Suprise! I found out last night i'd be going down to florida on saturday. That is less than a week from today, how crazy is this..I said bye to my best friend since kindergarten on saturday morning, that was emotional...and bye to a fab 5 member on friday night (Heta), and then meghan went to mexico this morning, now i am the next one to go. And basically the real first one to leave of the *Perfect 10* girls. Oh, man. I am really gonna miss them. And my neighbor megan and mackenzie leigh pup and the rest of the family. I also spoke with my roomate today and she seems really nice and has an accent..especially when she says coffee...
I swear, i cant get through a day without arguing about something with my mother. Well, geez, what am i supposed to do? I cant help it if i am a little stressed w/ having to pack and everything..oh well, only 5 days left of living at 262 mary drive binghamton ny 13901.. :o(..Im going to really miss this place...well the house is being shown again tomorrow- maybe twice- which means i have to continue to pack and keep my room clean! UG!
Well, i am writing this a month aafter july 13th..its august 13th right now, but i can't help but back up a bit! As i woke up that saturday morning all i could think of was that i am so blessed to have friends that stayed up all night w/ me to watch me pack, bring me a slushee, and most of all go to skate estate to make complete fools of themselves simply- for me. The whole perfect 10, - jess c, went for me plus two of the fab 5, ashley and lourdes, and my pea!(heather). Which made my heart fill up w/ so many mixed feelings because yes they made me so happy that night, but how many times had i been left out by those same people..oh well, forgive and forgeti guess...
Yes, the goodbye that morning was emotional. I cried--hard. I looked at my room, my backyard, my bathroom, my kitchen, everything...knowing. i may never see it as mine. ever again.
Here i sit. wondering about college...will i get lost. will people want to be my friend..will i want to be theres? will i run well? will i gain the freshmen 15..will my grades be ok? will i run out of cash? oh yes..these are the thoughts racing through my head...So much change and the time is FLYING by...
* why's it gotta be so complicated..im so frustrated!!* I miss people at home. I want my mom, dad, and friends..i want to feel complete and i miss singing in church w/ christaline, julie, janine, and paul...and watching justin make faces... I have so many letters to send. .. Oh well, jessica has shingles? thats so sad...poor thing..i have to finish packing now.
i dont know why he did it...i am so upset...and theres no one here that knows who i am talking about...i feel trapped because of this...i dont know what im going to do if someone does it again. i just, i just dont know...
Somethings not right....it happened again..my friends little sister, why? because she wanted to be with her soul mate...and why did he do it? i dont know...its like a romeo and juliet drama..well, i want to know what happened to the happily ever afters...it's gotta stop..somebody has to make this stop.