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Name : Like as if I would give out that information.

Birthday :July 22 , 1979

Sex : Female

Birthplace: Ambulance if you want to be technical about it.I decided to come a bit earlier than the hospital, so they has to pull over into a car repair shop next to the hospital and deliver me...How�s that for special.

Current Location :Antioch, Illinois.

Eye Color : green

Hair Color :Dark Brown though ill have red highlights from the sun in the summer time.

Height :4'11" (do not laugh)

Preference : Bisexual. Yeah so I just told the world. I do not really care anymore. I like them both.

Heritage :Choctaw Indian/German. I take a lot more on my fathers� side with the darker skin and the attitude from my mom. *evil grin*

Weakness :My thoughts. I have a hard time sleeping when I start to think. Some things are personal and others are not, but not every thought is a pleasant one.

Fears :Dying alone

Medical :Things I suffer from are as follows. High risk Depression, Schizoattentive, Paranoia (at times).

Special Phrases :'K' If I am busy you will get only that letter out of me. If not, I use whatever. There are more I am quite sure, but I forgot them.

My Most Missed Memories :My Little Sister R.I.P April 5 1990. My Dad R.I.P. September 13 2005. My Mom R.I.P. May 17 2006.

My Most cherished Memories : The day my daughter was born. Being able to look into her sweet face for the first time is something I will never forget.

My Worst Memories : The time I was told my dad had passed away. I was not in my right mind that night and it has never been the same since. The night my mom past away; I was lying next to her in bed and my sister woke me up screaming, �she�s not breathing.� I checked her and she was not. I knew it was going to happen, but none of us wanted it nor did we thing we had enough time with her. I watched as they took her out in a �bag�. We were told not to look for it has an effect on people. I did not listen and I watched them take her out in a body bag. Most nights I see this plain as day over and over in my head. Baby Nyx telling me to grow up when she learned my dad had died and I was upset. She was good for one thing�putting others down and hard.

Have I Been in Love :Yes a few times actually. The first time was with my daughters� father. One day I told him that I loved him and he said "You can�t" and rolled off. (We were at a skating rink). Time went by and I ended up having a lovely daughter with him. Things did not work for us as a couple (but do as friends) and when she turned 1 I met the first guy I truly loved. His name was Micheal and he was everything I ever wanted. Very kind hearted. We ended up getting engaged on my birthday back in 2000 and broke up in March of 2001(I think. It was right around Easter time). Actually I cannot say we broke up, he ran basically and I tracked him down at work. Then he broke up with me for a 16 year old at the time. (I will never like that girl. We were 6 years apart and she was nothing but a mere child).Things got ruff for me after that, but then back in 2003/2004 I met this girl through the internet from a group I was hosting. You got it...Baby Nyx. I fell hard for her and vice versa at the time. She became my one and only, but things between us started to change after my dad died and as all things do, it died out. I can honestly say I will never find another person like her.

College I attend :College of Lake County

What I want to be : A writer or an English teacher for either college students or a grade school. I would refuse to teach high school for one reason...they do not give a dam.

Places I want to visit :Japan! For years Japan has been the one place I want to see before I die and it always will be. I�ll have to jog over to China though for the food since I do not think I would like Japanese food. As for the states I would like to visit Colorado and see the Grand Canyon. I would also like to go to Arizona cuz it�s hot there and I love the heat.

Piercings :2 (2 in each ear). I did have my bellybutton pierced, but every month it would get infected so I had it removed.

Things I Regret :There are quite a few so here goes. I regret letting others push me around when I was younger (grade school thru high school). I regret letting things bother me when I was younger, resulting in me not paying attention in school and my grades lowering (I now get A�s in college). I regret trying to commit suicide twice. I put my family through hell for that, but that was the first time they opened their eyes and listened to my reasons why. I regret the way I handled things with both my ex fianc�e and Baby Nyx. I could have done things differently, but instead I let my anger and emotions take over. I regret giving up the best job I had and letting the guy win (was harassed). I regret sleeping with certain guys. If I could take those nights back I would. I regret not taking my dad to the hospital the last time around and not going to visit him in time. I regret not going and seeing him after he died in the hospital. I regret not pushing him into going to the better hospital instead of Condel (quacks). I regret not telling him certain things, such as I loved him even if he already knew. I regret not telling my mom about certain things in my life that only a few know (I cannot and will not repeat it). I regret not telling them both that I like girls and not so much guys (In the sexual way).

Nicknames :Shu Chan, Shu, Kutebare, Kute Kun,Cutebear(I hate that one). I�m sure there is more; ill have to ask friends again. ^__^

Friends :James (daughters father), James (One of my best friends), Raymond (Another best friend), Alleya (Once again another best friend), Kakarott (same as before). All others are just acquaintances...or minor headaches.(I was kidding)