Jan. 13, 2004
I hate it... I don't think I know how to live life anymore... All the rule I have learned in doing things up to this point are useless now in dealing with the situations that I am in. Weather right or wrong, it is all wrong. I'm on the fence and on both side... two big pit bulls ready to shred me apart....
What ever happened to the person who knew the right from the wrong... all I know is how to be selfish... and although that might be a good thing... sleep hasn't been all that good lately...
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to the days that were once new...
the memories of the old linger
and all I see now is smoke
grasped by the hands of a child
only to find a clean breath
a clarity to light the darkness...