Dear Sam,
Blaze and I are so wrong for each other. I am looking for a sensitive guy, who is very romantic and who hates scarcasm. Blaze is well....he's looking for...I'm not really sure. One thing is for certain he isn't looking for me.
Tonight he came into the youth group house and he didn't say one word to me. Then when Ashley asked him about it after church, he said 'she slipped my mind' I SLIPPED HIS MIND!?!?!?!?!?!?! I am his girlfriend. I have feelings just like any other person and I'm just wondering why I'm still with him. He honestly isn't ready for a girlfriend at this time in his life.
I'm begining to wonder if I did something wrong or if I am a bad person to have such a bad love life. My boyfriends all have deep issues that they need resolved:
1.) Ty- fear of musical chairs and Kool Aid.
2.) Lenny- asked me for money and never paid me back. Also obsession issues.
3.) Doug- he had no issues. I however had an issue with his shortness.
4.) Brennan- fear of commitment. we never talked and he broke our dates because he kept puking up smoothies. Strawberry, Cherry, you name it, he puked it.
5.) Ian- anger issues. He hit my best friend in the mouth and she had braces.
6.) John- he used me. Everyone thought he was gay so he used me to prove that he wasn't
7.) Mike- childishness. He was too childish and I really kinda used him.
8.) BLAZE- ???. I don't know what his problem is. He ignores me all the time, but claimed he loves me. What do you think????
And he also told Ashley, "Oh, I'll call her tonight" the conversation was at eight thirty and it is now ten thirty. GRRRR! HE LIED AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!
I am going to break up with him. My happiness depends on it. I can't go on thinking that no one loves me and that I will never find my prince charming, but let's face it.
There isn't a wonderful charming man who is going to come and sweep me off my feet. He doesn't exist. I can't wait forever to be rescued!
Oh Sam! What can I do??????????
-Karie J.