| blogger's conformity 10.24.02 |
| 10.21.02 3:00 p.m. Have BSF meeting tonight with new discussion group leader. Think that main teaching leader talks kind of funny because she says "mm-hhmm" after her sentences, but that noise is usually reserved for agreeing with someone you are speaking with. 8:30 p.m. Not sure if I am talking too fast in my discussion group. Being the only native English speaker, I feel that I need to monitor my vocab and speed of speech so that others can understand me. 11:30 p.m. C. presents me with cell phone that she has been given as trial for her company. Kind of excited because it has been so long since I have played with a cell phone. It looks a lot like my old one. Everything is in Portuguese and I'm trying to remember where everything is, but then find the option to switch language to English. I miss hearing my "kung-fu fighting" ringing tone. As I hold the phone, I already feel the obligation to always be available now and don't like that feeling. As the "welcome note," instead of "suck the marrow out of life" (like my old phone), I write, "soar run walk renew" based on Isaiah 40:31. 10.22.02 8:30 a.m. E-mails from M. are short this week because he's busy with mid-terms. Disappointed but fully understand. Secretly snicker at how he's as much of a nerd as I am. 11:00 a.m. Trying to stay focused on translating MAPI web site but am hungry. I think we'll be eating out for a whole month while R. is out recovering from surgery. Need to eat less at those per-kilo restaurants. Realize that my plate is heavier than majority of others. 8:00 p.m. Need to get pumped up to work out tonight. Walk to gym, do some cardio before 9 p.m. capoeira class. Do 400 crunches and wonder if I will ever have a 6-pack that shows. At the same time, what is the point? Everyone is training for graduation tests so I just work on some other stuff since I am not being tested. I miss my SF school. Talk with one guy after class who tells me about capoeira store that we can check out one day. Whoo-hoo! Talk with another student while waiting for ride. It's cool how capoeiristas can just talk and talk and talk about capoeira without really knowing one another. 11:00 p.m. C. sets up new sound system. We have music!! 10.23.02 7:00 a.m. Feeling guilty because it was so cold and I was so tired to wake up early for devos, but spend time in prayer to start day. 10:00 a.m. A little frazzled about how to get info from capoeira classmates about Saturday's outing if I can't go to class on Thursday. Hoping that M. will be okay about me going out dancing forr� with the girls and not being able to have our regular talk on Thursday, his b-day, but know that he will be cool with it. Talk to Q. on phone and hear about her capoeira experience. Reminisce about SF school and how they are the best, yet talk about how unfriendly they are compared to other schools. Bittersweet memories. Miss her lots. 1:30 p.m. Have English lesson with MD and try to stay aware of my patience level and trying to remember that serving God means serving others with love and humility. Lesson goes well. I'm impressed at how quickly he grasps concepts. 3:30 p.m. Write up short biography for WCC 2003 handbook. Feels weird writing about myself as "Melody."..."Melody is a Sacramento native..." Makes me sound like a dork. 6:30 p.m. Come back from buying ingredients for lasagna. Resisted buying desserts. Go out for quick jog but get ankle pains and shin splints again. MAN. Make lasagna and it turns out better than Mother's Day attempt. Inspired, I look forward to being a housewife and cooking for husband. Have interesting talk with C. during dinner about work politics and immature managers...reminds me of MB who I hear is starting a new meeting planning magazine. Predict that it will flop. 10:30 p.m. Mom and dad call, mostly talk about Europe trip. Nice to talk to them. Finally get to sleep early. 10.24.02 6:24 a.m. Woken by sound of wind howling through windows. Can't sleep anymore but that's good because I am awake for appointment with God. Good recap of past week's devotionals. Oh and of course, happy 23rd birthday M.!! Makes me feel old when, in 5.5 months, will turn 25 and he will still be 23. But age is nothing but a number. 25 sounds pretty old though. By then, will have been out of college for four years and out of high school for nearly eight...all the while looking like still a sophomore in high school. 10:00 a.m. At work, constantly slapping computer monitor for acting up and getting really annoyed at it. Boss suggests alternating between book transcriptions and web site translating. Feeling dehydrated...boss teases me about how all girls from California carry around big water bottles now, such as my bright green Nalgene one. 10:30 a.m. Feel like should update journal and wonder what it would be like to write it like how everyone else writes their blogs. It's kind of interesting to read everyone else's blogs that are done in this style but then feel kind of pointless when I do it myself. Wonder if anyone really cares what I am doing each day. Then again, I laugh because I know that even with my journal entries, I know I don't get many readers anyway. But with current journal entries, there is a greater chance of having enough book material than if I were to continue in the normal blog manner. 11:11 a.m. Done with fake blog and will resume normal journal-writing style next time. |
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