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Finally I am happy. This loneliness is filled and I no longer need to search. Fulfillment… it feels good. I lay my head down beside her. She smells so good, so nice, like the bed of roses. You’d think that the world is complete now. You think that at this point, nothing else can be better… As I turn to get up, she kisses me on my neck and my body shivery… And I let out this slight smile… of course she does not see me, but I know that she is smiling also…and with those adoring eyes... looking at me. Those pretty, pretty eyes. What of friendship to this. What of a friendship that has been so long and has been through so much. A little push in one direction is sometimes all it takes. And you think that all this time was a could have been… and now… could have?...

So what else can you say in this moment… what else can you do but let out a gentle sigh. You don’t think of the before or the after. Nothing can bring you away from this moment. And somehow it is not real but it is and it feels right. It feels natural. The bliss and then…

Too bad this IS not real. Too bad that I have woken up. Too bad this happiness is just dreamt away…