June 6, 2005



In Christ I can do all things...except sleep. It's the crack of dawn & I'm awake. Ever since I had to report that customer service rep & filled out a police report on the events that took place that day, I've barely slept. I will be thankful when I know it's ok to rest again without worrying. Anymore, you just never know what someone will do when they get angry. Some get violent while others just get verbally hateful. My boss was right when she said that even though I wasn't physically raped, I was mentally. Another lady I spoke to told me of a time when her boyfriend was threatening to kill her & her child. She reported it to the authorities & when it took them a week to find him, they said there was nothing they could do. I wish someone could explain to me why it is that anymore many people can just do whatever they want & get away with it. People should not have to tolerate some of the things that happen to them. The criminals shouldn't be able to just brush the dust from their hands & be able to just walk away. I had to talk to the man's boss on the phone the other day. It ticked me off because when I made a remark about most men being of filthy mind & mouth, he said most men were not. *rolling my eyes* I beg to differ. He then explained to me that this man had never had a complaint before now in the 15 years of service he'd provided. He works with many high profile clients & ones this man knows personally. I simply told him that perhaps he'd been doing this for 15 years & the others were afraid to report it also. I wonder to myself if this is something he just started doing this past year. Who knows? What does it matter? The point is, he's doing it & he thinks it's ok to do it in the first place. If I were to find out someone I knew like my father or brother had done something like that...I would have a fit! I doubt this man was brought up this way. And why does God let him get away with this when he has a wife & one child that I know of? I just won't rest until I know that he's not going to come to my home & try to kill me or something. The point is...nobody should have to go through this. At work as of late, one of the ladies is still being mean to me. It will be my 6th year in July & she still hasn't managed to get used to me or learned to work around me like I do with her. She's always making derogatory remarks about me being on pills because I'm goofy again or making remarks that make me sound like a prostitute. She gets angry with me over nothing & most of the time I have no clue what she's mad about. I work 4 days a week & most of them are with her. Makes for double the stress. I've been trying to just ignore her to the best of my ability. What's sad is that she considers herself to be a good Christian woman. She's very uppity & judgmental & cruel, yet she thinks she's good. I feel sorry for the woman. She's running around picking at the toothpicks in other people's eyes but, doesn't see the wooden spoon in her own. Nothing I do is ever right or it causes her to be on the verge of a nervous breakdown every time she works with me. She says I need to be at a happy medium personality wise. However, I'm quite certain that if I were, it wouldn't be enough. She'd find something else to pick at. She's very stuffy & has no sense of humor. She can't possibly have much joy in her life. That is so sad!! I've learned to just accept it & ignore it. Sometimes I will verbally defend myself & at least stand my ground but, mostly I just ignore her. What else can one do besides pray for her & just make the best of it? I'd report her too but, she lies something terrible & I just don't have the energy to bother with it. I have more important things to do in life than argue with a bitter & hateful old woman.