” Cordy’s eyes widened in disbelief.
The former Watcher was dressed entirely in black, no glasses
lighting his nose as would be the norm and handling a battle ax as if it was an
extension of his arm.
The group watched in stunned amazement as Buffy shot him a
quick grin and wink as he moved up to her side.
“All right is anyone else totally wigged by the fact that B
appears to be listening to him?”
Faith muttered.
And she was… whatever Wesley was saying Buffy was agreeing to
as she continually nodded her head at him.
Both moved forward, the newest warriors fanning out clearing
a space in the middle of the room.
A space that was filled quickly with five people. Standing back
to back Jade, two women and two men began chanting. Hands entwined as the
battle continued around them.
A storm waged in the room, wind wildly swirling around the
combatants, the hands that were entwined glowing pure white and then a blinding
light.
Those behind the shield raised arms to their eyes to ward it
off. They heard the deafening roar just seconds before the light cleared,
seconds before their vision returned and it took Angel a moment to realize that
it was a victory cheer. So loud that it could be heard beyond the shield when
the sounds of battle hadn’t been.
And then suddenly he stumbled forward as the shield vanished,
out of the corner of his eye he saw Jade waving a hand at them, dispelling the
shield that had kept them safe and separated. With a grin and a wink she
acknowledged them before turning back to her friends.
Quickly he surveyed the room breathing a sigh of relief as he
saw Buffy embroiled in conversation with Wesley and Damon.
“What happened to all the bodies?”
Angel glanced around the room quickly, all the warriors
appeared to be present… but the demons that they had been locked in combat with
had all vanished.
A loud piercing whistle kept anyone from responding to her query.
Not that they would have know what to say to her in the first place.
Wesley had leapt up onto the large counter on one side of the
room, hands raised above his head he waited for the chatter to subside.
“We still have a secondary playing field,” he started and
Angel’s brows raised at the sound of authority in his voice. This was a Wesley
Wyndham-Pryce that was obviously used to leading, used to being followed.
“All team members please check in with team captains. Team
captains check in with me once your teams are together. Anyone needing
replacement weapons see Buffy and Damon,” he glanced down at Buffy when she
tapped on his leg, leaning down so she could mumble to him. Whatever she said
to him was so soft that even with his vampire hearing… and straining, he
couldn’t figure it out. At least not until Wesley scowled. “And do not use this opportunity to build your
personal collections. All weapons borrowed must
be returned.”
With that Wesley jumped down and with a squeeze of Buffy’s
arm headed towards Jade.
Buffy herself had locked eyes with Angel. Waving off a
warrior that had approached her she directed him towards Damon and slowly
walked towards the small group that had not moved much since the barrier had
been let down.
Stopping right in front of Angel she smiled softly up at him.
A smile that he returned even though his heart felt heavy.
Even though she hadn’t said the words yet, deep inside
himself he knew that she wasn’t staying.
With Dawn on one side, Connor on the other he stared down at
her. Fought for composure even as his throat constricted, he struggled to think
of the right words.
The right words to keep her there, with him.
Dawn solved the problem of what to say when she reached out
to touch Buffy’s arm. Probably to reassure herself once again that Buffy was
indeed real and not a figment of an overactive imagination, it also served to
draw Buffy’s eyes momentarily away from Angel. Allowing him to regain his
composure as Buffy drew Dawn into a fierce hug.
“I’m so sorry,” she whispered into her sisters’ ear.
“I know,” Dawn whispered tearfully back.
Pressing a kiss to her cheek she drew away, Buffy focused her
attention once more on Angel even though she continued to clutch one of Dawn’s
hands within her own.
“I can’t stay,” she said softly.
“I know… we still…”
“Need to talk… I know,” turning she made quick eye contact
with Wesley and when he nodded she turned back to them. “We’re staying in LA
right now.”
“How…?” Angel began scowling when Damon appeared out of
nowhere at her side, a heavy vest in one hand and a slip of paper in the other.
He handed the paper to Angel, the vest to Buffy and as she slid it on she
continued.
“The address is on there,” she smiled wistfully. “It’s a
great house… don’t…” she glanced around at those that were circled around
them.
Cordy standing next to Gunn.
Willow clutching at Giles arm as she watched with
apprehension.
Faith, Spike and Hallie sitting on the stairs, all trying to
send off airs of detachment that they didn’t quite manage.
She could not handle
having everyone in her home at once.
She would definitely go insane.
“Don’t bring everyone,” she muttered. “Just you, Dawn… Giles
for now.”
“I’d like to bring Connor,” Angel said glancing over at his
silent awestruck son. “If you don’t mind of course.”
Buffy followed his gaze, cocking her head to one side as she
studied the boy at his side. Connor fidgeted nervously under her gaze although
his eyes never broke contact with hers. With a sudden nod a brilliant smile creased
her face.
“Okay.”
“Buffy… are you ready?” Wesley called from the door. Jade at
his side he had an expression of impatience on his face… although it didn’t
show in his voice.
“I’ve…”
“Got to go… yeah,” Angel touched her cheek gently before drawing
her impulsively into a hug. After a second she wrapped her arms around him
resting her head against his chest.
“I missed you,” she said so softly he barely heard her.
Probably wouldn’t have if he had been human.
“I missed you to,” he pressed a soft kiss to her cheek before
releasing her.
“I’ll see you tomorrow then?” she said backing away. Behind
her Damon and Jade were exiting the building; only Wesley remained within its
confines watching the proceedings with interest… even though there was not a
hint of recognition on his features.
“Tomorrow,” he promised. With a grin she turned on her heel,
surprising him only silently when she whirled back around. With an ease of
movement that he didn’t ever recall her having before she wrapped her arms around
him again in a fierce hug. Drawing away she pressed a quick, hard kiss to his
lips before once again whirling away.
“Be careful,” he called after her.
“Always,” she grinned back at him, Wesley nodded at them as
she joined his side. Walking side by side out of the building.
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He’d been unable to wait to see her so they had taken his
car.
Protected against the sun that blared brightly in the sky by
a spell that
He’d been terrified before they’d gotten there as well.
Although that had been for a decidedly different reason.
Fear that she might have died in the battle that he had left
his arms to go wage had tormented his waking hours since she had left him.
He’d been unable to sleep, unable to even rest. And he’d know
that he wouldn’t be able to until he saw with his own two eyes that she was
unharmed.
That she was alive and that she remembered him.
He’d felt a measure of relief as he felt her presence within
the house as they’d approached it. It had so overwhelmed him that he’d had to pull the car over to collect
himself.
It was either that or run into the telephone pole.
Of course once he’d felt the relief that her continued
aliveness brought then the terror that she might no longer love him had started
building within him.
She had hugged him, had kissed him, had confessed her love to
him the night before. But did she really feel the emotions that he did or had
it been the heat of the moment?
Had she already moved on, without her memories there would
have been nothing stopping her from pursuing a relationship with the young man
that had fought by her side.
Damon… his lips curled back in a silent snarl. He didn’t think he could go on if she told
him that she’d moved on to the young warrior.
So here he sat, hunkered over the steering wheel, a short
distance down the street from the address that Buffy had given him.
Sitting next to him Giles alternately cast curious glances at
him and impatient looks at his watch as he waited for Angel to drive the short
distance to the gate that they could see from
the road.
In the back seat the teens were impatiently tapping fingers
against the seat. The sound of their nails on the leather would have been
annoying if he’d had any thought space left. But his entire being was consumed
with thoughts of his mate and left no room to worry about his companions.
Dawn craned her neck slightly to see if she could see the
house that Buffy now lived in through the trees and high brick wall that
surrounded it.
She could barely make out the tip of it over the obstructions
and was close to unleashing her fury at being forced to wait to see her sister by smashing the window she was looking out
and crawling out of the car that way.
The gate was so close, Buffy was so close that she could taste
it and she had no problem walking from the car to the gate. She knew that Giles
and Connor would be right beside her… of course Angel would have to wait in the
car unless he wanted to do his impression of a flaming vampire.
Kicking the back of Giles’ seat earned her a glare which she
disarmed by smiling sweetly at him, sparing a glare at Connor when he
snickered, she jerked her head at the unmoving vampire not bothering to hide
the impatience on her face.
Giles gave a long suffering sigh and finally broke the
silence of the car.
“Angel?”
“Hmm?” Angel murmured noncommittally.
“Are you planning on driving up to the gate or do you want us
to walk?”
“What?” Angel glanced over at him an expression of confusion
on his face.
“We’ve been sitting here for ten minutes dad,” Connor said
quietly. “Are we going to go up the gate or are we coming back later.”
“Later? Why would we come back later?”
“Because you obviously aren’t ready for this… maybe you
should just drop us off and come back at sunset,” Dawn offered.
“No! No,” Angel cleared his throat. Straightening his spine
he shifted slightly in his seat all three humans holding their breaths when he
put the car in gear, only to groan in unison when he put it back in part.
“Angel!” Dawn cried. “I’d like to see my sister while I’m
still young!”
“I… what if she doesn’t want to see me?” he asked quietly.
His voice soft all three could hear the hint of worry.
“What are you talking about?” Giles twisted in his seat to
face the disturbed vampire. Out of the corner of his eye he could see the same
confusion as he was feeling on Connor and Dawn’s faces. “She invited you Angel…
why would she not want to see you?”
“Well it was… you know the heat of the moment, big battle…
plus there’s still a lot of things she doesn’t know,” Angel murmured catching
his sons eyes in the rear view mirror.
“You mean me,” Connor said softly.
“You… and then there’s Wesley… I mean… he’s not dead obviously,
but aren’t you just a bit curious as to why he was chosen to be their Watcher
instead of you.”
“I like to think that it was because her family would need
me.”
“So are we going?” Dawn leaned over the seat. “Because if
we’re not let me out, I can walk it.”
“No we’re going,” Angel stated. “Hope she’s ready for us,” he
mumbled as he once more put the car in drive and slowly moved forward. Swinging
it into the short space between the gate and the road he glanced anxiously in
his mirror before inching forward just a bit more to allow the car to be
covered by the trees lining the area.
Slowly rolling down the window everyone held their breath,
releasing it once Angel pushed the button and quickly withdrew into the car…
thankfully not on fire.
“Please state your name and the nature of your business,” a
metallic voice came across the small box.
“Angel… we… we have an appointment with Buffy,” Angel said
carefully, exchanging a look with Giles he tapped his fingers against the
steering wheel as they waited.
“Please pull through the gate, the second garage is open for
your use and someone will meet you there. Have a nice day.”
“Thank you,” Angel breathed a non-existent sigh of relief as
the gate slowly opened in front of them. Rolling the window back up he pulled
through, glancing in the rear view mirror he saw the gate slowly closing behind
them as soon as they were through.
Navigating the long, curved driveway carefully he smiled as
he saw the second garage open and empty, ready for their use.
At least someone had remembered that he was a vampire, then
he frowned. How had they known that they would come when it was still light out
and he would need the protection?
Buffy would have known that he couldn’t wait.
Of course she wouldn’t have been able to either.
When she had come back from the dead the second time he had
done the same thing, leaving while the sun was still high in the sky to meet
her halfway. Both arriving within moments of each other.
And although that meeting had not gone exactly as he had
envisioned it had been enough to know that she was alive in Sunnydale… if not
well.
He’d never thought that it would be over two years before he
would see her again.
Abandoning that depressing thought for the moment he pulled
the car in, shutting it off he was not surprised to see the door close as soon
as the car was stopped.
She had invited them here. She hadn’t had to… she could have
come back to the Hyperion to see everyone.
But she had invited them to her home. That had to count for
something.
That had to mean that she wanted
to see them. Hopefully as much as they wanted to see her.
“She knew you’d be here early,” Jade grinned as she met them
at the stairs that he imagined led into the house. “Come on in… we haven’t
eaten yet are you guys hungry?”
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Damon leaned against the door staring at his best friend… the
one who was currently staring at her closet
with a slightly panicked expression on her face.
“Jade just called up to say that they’re here,” he stated
with a smirk.
“I know… he’s been here for a while,” she said absently as
she moved forward rifling quickly through the clothes in her closet once more.
“You looking for something in particular babe?”
“Something to wear… and don’t call me babe,” she murmured,
pulling out a jumper she held it up to herself, shook her head and returned it
to the closets depths.
“What’s wrong with what you have on?” Damon queried as he
walked into the room. Standing beside her he cocked his head as he studied the
closet.
Like most females closets it was full of clothes… not as full
as Jades but Buffy wasn’t nearly the
clothes horse that their fellow warrior was.
“This… ? You can’t be
serious! I can’t see Angel for the first time in over two years wearing this!” Buffy grumbled in exasperation.
“What’s wrong with what you have on?” he asked studying her
carefully. She was dressed as she normally would be.
Black jeans, black T-shirt, her black combat boots.
“I look like I’m brooding… or depressed!” Buffy rolled her
eyes at him. “I can’t see Angel looking like I’m ready to slit my wrists or
something!”
“I really don’t think he should be the one throwing stones… I
mean did you see what he was wearing
last night?”
“Yeah buts he brooding, dark vampire guy… I’m not.”
“So pick something else,” he shrugged. He didn’t really get
what the problem was evidently from the look she shot at him. If she could
cause someone to spontaneously combust just by glaring at him he would be a
pile of ashes in the middle of her bedroom.
“I don’t have
anything else.”
“Uh babe… what are you talking about?” Damon glanced between
her and the full closet in front of her. “Can you not see all the clothes in your closet right now?”
“But they’re all fighty clothes… I mean I don’t even own a dress… or a skirt… or even a pair
of pants that aren’t black.”
“Well you could always go down and see him naked… I’m pretty
sure that would make him happy…”
“And cause Giles to have a heart attack and drop dead… oh god
Giles!”
“What about him?”
“Wesley’s my watcher now…”
“Yeah… and…?”
“Giles is so not going
to understand… he and Wesley they… well they didn’t always see eye to eye back
then. Hell Wesley and I didn’t always see eye to eye back then…”
“Hate to say it babe but not much has changed… you guys still
don’t always see eye to eye.”
“Yeah but at least we get along now…”
“Look…” Damon started turning her to him he rested his hands
on her shoulders staring intently at her. “Just take a deep breath…” he
started, when she did letting it out slowly he smiled and hugged her. “They’re
not here to see your clothes… they’re here to see you. I don’t think they’ll care what you’re wearing when you go
down those stairs.”
“They’re so used to seeing me a certain way.”
“Well they’ll just have to get used to the new you… and
remember… regardless of what they think we’ll always be here for you.”
“I know.”
“Good… Feel better now?”
“Not really but…” she smiled as she hugged him back. Stepping
back she rested her hands on her hips and stared at him.
“Well at least you’re not flipping out anymore,” he shrugged.
“Now dig out something to wear unless
you really do want to see your guests naked. You’re going to be fine… Wesley’s
going to be fine… we’re all going to be fine…”
“Thanks Damon…”
“Here to help,” he grinned heading for the direction.
“Hey Damon?” she called after him.
“Yeah?” he asked turning back to her.
“Don’t call me babe, or sweetheart or any of those cutsie
terms that you use to annoy the hell out of me… Angel’s sort of possessive.”
“Yeah,” he winked at her, grinning impishly. “Kind of got
that impression last night… See you downstairs.”
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Angel shifted on his feet as he watched the others chat
amicably with Jade. She’d tried to
include him in the conversation but had given up when she had determined that
his attention was elsewhere.
He could feel her within the house. Her presence comforting
him in a way that he hadn’t felt in a long, long time. Not since he had walked
away from Sunnydale and her in order to give her the normal life that he
thought that she had needed. One that he couldn’t be a part of because of who
and what he was.
He hadn’t wanted to hold her in the dark when she should be
standing, brilliantly in the light. If he’d known the truth… known that she
would never be able to escape her destiny, her calling he would never have
left.
He would have stayed by her side until he was dust in the
breeze.
“Where is she?” Jade’s voice pulled him from his inner
thoughts surprise startling him as he realized that he had never even sensed
Damon’s arrival.
“She’s staring at her closet…” Damon grinned sauntering into
the room. His eyes flicked over the occupants, sparing a wink for Jade he
blatantly studied each one of them his eyes finally settling on Angel.
“Behave Damon,” Jade admonished smacking him in the back of
the head.
“Just checking him out,” he muttered as he rubbed at the back
of his head.
“Buffy knows what she’s doing.”
Damon snorted as he settled himself in one of the chairs.
“Where’s Wes and Colin?” he asked glancing around the room. “Would have thought
that they’d want to be here for this… I mean this involves all of us.”
“Colin’s at the compound doing dispositions to get us
replacement weapons for the ones that got trashed last night… Wes was debriefing
the last team I think… he looked totally whipped when I saw him he probably
crashed as soon as they were done.”
“No actually I decided I was more hungry then tired,” Wes
stated as he walked into the room a sandwich in one hand, clothed in jeans and
a T-shirt he looked relaxed if not tired. “I see you all made it okay,” he
commented as he glanced around the room, frowning when he realized that the
reason that they were all here was not present. “Buffy?” he asked.
“Right here,” came the low soft voice behind them.
Angel grinned as he saw her, his whole body seeming to drown
in the sensation of her presence. Plus she looked as beautiful as he’d ever
seen her.
“Isn’t that…?” Damon started stopping to glare at Jade when
she smacked him upside the head again. “Would you stop doing that?!”
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Wearing what she hoped was a serene smile she floated into
the room. When Damon had left her she had been so close to just wearing her
normal attire, she had just been closing the door when she’d seen the small
brown box lying on the floor in the corner of her closet.
With a touch she had remembered what it was. The clothes that
she had worn the day that she and the others had become Indaran. Whistler, even
as he complained the whole time, had been kind enough to stop at one of the
small outlet stores in order for her to change out of the blood spattered
clothes.
She hadn’t wanted to start her new life with the blood of her
old one on her body.
So she’d worn cream colored jeans, a white halter top and
sandals that day. And it seemed only fitting that those be the clothes that she
wore when her old life and new life finally merged into one life.
Stopping in front of Angel she smiled softly up at him, her
hands clenched together so he wouldn’t see her shaking.
The last she had heard of him, before hell had broken loose
in Sunnydale he had been embarking on a relationship with Cordy. Xander had
told her that it had been a spell, a test. But she still worried that he was
here because of some misguided sense of responsibility.
“Hi,” she said quietly. In her stomach the butterflies were
fluttering up a furious storm and she moistened her lips nervously with the tip
of her tongue.
He stared down at her, her nervousness growing as her
remained silent. She was just about to turn away from him a focus her attention
on the two that were anxiously awaiting her acknowledgement, had actually made
the first small movement when she felt one of his hands lay over hers gently.
A whisper of a touch she glanced down at their hands quickly
before meeting his eyes in confusion. Tilting his head he studied her, his eyes
tracking a path from the top of her head to the tips of the toes that she had painted
a pale pink that morning.
But he still made no move to say anything.
Maybe he saw the tears starting to fill her eyes, maybe he
could feel her apprehension but a smile crossed his face so suddenly that her
eyes widened in shock and then he crushed her into a bone crushing hug. She
could feel him trembling against her as he clutched her to him, as if he was
afraid she might try to escape him…or leave him.
She could feel his nervousness… he had been as scared as she
was about this second meeting. Afraid that she would turn away from in disgust
or anger. His desperation to have her accept him back into her life was the
same desperation that she knew he could feel from her to have the same.
She had left them all. Had made the choice and forgotten them…
even him.
But as stood there holding her, his trembling abating as she
wrapped her arms around him tightly in return. Resting her head in her spot, the place she had always
rested it when they were together she knew that regardless of what everyone else
did Angel would always accept her.
Would always love her.
Wordless tears streaked down her face as they rocked
slightly, his arms tightening even further when he felt her breathing hitch and
he realized she was crying. Her head buried in his chest he rested his cheek
against her hair, inhaling her scent deeply, amazed that it was still the same.
Vanilla and sunlight.
Two smells that he would never get tired of. Even long after
he was dust he would remember the way she smelled, the way she felt in his
arms.
Tears filled his eyes as he sent a silent prayer to whatever
deity was listening to let that be a long time in coming. To let them have just
a little bit of time together.
With their families.
“I missed you,” he whispered into her ear, holding her
somewhat desperately as he realized that his prayed might not be answered. “I
missed you so much.”
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Buffy stared at the silent vampire sitting in her garden. She’d
finished talking with Dawn about 30 minutes earlier then had made a frantic
search of the house as she realized that the sun was setting.
There was something she desperately wanted Angel to see…
desperately wanted to share with him.
But it seemed that he’d already figured it out for himself.
“It’s beautiful isn’t it?” she asked softly leaning over his
shoulder. Wrapping her arms around his shoulders she leaned against him
pressing a kiss to his cheek as she felt his hand raise to touch her arms.
“I didn’t believe Jade when she first told me,” he said
somewhat awestruck.
“I knew you would be here as soon as you could manage it.
Jade found the spell a couple of months ago in one of her books, right about
the second time my memories came back. I made a comment that it would have been
nice to have known about it when we were together, that it would have been nice
to see a sunset together,” she whispered, resting her chin on his shoulder.
“She remembered it this morning after we got back… asked me if
I wanted it done then she and a couple of our witches did it.”
Angel tugged on her arm urging her around his body to settle
in his lap. Wrapping his arms back around her he leaned his head against her
shoulder the two watching the sunset in silence.
“I didn’t think a spell like this even existed,” he murmured
when the colors streaking the sky had settled. The sun in bed for another
night, darkness had fallen.
“It only works on small areas,” she said meeting his eyes. “I
asked her to do the garden because it was simple, small…”
“Beautiful…” he finished with a smile. “It’s been a long time
since I’ve seen a sunset.”
“Around four years it would be… right?” she asked quietly.
She could feel his stunned fear in the way his entire body tensed.
“How…?” he shook his head. She shouldn’t remember… ever. It
had been the price he’d had to pay in order to be returned to his vampire self
when he gave up his humanity to save her.
“Didn’t Wes explain why my memories kept coming back?” she
faced him her expression one of confusion.
“He did… it didn’t make much sense though.”
She smiled softly as she stood; walking a distance away from
him she stared at the skyline of the city. Out there, in the dark, the creatures
of the night… the ones that she fought were coming out of their homes rested
and ready for a fight.
But in this garden… turning back to him she crossed her arms
over her chest as she planted her feet firmly a mixture of determination and
sadness on her face and he closed his eyes, trying to block out the sight of
betrayal that he knew would be the next to cross her expressive face.
“You gave it up for me,” she started softly. “I would have
loved you in whatever form… vampire, human… I just wanted you with me. It
didn’t matter to me if you were strong or not… Xander,
“I would have been a liability to you,” Angel muttered
weakly. “I told you back then…”
“You told me that I took chances to protect you…”
“Yes.”
“You don’t think I didn’t take the same chances whenever the
others went on patrol with me. That last year in Sunnydale I took Dawn
patrolling with me, often as not I ended up protecting her… but it was worth it
to have her there… it would have been worth it to have you there.”
“I’m sorry… if I had it to do over again…”
“You wouldn’t change a thing… you might have fought a bit
harder to keep me but…”
Bowing his head he clenched his hands together in his lap.
Any moment now he expected to feel a blow from her small hands when it didn’t
come he opened his eyes to find her staring at him her eyes glistening with
tears that didn’t fall and a small smile on her face.
Clearing his throat he took an unneeded breath. “How did you
find out about that? I’m supposed to be the only one that remembers.”
“This mark,” she started her fingers touching the bite mark
on her neck. His mark, the one that
proclaimed her as his. “It marks me as your mate…”
“I know.”
“It links us… when Whistler offered me Indaran it was because
they thought the link between us was so weak that it would be of no
consequence. Besides I was… well I was a mess, I had been for a while. Xander
dieing was just the straw that broke the camels back. When he offered me a
memory free existence, told me that everyone would be taken care of I jumped at
it.
“I didn’t…”
“But I thought you had… everything we heard in Sunnydale
indicated that you were with Cordelia… we didn’t know that it was a spell, a test.
Then when you didn’t come when I called to ask you for help with Anya…” Buffy
looked away, her eyes far away as images from the past, from that hellacious
day ran through her mind.
“Anyway… they did the wipes… but they didn’t work on me. My
memories kept coming back, dreams, images… I’d remember you, Dawn, Connor,” her
brow wrinkled as she said the boys’ name, she had no idea why a boy that she
had never met would continually be remembered before her best friend, before
the man she considered her father. “Then I’d remember everyone else, eventually
Whistler would show up, or Wes would call him and they’d do another wipe…
Whistler, he told me that the reason I kept remembering was because of you… as
long as you walked the earth, as long as you remembered I would remember.”
“That doesn’t explain how you know about that day… I’m the only one who…”
“I remember that
day,” she stated softly as she walked forward. Stopping right in front of him
she cupped his cheeks, holding him still for a chaste kiss. “Because you remember that day. I remember every
moment of that day; I remember the feeling of your heart beating under my hand,
the way it sounded when I pressed my ear to your chest. I remember the way you
felt,” she smiled as she caressed his cheek softly.
“The way you smelled,” pressing her face against his she
inhaled deeply, closing her eyes as his familiar scent, the hint of sandalwood
raced through her.
“The way you tasted,” she leaned in close, her tongue tracing
his lips before a groan escaped him and his arms snaked around her. Spreading
his legs he pulled her as close to him as he could get her, kissing her with
all the pent-up passion in body.
With a sigh she drew away, a small kiss to his nose as he
relaxed a bit. There wouldn’t be a fight he had finally realized, as loathe as
she was to admit it she did understand his reasoning’s behind his decision
besides… and if worse came to worse they could always find another Mohra demon.
“Your memories of us,” she continued her voice husky, her
eyes still darkened with passion from the kiss before. “They fed my memories of
us; it your memories didn’t care that I wasn’t supposed to remember that day
you remember that day that we were together so I remember that day that we were
together. Those memories allowed my memories of the rest of my life to make
their way through the wipe. This last time the powers decided to let the cards
fall where they may.”
“They’re going to let us be together.”
“Whistler told Wesley that things had to happen in a
particular order, that’s why they did the last wipe that they did. The one that
hindered my memories so that I probably scarred Dawn and Connor for life when I
didn’t remember them… although,” she frowned again at the thought of Connor.
“Why I would remember your son anyway I don’t know… I never met him before
yesterday.”
Angel cleared his throat as it was his turn to look away
again.
The moment of truth had arrived it seemed.
Both Dawn and Connor had insisted that he tell Buffy as soon
as possible.
Even Giles had jumped in and told him that she had a right to
know that she was a mother… to a twenty year old that she didn’t even give
birth to.
“Angel?”
“There’s something I need to tell you about Connor…” he
started.
There’s
something you need to know… about Dawn. The flash of those words took her
by surprise and she jumped slightly as he coaxed her into sitting in his lap
once more.
“He’s not a ball of energy made human is he? Because you know
that didn’t work out so well for me last time…what with the God trying to
pretty much suck the world into hell and kill my sister, plus there was the
whole dying thing…”
“He’s not a ball of energy love,” Angel smiled at her
rambling and the slightly panicked expression on her face. Sometime she was
just so adorable.
“Then what is it?”
“Connor is,” he cleared his throat again. Willow had told him
to just tell her, no beating around the bush, no hinting and letting her draw
her own conclusions… just to be honest and tell her the truth.
“Angel you’re scaring me,” she whispered apprehension causing
her to stiffen in his lap.
“I’m sorry,” he apologized quickly squeezing her lightly.
“It’s just I’m trying to figure out how to tell you this and every scenario in
my head has you pulling a stake and dusting me.”
“No stake,” she held up her hands. “You’re safe… now quit
stalling, what’s up with Connor.”
“Connor’s our son.”
“Eh?”
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