"Mark, Mark, Mark. Get you ass down here now before I kick it down".
Caz was screaming she was so mad how dared he do that to Sam. Then Mark popped his head round the door. Just as the rest of the guys came inside to see what all the fuss was about. "What the hell is wrong with you. How can you do that? I've left her at home crying her eyes out. She doesn't have a clue what's going on. If your cheating on her I will bloody well kill you. I thought you loved her. I guess that was a lie just to get her into bed. You're all the same. Say I bloody love you and think that makes everything all right. But it doesn't. Did you think it was fun playing with her feelings then tossing her aside when you had enough."
" Caz calm down. Its not that easy". Nicky said trying to calm things down typical Nicky Caz thought "You know Mark loves her." "Ok if he loves her why is Sam at home crying her eyes out over him. Why isn't it that easy? I just want to know what the hell is going on. And how come you seem to know more than I do? Its all my fault I told her to forget the rules."
" Rules what rules" Kian said a little confused.
"The rules we have. Well Caz has rules, but I use them too. Well I did. Until I met Mark." Everyone turned to the door where Sam was standing. She looked awful her eyes were puffy and red.
" Can you all leave us alone so we can talk please? I think you owe me that Mark at least."
Everyone went outside and left Sam and Mark alone.
Caz went and sat down on the wall. She was angry, sad all her feelings were messed up she didn't no what to think. She started crying and for her that was strange she new why. It wasn't really Mark she was mad at It was herself.
"Hey what's up? Don't cry it's scary when you cry." Caz slapped Kian in a friendly way. "Oh great I scare you thanks that makes me feel all warm and snug. I'm ok just a bit weird today I blame the hormones." Kian smiled "You always blame your hormones. When you eat chocolate, when your not meant to you blame them 'its not my fault, hormones'". Kian said in a girlie voice.
"Yeah well that's all I can do." "Are you going to tell us the rules then"
"The what. Oh rules. No. No can do then you will know what us girls think."
Kian looked at her hard "I only want to know what you think" "Ok since its you." Trying her best to laugh of what Kian just said.
"Rule 1 is-Never tells a guy you love him even if you want to tell the universe.
2-Don't always be avalable for him. 3- always end a conversation before he does.4-If a guy says he loves you run. That's all I can remember." Caz looked at Kian trying to search in his eyes for something then he looked down at the ground. Kian had to tell Caz how he felt every time he saw he died he wanted her so much.
Kian Spoke "What if you think that both of you have the same feelings. and neither of you say what you want to tell that person. Say for example. I was in love with this girl. I don't know how she feels about me but I know there is something there. Do I tell her that I love her. Or risk losing her to someone else and regret it for the rest of my life." Ok Caz thought Kian asking me for love advice. Mr lover man himself. Mind you Kian had been single for over a year now. Even though there were stories in the papers all the time about him dating this bird and that. It wasn't true.
He had been going through it lately after some girl called Jolene sold a story to the papers. Kian didn't even no her.
"I take it were are talking about a real person here as you're a bad liar." Kian looked at her again and wished he could tell her who it was. He wanted to so much. But it was a scary thing. Cause once she new that was it. It could go from good to bad. He wouldn't be able to speak to her again. " Yeah I am She broke up with her ex a while ago I was so happy it was crazy. I've liked her for ages. We have become really close. I want to tell her but I don't want to lose her."
Caz's heart skipped a beat. She had been having the same problem being the problem was Kian. " I know how you feel. I'm having the same problam. That's why I'm so stressed. I want to tell him. Every time I hear he is seeing someone new I feel like my heart has been ripped out. You should tell her. If you are really that close your friendship won't die. If it does maybe its not really meant to be." Caz smiled nervously and looked at Kian.
Wow maybe just maybe Caz was talking about him. "I'll tell you if you tell me" "Deal." They both took a deep breath and went to say who there loves were when Kian felt like a knife had opened his chest and ripped his heart out with a spoon. "Shane" Kian heard her say. The space where Caz was just sitting was empty now she had gone to Shane. "Hey Kian how are ya. Having a nice chat with Caz I see or did see." Bryan looked at Kian a bit confused he looked weird. "How could I have been so stupid to believe? I'm going to have my own rule. Don't love her." Kian got up and went over to where Nicky, was. Bryan looked at Kian and new he was taking about Caz it was written over his face. Written in the stars. If you like.
Mark and Sam finally came back outside. " We have great news". Sam started to say before Mark let it out. he had been waiting ages for this moment. " Were engaged". "Wow you don't waste time do ya Mark. Good luck mate." Nicky said giving Sam and Mark a hug. " Come on back to my place for drinks" Shane said wow. This was great news.
THE PRESANT.
Caz had been in the coma for about a week now. Some of the machines had gone she had her own private room with a TV. Everyone took turns to spend time with Caz today it was Sam's turn it was Thursday and Buffy was on. " Hay Caz wake up. You're so lazy you know. Wait to you find out how many eps you have missed of Buffy your going to be mad. I have to go now but I will be back tomorrow honey." Sam held Caz's hand " Please wake up Caz I need you we all do."
Sam picked up her coat and walked out the door. She got down to her car and she noticed she had left her keys in Caz's room. When she got back upstairs she saw that Kian was sitting besides Caz. Sam put her ear to the door and couldn't believe what he had just said.
" Caz you have to wake up. You're my only hope of ever sorting my feeling out. At least I can now tell you that I Love you to your face without your answer." Kian thought he would feel better but he didn't he just put his head on the side of the bed and prayed.
That was it Sam new what she had to do. She got out her mobile once she was back outside. "Mark I need you to go to my place and go into my bedroom. In a pink box on top of my wardrobe can you bring the box inside it down as soon as you can please." " Yeah sure what's going on" "I'll explain everything when you get here."
Caz was still unsure of where she was. "You know when we broke up I was upset more than I showed but yet I new everything would be ok" She was saying to Shane. "Where am I" She looked at Shane he at her " Its your dream world. The place you want to be." " This is my dream world. Ok I want fluffy clouds pretty daisies all in a row. I would have Robbie Williams here to you know." Shane looked at his feet. " Don't you want to be here with me Caz I thought we loved each other."?
She felt guilty from what she was about to say. " I miss my friends, family everything that I had." Shane looked at her "You can go back you know. You just have to open your heart and tell me what you want. Me or not?"
While Sam was waiting for Mark to turn up she thought about going into Kian and speaking her mind but yet what she had in mind was better. Then when she thought "sod it i'm going in". Mark turned up with the box. She loved him so much he loved her the same.
"Sorry I couldn't find the box. What is this all about is it going to help Caz" Sam placed a hand on Marks face and kissed him gently. "I hope so this will help two people I hope.
Sam entered Caz's room Kian jumped out of his skin. "What. Why. You shouldn't be here you went home." Kian said worried Mark was confused why was Kian here and what did it have to do with the box.
" Kian's been coming here this time everyday since Caz has been in a coma. And staying and leaving just before anyone got here. Isn't that right Kian."?
"Yeah it is. She is my friend I hated the thought of her being alone. I love her. More than I want to" " I know Sam said I heard you that is why I'm doing this for you and Caz although she would kill me. Here you go I think you should have this." Sam gave Kian the box it contained letters. He took the box and sat down to read them. He didn't know what to think when he sat down and opened the letter. He didn't even hear Sam or Mark leave.
Letter dated 1997
Dear Kian.
Kian stopped reading. 'Ok that was strange. Considering Caz and him didn't know each other then. They have only known each other for 3 years. He carried on anyway.
Dear Kian Egan,
I don't know who you are but I just played the ouji bored and it told me you were going to change my life forever. When I meet you if I do I will tell you what that is.
Ok weird Kian thought. Caz played the Ouji bored. Kian was shocked but he was intrigued to read the next letter.
Letter dated 2000
Wow I think I meet you today. Kian Egan. I always thought that it was a joke maybe a name Sam had made up but your real. Well Mr Kian Egan don't I have news for you.
Caz x
"That's why she looked at me strange when I said my name" He thought. Kian read about 5 more letters till he got to the last one this letter was dated 2 days before the wedding. Shane's wedding and. He didn't get to finish what he was thinking when the machine beeped. And all the doctors and nurses came rushing in. Caz had gone into cardiac arrest. Kian was pushed out side he didn't see the last letter fall to the floor.
As Kian got outside he saw everyone walking towards Caz's room. Sam saw kian's face he was crying she thought it was because of the letters. Sam broke into a run " Kian what's wrong? Please don't say she's dead. God no please."
Caz didn't know what to tell Shane. Her friends. Or Shane who should she pick. " I want you Shane. But I want my friends more". "Ok so be it. Follow your heart and remember the greatest thing in this world is to love and be loved in return." With that Shane touched her head. she could see everything. Looking at her dress in the mirror, walking up the alile, with the man she loved. The gunshot going threw her body. She remembered everything what had happened. Caz opened her eyes to see doctors and nurses around her. But yet she could only think of one person. 'Kian'.
She will be fine this is Caz were talking about. She's a fighter." Bryan was trying to bring everyone's sprits up including his own.
The doctor came out of the room. And walked over to where the group was all standing .
" Your friend is ok, and" The doctor didn't have a chance to finish before Sam asked the question everyone was thinking "She is alive thank god" Sam grabbed Marks hand. "The best news yet is that she is awake you can go in and see her just don't wear her out.
Sam was the first one in the room followed by Shane then Mark, Bryan and Nicky, then Kian.
"About time you woke up, I hope you had a nice sleep." Nicky said
"Yeah you sure no how to get the attention" Shane said walking around the other side and taking her hand.
Kian looked at the way that Caz looked at Shane he wanted so much for that to be him but it wasn't happening " Shane, Oh God I'm so sorry." "Don't worry your ok now everything is fine. I love you. Don't you do anything like that again" "Ok I won't" Caz was so glad to have all the people she loved back again.
Everyone had gone apart from Sam. " Caz I hate you. I was worried sick. I need you in my life ok you're my best friend. I better leave you to rest I will see you tomorrow." Sam was just about to walk out the door when she saw the pick box and the letters. 5 of them had been read but the last one was unopened. Kian didn't read it. Sam thought. She took the box with her when she left the room and put the letter in her jacket she would have to give that to kian soon.
A MONTH LATER
Caz was finally been let out of hospital with the all clear. She was at home talking to Shane on the phone. " What do you mean you want to get married tomorrow?" " Life is short I don't want to wait another day. I have it all booked everyone knows about it. Apart from Kian I need to call him now and get him back from London." Caz hadn't seen Kian since that day in the hospital. He had packed his bags and said he was doing Smtv live for a few weeks to cover Brain and Tess while they had a break. She really wanted to see him and he had to be at the wedding.
Shane put down the phone and called Kian. "Yeah mate I'm getting married tomorrow you have to be there." "Who are you marrying?" "What do you mean who am I marrying the girl I was marrying in the first place the one that no matter how much I try I love her more and more everyday. I can't face my life without her. Caz". Kian felt a pang in his heart it was official Caz and Shane were marrying tomorrow 'I should have told her I loved her but no not me' " I'll be there"
The wedding was an hour away Kian stood outside Caz's house he could see everyone inside getting ready. Caz looked lovely in her dress. What Kian didn't no was that Sam saw him standing there, Finally she could give him the letter. She grabbed it and legged it down the stairs.
" Kian Egan there you are. I have something for you". She gave him the letter the one he didn't read. Kian didn't say anything he just took the letter and turned away.
"Why isn't Kian coming, what the hell" Shane was not a happy bunny Kian was his best mate for "Christ sake he should be here". Shane was pacing "He had to go it was important". Nicky was doing his best to calm Shane down. But it wasn't working. " Caz is going to go mad".
"Why am I" Caz heard her name from outside the door she looked at Shane as if to say what. "Kian's not coming Caz. His bloody not going to be here." "What why" "He has a job to do." Caz thought she was going cry. "Did he say if he was going straight away or what?" "His gone home to pack" Bryan said
"Right. I'm going to get him. Don't start the wedding without me ok"
Shane went over and hugged Caz " We couldn't do that could we. blonde".
Caz had never driven so fast in her life She just hoped he was still there.
Kian was all packed he just had to change his jacket when the letter fell out. The one Sam gave him that moring. The one he never read.
Final letter dated 2 days before the wedding.
'Dear Kian
I'm not sure how to say this. So I will do by best. We have known each other for 3 years we have been really close. I hope we can tell each other anything. Remember when we made that promise. Well I lied. I didn't tell you one thing. In two days I will be walking up the aisle. But not in the way I thought. Cause I won't be able to breath knowing that.'
Kian jumped out of his skin he managed to put the letter in his back pocket of his jeans before Caz saw it.
"What the hell do you think you are doing? How do you think Shane feels knowing that you're not at the wedding? You're meant to be his best friend and how do you think that I feel. What is your issue?"
"Don't come in here screaming to me about best friends. When I'm in love with my best friends girl the one he is about to walk up the alise with. The only way I can deal is to leave."
"Your in love with with. How can you do that at this time? God you're so. so male. You better hurry up and leave or you'll miss your plane." Caz was hurt how could Kian do that he was her best friend, and Shane's
What had Kian just said it wasn't meant to come out like that. "Shit, Caz wait look I had to tell you it was doing my head in I know you don't. Oh what the hell. I love you".
Caz didn't hear the last part she was out the drive, and on her way to the church.
"Kian's not coming lets just get on with it" Caz said walking inside "All the guys looked at each other confused especially Shane. " That is it I've had enough of him and his goddamn moods screw it. Lets get on with the wedding."
The wedding went so quickly. "At least no one got shot;" Bryan said laughing
"Shane" Shane heard his named called he turned and saw Kian standing there.
"You're here I thought you left." "I was then Caz popped round and told me a few things. You're my mate Shane. I'm really glad for you I hope you both will be happy. Take care of Gillian or you will have me to deal with." Shane was so happy Kian was there. Caz would be too if he could find her since the wedding she had disappeared.
"Have you seen Caz bry? I want to speak to her," Kian said. "She's gone home to change she said".
That was it Kian new he had to explain everything to Caz. He couldn't believe that he thought Shane and Caz were getting married he was marrying Gillian in the first place everything had got so confussed.
Sam was sitting in Caz's bedroom trying to console her while she was crying her eyes out. " I can't believe you gave him the letters what was you thinking".
Sam new Caz didn't mean it she was upset after finding out she had giving Kian the letters after her being in the coma.
"Sorry. He didn't read them all. So you are ok to breath"
'Knock knock' "I'll get it. Maybe its Mark."
Caz was just about to go down stairs and see where Sam was when she heard.
"The greatest thing in this world is to love. And be loved in return." Caz new that line anywhere. She had put it in Kian's letter. It was also what the Ouji bored had said he would say to her. She died for the second time. Caz, span round. She folded her arms thinking that would help keep Kian away from her.
"Before you say anything. Like I know your going to let me tell you something. I love you, I know I've said that to you before but it was taken out of content. You didn't hear me say you"
"What. your in love with Gillian. Do you know how gross that is being in love with your cousin. You know the one who just married your best friend and would have done a month ago if the thing wasn't ruined by that crazy fan. Shooting me"
"You thought I was talking about Gillian." Kian laughed and walked over to Caz. But she turned from him.
" I'm not in love with Gillian. I thought that Shane was marrying you I got confused. Anyway do you blame me Do you remember that day when Sam and Mark had the row? We were going to tell each other who we liked. You said Shane" .
Caz went to protest but she knew Kian was right. She did say Shane she didn't mean to. it was that She chickened out, "Only Cause I didn't want you to look at me and be wigged that I said I said. You. I'm in love with you. Shit damn you Kian"
Kian's heart started to beat again since Caz had said Shane that day it had stopped. Now it was beating for the first time.
"Everyday you were in hospital I sat by your bed wishing you would come back. I prayed. I prayed to be only yours, and you only mine. I know you're my only hope. I love you Caz I have done for the past 3 years. Everyday second, minute when I thought I was going to lose you I couldn't stand it. When you woke up from your coma I was really happy and." Caz put a finger on Kian's lips.
"Can we not talk and can you just be kissing me right now" Kian didn't need to be asked twice he had been dreaming of this moment billions of time now it was happening. When they had finally stopped Kian thought about the first letter Caz had wrote him. " Caz. In the first letter you wrote me what did the Ouji bored tell you about me." Caz couldn't hide her smile that kiss was amazing Kian had the kind of kiss that could make you want to disappear in to it forever and never stop.
Caz put her arms around Kian. " It told me it was you. You were the one I was going to you were going to change my life. When you did you would say
'The greatest thing in this world is to love. And be loved in return." Caz blushed could all this really be happening. Before the accident Caz was planning on telling Kian. But when she found out the he would be walking up the aisle with her as an escort she had flipped out.
"I thought you didn't tell guys you loved them" Kian smiled remembering when Caz had said that about the rules of romance.
"Yeah well I've decided to throw that book away. Un less you want me to take it back" Caz said letting go of kian and walking out the door. She didn't get fair before he grabbed her. He had a tear in his eyes. Caz knew that,
'In places no one would find. All his feelings so deep inside. It was there that she realized that forever was in his eyes. The moment she saw him cry'
" I love you. Will you marry me?" Finally Kian could say what he wanted to. Was longing for "Do I have much of a choice Mr Egan?" "No" Kian said with his cheeky boy smile. Kian new Caz was playing round but yet there was that little fear that she would leave and never come back. " I have to say yes only cause I've got used to you and." Caz didn't get a chance to finish before Kian was kissing her again. Caz Knew so did Kian that 'The greatest thing in the world was to love and be loved in return' they showed each other that.