The Less Happy Poetry
Small Dreams 10/95
Why is life full of dreams,
Dreams that are made from a tear,
Why do they come into your life,
And other just disappear?
So ussually the question will be will,
when really the question should be who,
Who is in your dream,
And who will make it come true?
Do you ever ask yourself such questions
These questions of life,
About the man you love,
And if you could ever become his wife,
So maybe these questions are stupid,
And do not have much truth,
And maybe he loves you,
But do you have such proof?
Miss Me 2/96
Second story,
Love affair,
Jump i dare you,
Love is rare,
Up and down,
Roller Coaster of fun,
You'll miss me later,
When I'm done,
Streaming Blondness,
Mixed with fears,
I kiss you gently,
Wipe away those tears,
Softness of love,
Soft to the touch,
When I'm gone,
Miss me much,
Arguments done,
Happiness not yet ended,
Little remark,
Do you feel offended,
Hold my hand,
'Til I say good-night
I'll miss you later,
When you're out of sight.
Love 2/96
Love is a four letter word,
Sometimes shared or denied,
Sometimes forgotten,
You can love someone,
And not be in love,
Love isn't all the same,
Love you feel in your heart,
They say you know when you're in love,
But do you?
Are you sure it's love?
Could it be love?
What is love?
Can love go away?
And then return?
Can love linger?
I'll find love,
And the meaning, too.
1/97
If the winter night was to kill me,
Would you cry even one tear,
Or would you turn away,
And decide you never needed me anyways,
Each night without you,
I cry myself to sleep,
Fearing you hate me,
Everytime you whisper those 3 words,
I feel you are telling me a lie.
Do you just not even care,
or are you getting me back,
For when I hurt you just the same,
But you won't forgive me,
Like I have done before
But I forgive you for everything,
Because of all my love for you.
6/18/98
You beat me,
You hit me,
You tear me down,
But you never touched me,
Except for the kiss goodbye.
You used to trap me,
In that dark corner,
Leave me there,
Like a whimpering dog,
With its tail between its legs,
As i cried under my breath,
You'd say you were sorry,
Then walk away,
And return,
As if nothing has happened,
Now it's my turn to walk away,
And pretend nothing happened,
For the last time,
I'm walking into a place,
Where you'll never be able to reach me.
5/11/98
The walls are closing in,
Thickening,
To dampen my scream,
To leave me alonge,
Locked away.
The air grows thin,
Second by second,
And I can feel sleep,
Dragging me away,
From conciousness.
But I fight,
And still I scream,
Even though it's useless,
I know I will not be heard,
Or missed.
6/18/98
Tear me apart,
Into little pieces,
And then examine me,
Tell me what I am,
Tell me about how many times,
My heart has been ripped open,
By a kiss,
Tell me about the bruises,
that will always be trapped,
In my memory.
And then tell me about my tears,
And why they fell,
When I was happy,
Tell me I have a soul-less face,
That everyone seems to think I have,
Because that's all they'll ever see.
Don't Let Go!
Letting go:
No, not possible!
Stay!
Grab my hand!
Hold it tight!
Don't slip away!
Don't give into the pain!
Watch my grow,
Watch me live!
Just don't watch me,
From up there!
Don't tell me
That'll I'll never,
Be able to touch you again,
Or hear you say,
Everything's okay,
Don't let darknesstake over,
Of your soul,
Push it away!
And keep your grip!
No matter how hard you squeeze,
I won't let go,
So don't you dare let go of me!
Don't Let Go! (Part II)
So you let go,
And you let,
The night consume you,
But be aware,
I'm not angry,
I understand your eed,
To go,
And yes,
I wish you hadn't,
But my love for you,
won't let my anger rhough,
So now I cry,
Wishing for one last kiss,
Hug,
Or even a smile,
Knowing it can never be,
Now I know,
It is my turn,
To let go.
10/21/98
Is it wrong?
That I have a want,
To weep for you,
Even though,
You wished it not so?
I cannot speak your name,
For fear,
The burning tears,
Will fall like acid rain,
I cringe,
At the thought,
That you could be gone,
Seems like yesterday,
That I handed you,
Your slice of the birthday cake,
Tears burning my page,
I continue to cry,
For the need of you.
