My very own poems
This site contains the most precious and personal things to and about me. I don't have a diary, or better, I don't use it anymore. Instead I have my writing. Most of the stuff I feel and experience(d) is expressed somewhere in my fics. But this certain kind of writing is probably the most precious to me. My poetry. Some wouldn't even describe it as poetry as it does not have any rhyme (well, mostly) or regular rhythm...but thruth to be know...poetry doesn't need that all the time. My poems help me feel better when nothing can make me do so. They are a piece of me, my innermost me. So please consider that as you are reading this. Thank you for taking the time. Anne
Yell Yell Yell Yell Yell
just shout it out
no one will listen
just cry
no one will see the tears
you can destroy
you can clench your fists
punch and hurt yourself
your teeth tearing your skin
small, red drops of blood
so sweet, desperate relief
fingers pulling your hair
your outlet for your pain
just do it
no one will notice
no one will care
It feels like
Falling
No one is there
to hold me and
deeper - deeper - deeper
try to hold you
but you won't let me
I take your hand
but you let go
try to wipe your tears
but I can't reach
you turn your head
close your eyes
mouth - arms - heart - soul
from me
your eyes beg me
to need your heart
you tear mine out
I want to heal you
love you - hold you
but you won't let me
I don't know how
Help me
help you
to help me!
dark
dark
dark
So dark
Too dark
I'm Drowning
Suffocating
Hurting
Crying
Dying
Can't Breathe
Can't Move
Losing Control
Losing Touch
Losing Ground
Faith
Belief
Relief
Believe
Relieve - I can't
Crushing the cushion
of the seat below
I fall down
let myself fall
don't hold on to anything
and a thought
crosses my mind
and I let go
don't hold to anything
and I cry
'cause everything seems like
nothing
and nothing seems like
everything
changing roles
not me anymore
I let go and
don't hold on anymore
to anything
anymore
| Original version | Final version |
|---|---|
| All these lies | All these lies |
| just slipping off my tongue | just slipping off my tongue |
| it's easy | it's so easy |
| the words flow | the flowing words |
| without any thought | so quiet, silent screams |
| exercising | exercising |
| exercising | exercising |
| lies are slipping | lies are slipping |
| where's the truth | where's the truth |
| don't know anymore | what's the truth |
| no importance | in these words |
| in these words | no importance |
| slipping - slipping | slipping - slipping |
| these lies | these lies |
| become the truth | become the truth |
| when I close my eyes | when I close my eyes |
| but never reality | from reality |
| these lies | |
| true - never real |