12/11/2002
I'm a prisoner of my heart
whymust my heart control me?
why cant i love whom I should?
my heart only allows me to love certain people
I find that my heart has imprisoned me to people who
leave, people who decide they do not want me,
and now my heart is set on you...
Can things ever turn out right??
for now you are making a decision....
one i fear will end this love
I watch helplessly from my cell
as the hands of time turn... and pray
that for once my heart has fallen for someone
who will return to me, so i can continue to belong to someone
and be someones beloved.
Something Higher
12/29/2002
I feel like such a fool!!
Why did I believe someone could really love me??
Why was I so stupid, so blind?
As I look into the darkness of grief that lies ahead of me,
I realize now that I must not believe someone,
when they say they are in love with me,
for I have found that it is impossible.
Why am I so easy to fall out of love with??
Why do I continue to hope that someday, someone will come
along who will be in love with me forever, and for all eternity?
All I seem to be good for is friendship, and nothing more.
So why can't I let go of that hope,
why can't I let that light burn out?
Because Something Higher tells me not to.
Something Higher tells me someday he will come,
the lover that my soul longs for.
My faith in Something Higher gives me all the hope I need.
For my hearts desire is to be in true love, and that Something Higher gives you your heart's desires.
So I know that someday, I will find my true love.
Because Something Higher tells me so.
