Apr. 17, 2004

The simplicities of life.... how easily they are all depleted when the outside forces begin to take over. And how life was so much more meaningful when there was less. When you had nothing, there seemed to be more of an appreciation for the world because everything else compared to nothing was great...
OK, now that you realize that the world operates in a particular way revolving around the acquisition of things, mainly which is money, you realize that simplicity can not cut it. To live is to work, and to acquire more is to acquire more happiness, so we think. This is what we do to preoccupy our time. This is what we do to keep us focused. A sensible task with a purpose. Sustain the lifestyle that we have built and to get the wants that we so much desire.
For everyone else, conceptually, this is great, for the ambitious, this is killer. The ambitious want to succeed, and what better measure of success than money. With all this money comes power. And with the power....it gets to the head. Look at all these top execs and little rich boys who will inherit millions. Call it confidence, or call it arrogance. Why earn respect when you can buy it. There begins to be levels of class where money is an easy excuse to put yourself on that upper echelon.
Maybe why I gripe is because I am afraid I may turn out this way. Maybe where my life may lead, I might lose myself and not be able to turn off the man I am becoming and keep the man I was. As each day passes, I find the world becoming more and more complicated. There are more and more things that I must do to keep it all together, but because of this, it moves me closer to a point where there is more money, more power, and more respect. I lead in and then I turn it off. I lead in again, and then I turn it off. But maybe on day, I lead in and I can no longer turn it off. I will have become the money hungry mogul when places myself above others. I would have become a soulless robot who only sees work and the monetary rewards that come from the endless road. And then I just forget where I was, and what it would mean to just give everything up...
Show me 10 millionaires and I'll show you 9 unhappy people...