My classes are just going to be filled with a lot of reading, both Bible (2001) and Nutrition are heavy with reading but that isn't too hard for me.� I really wasn't looking forward to my Bible class, thinking, hell, I've gone to a Christian school for 15 years now, how can they teach me something that I haven't heard or read already.� But, wow, even on the first day I was amazed.� The teacher talks about studding the Bible not just the way we were taught to see it, but in a new way, using our intellect, our heart/soul,� and our past experiences.� Right form the beginning he told us that he would be saying things that would seem extreme and cause us to question why we believe what we believe, but he asks, no insists that we share our own opinion and challenge him on his, what an awesome teacher!�
On the home-front (ie Dorm) life is going good.� My roommate and I get along pretty well, she's a whole lot more outgoing then Julie was, but in some ways I miss Julie's honesty and consistentness (is that a word?).� Megan is great, she's fun loving, outgoing (and in some ways more outgoing then I am) and absolutely boy crazy, LOL.� I'm just a little worried that I might get put in the position of taking care of her, b/c she seems to have the tendency to act without thinking, and can be really, really vulnerable, but she doesn't even know it.� All my Star Wars/LotR stuff doesn't seem to bother her, I think she even like the Star Wars posters, so that worked out well.�
I'm still not sure how to handle the whole "S" guy thing, it's like I really don't want to be around him, but I have no hard feelings toward him or "H" at all, in fact I love "H" to death, she's one of the few people here that I think I can really trust if I have a problem.�
I think that's what it is with "S", I don't trust him anymore.� Which is really hard for me to admit, because I actually did trust him...no hell didn't freeze over, he worked his way into earning my trust.� Which if you know me, is the one of the hardest things to do.� I don't know why it is, but when it comes to guys, I just really have a problem with trust and any sort of physical contact (even a hug).� But some way he earned it, and I think thats what hurts the most is that he didn't respect me enouph to try and keep my trust, and after what happened last year, I don't think I will be able to trust him again.�
Okay I think that is enough for today.�
Lady Jade