CHAPTER 8: Gettin' Personal
"You're insane Lorr." Matt said.
"I know, but WE ALL ARE." Lori said shrugging her shoulders. She smiled at him. "Then will come a day when the world stops turning
And stars will fall grow the sky
But this feeling will last
When the suns start burning
But all I wanna do is love you
Until the end of time." she said in a sing-song voice.
"I'm just a girl with a crush on you
Don't care about money
It doesn't give me half the thrill
To the thought of you, honey
So tell me that you want me still
If only I could trade the fancy cars
For a chance today, it's incomparable
I might be sitting with the movie stars
Everybody say that I have it all
But I can't make you love me." she said in a sing- song voice.
*Note*: When Lori sings it's a sing song voice. She doesn't really sing. She thinks she doesn't have a good enough voice *
"What the hell are you singing?" Matt asked looking at her.
"A song that Britney sings." Lori replied without any hesitation. "Problem?" she raised her eyebrow at him then lowered it.
"No. I just...what you're singing...there's something about it." Matt said.
"I may never get to hold you so tight
I may never get to kiss you goodnight
I may never get to look deep in your eyes
Or so it seems
I always will be wishing you were mine
I think about what could be all the time
All the happiness that I could find
Baby a girl can dream
From the moment I wake up
'Til I fall asleep
I imagine you not with her but with me
Talkin' and laughin'
Sharin' our dreams
It's just a fantasy
Cuz you had somebody else
Cuz these feelings I keep to myself." she sang. "Baby I'll give you the best I've got
If that's not enough than I don't know what
To be complicated's the hardest to do
I'm simply in love with you
Run to me baby and hold out your hand
I'll give you more love than one guy can stand
Whatever you want baby that's what I'll do
I'm simply in love with you."
"Girl you need help." Greg teased her.
"I don't need help. What I need is a boyfriend." she corrected him.
"Listen to what she's singing Greg. It's like...I dunno." Matt's voice drifted off. He turned his head and looked out the window.
"I've been waiting
Watching you from a distance baby
Thinkin', wonderin'
If you're gonna be here with me
You're on my mind baby all the time
I hope someday you will realize that
Sooner or later
You're gonna be mine
I want you forever
I can't stop now
I wish you could love me
The way I love you
But sooner or later
I will get to you." Her voice drifted off then she started singing all over again. "You don't know what you're doin' to me
Got me feelin' so good from my head to my feet
Keep it right there baby, baby bring the heat
You don't know what you're doin' to me
Everytime I see you boy, you look so fine
And the way that you smile you blow my mind
I'm kinda crazy when it comes to you (you you you you)
If I had a dollar for my butterflies
I'd be a millionaire with you by my side
But I'm so afraid of you rejecting me
So I just dream."
She stopped singing then she thought for a minute. "If you only knew what I feel for you
If you�d only see what you mean to me
If you�d only hear how much I care
You�d know what�s goin� on inside my head."
"Boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been doin silly things when it comes to you
I think I'm in love
Boy I think I'm in love with you
I've been tellin all my friends what I feel for you." Her voice came back. "It don't matter that your car is fly
And your rims are spinning on the side and
It don't matter where we go tonight
Cause if I'm with you I'll be alright.
That's cool but I'm lookin for more
Its your love that my heart beats for.
Cause thats me
Don't have to spend a dime
Baby
I just want your time."
"What are you singing now?" Matt asked looking back at her.
"Hmm....Jessica Simpson then JoJo." Lori replied. "I'm not your every day, around the way
Don't go bar-hoppin', chillin' on the block
On a cell phone frontin',
Never that, cuz I'm not that kinda girl
I need to know how you roll
And how you get down low
Drop my money in the bank
Take me home and meet your mama
Can you handle that?
Cuz I'm that kinda girl
I'm that kinda girl." she said.
Matt stared at her for the longest time before looking away. He continued to stare out the window. A strange feeling came over him. He knew that she was singing those songs for a reason; he just didn't know why.
"Boy you aint impressin' me
With your jewelry, your designer clothes
Or the games that you try to play
Think you need to know, I got my own
Dont need you for your dough
Hearin' me, maybe then we can flow, let me know
Make me smile, maybe we can chill
Keep it real, show me something I can feel
Cause I'm not your average ordinary type
Could you be that kinda guy I like?" she said.
"You walk by and my heart beats
A thousand times at once it seems
And every time you look at me
I have to tell myself to breathe
With just a smile you capture me, and I start to melt
Emotions then take over me like I've never felt
I could tell my heart each time
It isn't love, you're just some guy
There's nothing there and what I feel
Is in my head, it isn't real
But I can't deny, can't even try
Cause I know inside, butterflies don't lie
Is there a chance you could be mine
If I let you see inside
Or do you love somebody else
Should I keep this to myself
I could risk a broken heart by telling you the truth
Or I could keep my secret safe and when I see you
I could tell me heart each time
It isn't love, you're just some guy
There's nothing there and what I feel
Is in my head, it isn't real
But I can't deny, can't even try
Cause I know inside, butterflies don't lie
Once again there you are
Anxiousness, nervous heart
Butterflies fluttering
Can only mean one thing
I could tell me heart each time
It isn't love, you're just some guy
There's nothing there and what I feel
Is in my head, it isn't real
But I can't deny, can't even try
Cause I know inside, butterflies don't lie."
"I love ya too much
I love ya just the way you are
And I love ya too much
To ever let you down
And I love ya too much
You know I wanna wrap my heart around you
Love ya too much
To ever let you go."
Her voice made Matt turn around to look at her again, but immediately looked away with this look on his face. Lori stared at him for a few minutes then started all over again. "I don�t like anyone, the way I like you...." her voice trailed off, but came back, "It�s not as if I�m hard to please
You�re the only one good enough for me
Those others just won�t do
I don�t like anyone but you."
"If I was your girlfriend
I know I could treat you right
I could see what you see
And hear what you hear
And most of all
I'd feel what you feel."
Lori knew she was being a little weird, but she didn't care. She just wanted to have a good time. Matt was acting weird though. He didn't say anything for almost 20 minutes. Every once in a while he would look back at her, but he'd end up looking away afterwards. He rested his chin in his hand and rested his head against the window, listening to her sweet, angelic voice. Greg turned off the radio and looked over at Matt, who still was looking out the window.
"You OK dude?" he asked sounding worried.
Matt jumped and looked over at him. "Huh? What?"
"Are you OK?" Greg repeated.
"I'm just...listening to her voice." Matt said dazed.
"Oooh. Somebody has a crush." Greg teased.
"I'm listening to what she's singing. It's just...gettin' to me." Matt told him.
"Mr. Shy Guy, Mr. Nice Guy (Shy Guy)
What am I to do?
Wanna tell you all my secrets
I wanna be with you (I wanna be with you)
Mr. Shy Guy, Mr. My Guy,
Would you believe I gotta crush
So huge (so huge), Shy Guy
On you."
Her voice drifted throughout the vehicle. Greg continued to drive as he listened to what she was singing. "Shy guy, you know who you are." she said. "You know I really wanna be with you."
"No one loves you like I love you
No one needs you the way I do." she sang.
"Victoria's Secret, well their stuff's real nice
But I can buy the same damn thing on a Wal-Mart shelf half price
And still look sexy, just as sexy as those models on TV
No, I don't need no designer tag to make my man want me
Well, you might think I'm trashy, a little too hardcore
But in my neck of the woods I'm just the girl next door
I'm a redneck woman
I ain't no high class broad
.............................I may not be a ten but the boys say i clean up good
And if i gave em half a chance for some rowsy romance you know they would
Ive been waiting all week just to have a good time
So bring on them cowboys and their pick up lines
...................................................Nothing but pennies in my pocket
Nothing but faith to keep me warm
But, baby, then I�d be broke without it
Tell me, how much for your love....................Ooh, I wish i could tell somebody
But there's no one to talk to, nobody knows
I've got a crush on you
A crush on you, I got a crush
You say everything that no one says
But i feel everything that you're afraid to feel
I will always want you, I will always love you
I've got a crush......It only took a minute, to let you in my life
It only took a minute, for me to realize
It only took a minute, and i knew just what to do
It only took a minute to fall in love with you...................some boys want pretty toys
but i'm so much more
can't you see that i'm a girl you can trust?
get real with how you feel
around my back door
is this love or is it only a crush?
listen up boy
(watcha gonna do?)
(watcha gonna do?)
and stop talking smack now
back it up boy
(watcha gonna do?)
(watcha gonna do?)
or step off that track now
what you want, i can be
i'm the girl of your fantasy
as long as you love me
what you want, i can do
but all i ask of you
is that baby you love me..........It�s gonna be Love
It�s gonna be great
It�s gonna be more then I can take
It�s gonna be free
It�s gonna be real
It�s gonna change everything I feel
It�s gonna be sad
It�s gonna be true
It�s gonna be me baby
It�s gonna be you baby
It�s gonna be...Its gonna be Love.............So I'll hold you tonight like I would if you were mine
To hold forever more
And I'll savor each touch that I wanted so much
To feel before
To feel before
How beautiful it is
Just to be like this
I wanna be with you
If only for a night
To be the one who's in your arms, who holds you tight
I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way..............You think you gotta keep me iced
You don't
You think I'm gonna spend your cash
I won't
Even if you were broke
My love don't cost a thing
Think I wanna drive your Benz
I don't
If I wanna floss I got my own
Even if you were broke
My love don't cost a thing."
She stopped singing and looked out the window, which made Matt turn around and look at her. When she realized she was being stared at she turned her head to see Matt looking at her. "What?" she asked sweetly, but not in that annoying, fake way.
"Why'd you stop?" he asked.
"I was going on and on. I didn't wanna annoy the shit out of you guys." she said. "I just...I dunno. I had to express myself and I did. Now I'm done. My throat's starting to hurt, too."
"You were expressing yourself?" He continued to look at her.
"Yeah...I was expressing myself." Lorr said simply. She looked at him and said, "I'm done expressing myself though."
"You seem to have a lot to say. I doubt you're done expressing yourself." Matt told her.
"OK. I'm not exactly done expressing myself." she admitted. "I just...I don't wanna bore you guys."
"You're not boring us. If you were we'd tell you to shut the hell up." Matt said trying to make a joke out of the situation.
"Thanks for being honest." She giggled.
"You don't have to shut up. I lik--I liked...I dunno....it was nice hearing your voice." Matt blurted out.
Matt blushed and Lori stared at him in complete shock. He turned around once again and looked out the window. Lori rested her head against the seat and said, "There's something about me
That you don't know about
I'm someone that somehow
You seem to be without
Is it so hard to see
That I'm not invisible?
Feel like a fly on the wall....So if I get a little crazy
Look a little spacey
Blowing kisses your way
Will you think I'm OK?
Set the sun on fire
Scream a little higher
Hold you in the moonlight
I say yeah if you say alright....I might not be special
Not like your supergirl
But living and loving
Well that I super-can
It's not so complicated
Not reinvent the wheel
Just let me know how you feel......So if I get a little crazy
Look a little spacey
Blowing kisses your way
Will you think I'm OK?
Set the sun on fire
Scream a little higher
Hold you in the moonlight
I say yeah if you say alright."
She sang a different song, "Late at night, awake and alone
I count the stars in the sky
Every cloud that rolls by
and I think of you, I whisper, I wish
With everything that I am
I'll do all that I can
'Cause baby I, I just want you to see
That baby you mean the whole world to me
[Chorus]
It's so right
When I see the love in your eyes
All that I wanna do
Baby is to spend my life with you
and I know
As long as there is tomorrow
I'll be loving you right from the start
With all my heart
I can't believe what's happened to me
You stepped right out of my dream
Like nothing I'd ever seen
And I will love you...for the rest of my life
'til forever is gone
You'll be the one
Woh-Oh, 'Cause baby I (Baby I, Baby I...) never thought I would say
That baby you (Baby You) are my night and my day
It's so right
When I see the love in your eyes
All that I wanna do
Baby is to spend my life with you
and I know
As long as there is tomorrow
I'll be loving you right from the start
With all my heart
Woh-Oh-Oh, I know I'll be strong (I'll be strong, I'll be strong, baby)
With you in my arms (I want you in my arms)
Heaven brought us here together
We belong like this forever.
It's so right
When I see the love in your eyes
All that I wanna do
Baby is to spend my life with you
and I know
As long as there is tomorrow
I'll be loving you right from the start (With all my heart)
It's so right
When I see the love in your eyes
All that I wanna do
Baby is to spend my life with you
And I know
As long as there is tomorrow
I'll be loving you right from the start
With all my heart
(With all my heart, With all my heart)
Wo-oh-oh, With all my heart."
Chapter 9