Possessed
ghosts remain
poltergeists of the heart
thrashing about in my head
when rest will not come
in the still of night
memories stir; I am
haunted by the thoughts of you
how you slept next to me
warm and silent
I watched the rise & fall of your chest
comforted in your nearness
ephemeral presences
make themselves known
as I see the empty desk
once laden with your digital children
now barren & dusty...
marked only by the imprints of your leaving
spirits of the past
visit nocturnally
causing me to wonder
where do you lie tonight
with whom do you share your time
where do you travel
to meet the woman
whose arms greet you now
kisses so tender
I ache in the remembrance
knowing I shall
never again feel
the closeness of you
behind me ~ your arms enfolding
in such love as I had never known
the connection
as skins melted into one another
heat and sweat blurring boundaries
where you ended & I began
who now knows
that gentleness
that sweetness
which I am forever now
denied...
The present is unforgiving
on the subject of our past
where did I lose you?
when did our love die?
when did you realize that
you must move on, away from me?
and I wonder if the future will heal me
I will never forget anything about you
a scar will take its place
upon my heart, my soul:
longing will remain...
k.e.cline, 11/16/99
for Nathan - I miss you so...