Hi, Today for the most part was aweful. First off last night I watched American Beauty plus the news. That was enough to have me up at 4am with bad dreams. On the news a couple was stabbed to death as they slept. Usually I just dream about me being killed but now both of us. No more dream security in thinking that Nathaniel will save me. So I lay there wrestling with the fear. Should I get up and go sleep in the closet so I can have 2 locked doors between me and my imaginary attackers(found out closet doesn't have lock this morning) or just lay there. I always think about that God talks about saving you in times of need. But then I think well He did give me a brain so I can go lock the door. I never want to seem like I doubt Him or anything. So I finally decided to get up and lock the door and get my Bible to sleep with. I finally fell asleep and went to bed. I actually woke up in a good mood.
On the way out the door to go to work I remembered that I needed to call Lifestyle Family Fitness. I had saw that they charged me $38 when I thought my membership was on hold for $6 a month. I wanted to cancel it all. I called up and spoke to Kim she said that My membership is on hold, but I am still paying for Meagan Bird, just great. I had canceled her off my account November 1st. Kim says that they don't have any proof that I canceled in writing and decides that she can't help me any further so I finally say thanks for no help and hang up. I look all over for the fax confirmation. Finally after praying I found it. I had in the mean time called back and talked to Tiffany she said that Kim is the manager and that Kim had put any further billing for Meagan on statement billing. I called Kim back and told her that I found the fax and told her I would fax it to her. She promised to call me back and of course never did. I called back all afternoon and she was unavailable, either at lunch, on the phone, whatever but a man there named Shawn did say that she had my fax on her desk. Tiffany told me numerous times that she had my message. Very, Very Frusterating.
At work we have this set team of people that seem to think that whenever we have a meeting or whatever that it doesn't apply to them. This makes me very upset when I have to deal with it. I may be just a perfectionist or just try to be fair too much but it upsets me. Nathaniel says I'm probably both. We have these sheets that are to be printed out with each loan for checking purposes. I was checking today and since I had nothing to check as is our custom I went to help another team. I took this girl's loan and noticed she hadn't printed the sheet. I went to her and told her I can't check without it and would she print me one. She said "I don't print those, just don't check it." I know this may sound petty but she is a teamleader, supposed to enforce what the managers say to do and she doesn't even do the stuff herself. If I check without the sheet I can be in serious trouble. It is upsetting that she would put some else's job in jeopardy just because she is so stubborn. I just didn't check the loan.
On the way over to pick up Meagan's car tonight. I got to talk to Nathaniel about my now seemingly stupid problems. He is a great listener and was a big help. I was really stressed out and he calmed me down. What a great guy.
My sister Marie called tonight. She just wanted to make sure we were still coming. I guess my Dad is going to stall leaving on a trip so he can see me. That is pretty nice. I can't wait for the trip.
I also got an email from my friend Cori that was really nice, she is still in college. I also heard from Joe our friend from the Marines who is Australia now. I had asked him about Vegemite he says its Very salty. He also said " Heres something weird...here they put peanutbutter on bread...and jelly also...but they will never have them together as a PB&J sandwich!" I sure miss them.
Well thanks to my husband Nathaniel's friend Dave I keep updating this otherwise right now I have to admit I would be in bed hopefully in the sweetbliss of dreamlessness(if that is a word). By the way my dogs are great and so is the cat at helping to relieve stress, but Nathaniel is the best on this earth.
Beth Ann
Very cold out I covered some plants with sheets. I'm not sure if that will help but I always heard you should cover your plants.
