I feel life passing me by.
I never thought I would
Find myself alone like this.
All my hopes and dreams of
Finding a lasting love have
Long since died.
Even my hopes of finding a
Lasting friendship are passing.
All that is left for me is
This endless feeling of emptiness.
I ache to be filled with
Something, anything.
My fear is that in my need
I'll turn to the wrong thing.
That I'll accept even a life
Filled with pain and sorrow
Just to feel again.
I couldn't survive living
Like that again.
I would rather end it now.
But even that I'm afraid of.
What if it brings not an end
But a beginning of a pain
That will never end.
And so I sit here, watching, waiting.
Because I know it will
End on it's own.
Or I will gather my courage
And conquer my fears
Once and for all.