April 20, 2003
Where does all the time go..... I took Thursday off to study for my brain numbing test which gave me an available 5 day weekend and what has it left me with....too much time. It's Sunday night and I dont have to go to work but what do I want to do.... go back to work. What is wrong with this thinking I have here. Most people cherish the fact that they have an extra second to themselves and I here I am, an extra day and i'm BORD!!!! I think that the mind is conditioned to a certain pattern that it becomes this unbreakable routine which most people get stuck into. In my case, stress. Is it that I have to stay stressed all the time to feel normal.
Finally finishing my test, I realize that the Summer is mine. I walk towards my car and realize that I have no more school to stress over and this worries me. Here I am bitching and complaining about the woes of school and wanting to the more classes for the summer. Maybe this formula works:
No stress = Time
Time = Thinking
Thinking = pondering all the bad thing in life to why it always rains when you want to wash your car????
Maybe to key to it all is to settle into a new stress free lifestyle where all is new and free thought is instrumental for free a spirit....
Maybe i'm just an idiot......