I stand and watch as he passes by.
I wish just once he would look at me,
Really look.
Not just at the surface but into me.
Into my heart.
Then he would know how I really
Feel about him.
I love him so much that it hurts.
But I can never let him know this.
I have to keep it buried deep within me.
We're just good "friends".
That's all he wants
And all he needs right now.
And I love him enough to want to
Give him what he needs.
So I'll watch as he passes,
As he flirts with one and then another.
Knowing he'll never turn to me.
Until the pain becomes to
Much for me to bear.
Then I'll quietly slip out of his life
So that he'll never know
What it's cost me to be there for him.
And once he stops turning to me
For friendship, I'll end the pain.