June 17, 2003
Looking back... I can see how much we have grown, but how little we now know. I can think back to all the events that have accumulated to bring me to this moment where I sit here discussing life with friends.... I've been here already..... 6 years ago. Did I go and have some sort of relapse. 6 years ago, I knew nothing of how my life is now. I knew that there was a career out there waiting for me, there were places that I would go...and there were people that I would meet...that passed in... and passed out.... But that was all to come. I knew nothing. It was all new. It was all discovery of myself and it would all be to expand my mind and what I knew of this world. Work is now work, maps now clarified, and here I sit redefining life in my small circle, again... only to figure out that what we want is to be back to where we were before all this. When we were really just kids. Not knowing where the day led but knew that there were some meaning to it. Back when it was OK in not knowing. Back to getting excited about all the new that would come. Back to a time where we knew nothing about relationships and what to do in them, we just sucked but that's why they were fun.... and now, we just know everything all too well. Maybe that why we stay away from them. I'm back here wanting to redo it all again.... not because of any mistakes (there are no wrongs), but just to live it.... just to remember again how it was to get from there to here.