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It's interesting when your best friends tell you that certain guys don't seem worthwhile for you..."don't waste an ounce of your time on him," they say. Oftentimes, the guy is so busy looking for someone and isn't even too sure of what he wants, but he's not ready to appreciate a post-modern woman. He seeks Ms. Typical Asian. You need someone who will blow your mind...don't settle for the ordinary.

That advice really opened up my mind and reaffirmed my doubts that I was going after something that wasn't right for me. Ironically, I got snail mail from an old friend that I used to write back and forth to. Even after seeing him, I made the conscious decision not to write to him. Good thing I didn't. But his letter really showed me that he has changed...matured and really opened up to opening himself up in the letter. I can't launch back into kiddie crush mode because this guy is really worth my time. His heart for people, ministry, to reach out to the unfortunate, is something that I admire and am inspired by.

Some people have career goals and keep it as that...a career. Some people want to help people in their careers, but when it comes to their lifestyle, you can tell their heart is not really about helping others in their everyday walk. It's only when it comes to studying or working that their brain goes into "help others" mode. Then there are other people, like the writer of the letter, who wants to help people with his career. But in the meantime, in his interactions with strangers, with friends, in his everyday lifestyle, you also see his heart to help others. That is what it's all about.

It's like someone who wants to be an editor but only cares about having proper grammar and spelling when they are being paid for it. What you pursue as a career should be your passion and it should show in the rest of your life. Is that too much to ask? To find others in life who feel passion for their work, for their ministry, for their life?

Last night, I had dinner with Gary and Mandy. So much fun...kind of weird that here I am with Gary, whom I've known since I was 12, and with Mandy, who I met in high school. It was a great time though, and the highlight was our basketball game under the stars in Mandy's backyard. Playing in the dark was half the fun. Hitting Gary in the balls with the basketball was the other half. Nonetheless, Gary whooped us and we took him out for dessert afterward. I realize that I have been neglecting other people in my life the last year or so...old friends, friends that are worth taking time to pursue friendships with...and now it feels like it's too late. But I can't regret. I can only realize and act accordingly. I also got a call from Raadha and an e-mail from Vlady Cakes...and for a second, when they mentioned capoeira class, I had a twinge of sadness. But I realize that in the grand scheme of things, some people will have a more lasting impression on my life, and I'm guessing the people that have been around in my life all these years will continue to be so in the next 10 years or so...and those are the friendships worth spending time on.