Since the last update our lives have been in a strange up and down motion. We were very worried about the little baby. We heard a few times that he wasn't going to make it. His mother was also going to be induced to have him a few times and we waited and held our breath. Finally after we had given up all hope of getting him and were thinking that he must have been born and no one told us we heard from his mother. She wanted me to go with her to an ultrasound. I was quite surprised and pleased. It was very nice to get to see her. I had met her once or twice before. She seems like a nice lady. I went with her to the ultrasound they wouldn't let me go in with her. Janet seemed pretty shook up when she came out. The baby was said to be only three pounds and needed to come out. They wanted to induce labor soon. We went shopping for baby clothes together. It was fun. I also wanted to be able to remember lots of nice things about Janet so the baby would be able to know about its birthmom. Monday I drove Janet to the hospital so that she could be induced. We chatted for a while then I went home so she could get some rest. I wanted to be at the hospital first thing in the morning. I was supposed to take Cindy with me so it took a while getting the other kids out the door. We went to the hospital. Since labor wasn't going very fast according to Cindy we left she really wanted to work on stuff at her house. I would have stayed all day. I wanted to see the baby get born. I waited all day for a phone call and finally we heard that the baby was born around three pm. And that it was a girl and that she was over 4 pounds. The next day we drove Janet home. The baby had to stay in the hospital being as tiny as she was. Nathaniel and I were able to visit the little baby and hold her for the first time on Friday night. She was so little and only ate a little bit. She nurses were nice. The baby girl was quite healthy for as little as she was. The next Monday we were able to bring her home from the hospital. Our lives have been changed ever since. We are so happy with her. She has been the joy of our lives. My husband loves her so much. I do too but there is something about a father and his little girl.
The Saturday before CJ was born I found out that I was pregnant. This was such a huge shock. I was wondering if I was, because my friends kept telling me that I was. Nathaniel had been wanting me to cut my long hair to at least shoulderlength, so I told him that if he would go to the store and buy the pregnancy test I would cut my hair. We went to Wal-mart and I got my haircut. Then we walked to the section where they sell tests and picked one up. I had to tell Nathaniel what to get. I wanted him to buy it this time since I had all the other times and I think it is embarrassing. I then pretended not to know him. I know that this is quite childish behaviour but it is the truth. I wanted to test that night because my friend Lorie was quite depressed and I wanted to cheer her up. When we got home I took the test while Nathaniel was talking on the phone to his brother Tim. Amazingly the test was positive almost immediately. I went to my friend Lorie's house but she wasn't home. I then went over to Cindy's house. Janet was there and I talked to her. I had mixed feelings on one hand I wanted to tell her that I was pregnant and on the other I didn't. I was happy about the pregnancy but was scared it would stop us from getting the other baby that we had been loving, praying for, and thinking about since October. I also wanted to tell Lorie first so I kept my mouth shut. We did have a good talk about the little boy. I was happy to have spent the time with her. After I left there I went back to Lorie's house. She was home and I told her. She was quite excited. The day that we brought C?J home from the hospital I had a doctor's appointment I was worried that I was losing the baby since I had been bleeding. They got me in for an ultrasound that showed the baby was doing fine. It is still amazing to me that we got blessed with two babies so close together. ?Especially since I thought I was infertile and that adoption was so expensive it was way out of my league. I love them dearly and I will always have a special place in my heart for CJ's mother who didn't abort her and for Cindy and Lorie who helped me get this precious gift.
