June 12, 2003
My memory fades. I forget. Things slip away... This brain of mine was meant to keep all these thoughts, all these images, all these feelings....The lines are no so clear anymore.... but then, just like that, I get these sudden moments of intensity. Moments that overwhelm me. Moments that can tell a lifetime of stories but last all of a fraction of a second. Triggered by what? Anything, everything, nothing.... I get immersed in my thought. My mind is now in a different place. I'm there. I can feel this dream that was the fabric of my life. I smell the essence of my past. I turned real again what was my fantasy. How soon everything goes from is to was...
I enjoy my moments
I smell vanilla
I feel the wind in the open air on a two wheeler
I dance in Coco Bongos
I taste the Ahi Tuna on my tongue
I see the sunset at the Ferries
I hear the voice of the announcer on the Shinkesen
I sun tan in the Caribbean
I laugh at the hotel in San Fran
I embrace my first kiss
I remember the pain of leaving
I forget...
I........