Dear Sam,
Tina and I went to Connect (Sunday nights at the church). Blaze (my bf) ignored me, like always. He makes me soooooooooooooo mad sometimes. Other times it feels like we aren't even going out. He barely says one word to me.
Then the whole youth group went swimming, but Blaze was too busy dunking Annie or throwing a football to notice I was a breathing human being. GRR!
Ashley, his niece told he he isn't too serious about girls. However she was VERY surprised when she learned that he had told me that he loves me. Ashley is becoming a great friend of mine. Oh yes!
Blaze did talk to me later on:
Blaze: (directed to Tina) "I'm not an orange poptart anymore"
Karie: (which is me!) "Yes you are! Now your the only one!" pause "But now you are a de-iced orange poptart."
Blaze: (offended) "Hey!"
Karie: "Just so you know, thats bad."
Blaze: (scarcastic) "No! Really?"
{For future references, i HATE scarcasm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!}
Next convo:
Blaze: "Hey, about the movie, my dad said I could go, but when I asked my mom, she said I couldn't"
Karie: "Okay"
Blaze: "Just so you know."
Next convo:
Blaze pats me on the back as he passed me by.
Karie: "Hey! You hit me!"
Blaze; "No I didn't!"
Ashley: (yes, Ashley was there) "Say you're sorry! That was mean!"
Blaze: (scarcastically) "I'm sorry"
Blaze: (to Ashley) "I din't hit her!"
Blaze: (to us both) "It was a love tap." then he runs away. [literally...he ran!]
Karie: (thinking) 'Um......ok?'
Sometimes I feel Blaze is too good to be true. Other times I feel he is just like the rest of my ex-boyfriends who have deep issuses that they need to fix. I love Blaze, I love him alot. But I don't feel is is ready to commit himself to a relationship. Because most of my relationships were serious. I don't know about him, but I am a very jealous individual.
So I have been tapped. OK? Until later Sam.
-Karie J.